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❝  ...such a coward. ❞

kageyama couldn't stop thinking about you.

he almost kissed you. he knew that it was a one-sided love, but he couldn't resist. you're beautiful in his eyes. the thing that got him attracted to you was your eyes and smile. he couldn't stop staring at you, couldn't wrap his mind around anything else but the way you moved, how you tugged your hair behind when you're looking at him during practice, and the reddish hues tinted across your cheeks when both of you accidentally made eye contact. he was now laying on the bed, his hand clutching on his shirt tightly. the butterflies in his stomach made his hands  sweatier and it was not good. every time he saw you, his palm itched with the desire to touch you.

"calm down... calm down..."

kageyama sighed deeply. it was useless after all.

he slipped on his black house shoes and went to the kitchen to grab some snacks. kageyama hated supper, but he thought that eating chocolate cookies and drinking milk will help him to sleep. it was already 11:30 pm. grabbing the plate carefully, he put it on the table. he definitely didn't want to wake his parents, especially his mother. she was a light sleeper, even the slightest sound, all that chomping, slurping and clinking of plates will wake her up. kageyama poured the milk inside the cup slowly, suddenly remembering that you told him drinking milk every day helped him to grow taller. 

he smiled, and that's the reason why he was doing that every day.

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There's so much time,

For me to speak up, but I keep quiet.

"say something-"

you flicked on the tv channels as you wanted to watch something to distract your thoughts. you almost kissed your best friend, and you didn't push him away. you couldn't describe how beautiful and extraordinary the feeling of him staring at you, cupping your cheeks and slowly leaning in. at that moment, you didn't know what to do. your legs felt like jelly when his nose touched yours. you tried not to freak out but you did. your eyes glued shut, it's like- you thought it was stupid, but the feeling was magical, as if kageyama and you were caught in a loop where no one was around but the both of you. you're waiting for the moment to come, to feel his soft, warm lips connected to yours.

when you opened your eyes, he was already gone.

you kept questioning yourself. why did you want to kiss him? was it because you're lonely as well? or were you attracted to him long time ago, but you didn't want to admit your feelings? it was somehow complicated. you actually thought that you like him, and you tried to analyse your feelings and thoughts to make you understand your situation better.  but it's even worse now. it made you felt uneasy. what if kageyama didn't run away?

flicking through the channels again, you came across a romance movie. the handsome male lead pulled the girl's body against his and he brushed her lips with his. your breath hitched when you suddenly thought about kageyama. you let out a frustrated sigh and switched off the tv before heading towards your room.

you flopped onto your bed and slipped out your shoes, grabbing your phone beside the nightstand and started browsing through your social media.

suddenly, your phone rang. you're flabbergasted, to say the least. you could feel your cheeks turn red again. kageyama was calling you at this hour. you didn't expect this at all. you rubbed your palms on your sheets, hesitantly picking up the call. you're silent at first, waiting for him to talk. you could only hear the sound of his heavy breathing. it was clear that none of you had the courage to speak first. you bit your bottom lip nervously, praying that he would say something.

...

"...i miss your voice, dumbass."

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It's a spotlight stuck on the ceiling,

Why are these the things that I'm feeling?

"don't run away-"

"yachi-san, can you help me to inform hinata that i'm not joining him for lunch today?" kageyama looked away to hide his embarrassment, hoping that the girl didn't ask him any questions. she shushed him quickly as though he had spoken too loudly in the classroom. kageyama quickly covered his mouth, and yachi was giggling how clumsy he is. "good luck, kageyama kun! i know you can do this, fighting!" she patted his shoulder and left the classroom.

"great, we are alone now."

he slowly walked towards your seat and stood in front of you, then observing your features carefully. you're sleeping at your desk, the gentle snuffles and the rhythmic rise and fall of your chest make him think that you're adorable. he pulled out a chair and sat beside you, caressing your hair gently. the desire was there. kageyama was trying his best to control himself.

you scrunched up your nose when you feel someone was poking on your cheeks. opening your eyes slowly, a face could be vaguely seen. as your vision started to clear up, your eyes captured the view of kageyama leaning closer to you.

"w-what?! what are you doing here?!" you yelled at him and pushed his face away. you're shocked that your best friend, kageyama tobio, was trying to do the same thing again. and why was he here in the first place?

he scratched the side of his neck in embarrassment, putting two sandwiches and one chocolate milk on your table. "it's already lunch break, moron..." you nodded awkwardly and mumbled a "thanks" when he unwrapped the sandwich for you. both of you didn't sleep last night. you guys talked about many, many things, but you can't really remember everything.

you just realized that his voice was really smooth, like butter in a warm pan.

"(y/n)?"

"uh...huh?"

"uhh... c-can... do you want to watch me practice today?"

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edited by zxyisigh ,,

5/12/19

A/N: i promise i will write longer for the next chapter lmao HHAHAHHAHAHA
editor's note: ain't this precious bean aka sunnie bootiful-