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❝ go away, dumbass - ❞

it was summer again.

you tugged your hair behind, tying it up into a ponytail and looked at the mirror once again. you smiled slightly, adjusting your red bow tie before you applied a pink lip balm to your bottom lip and rubbed your lips together. you're confident, to say the least. there were a few tiny freckles across your cheeks. many people laughed at you because of that; they thought you didn't wash your face properly, resulting in a speck of dirt on your cheeks. you're ashamed at first, but there was a little boy who told you that those freckles were like a constellation—beautiful dotted lines connected together that made you look different. you're looking yourself in front of the mirror, remembering those words that kageyama had said to you. his words had a very big impact on you for the rest of your life. thanks to him, you're now able to talk to strangers face to face without staring on the ground.

a "pop" sound could be heard the moment you stretched your arms over your head. glancing over your buttoned shirt, you found out that the third button went loose again. you held your breath, trying to fix the mistake. your school uniform felt a little tight thanks to your puberty which made your bust grow larger. you didn't like it. in fact, you hated it. you wanted to wear those cute little crop tops for summer but you felt uncomfortable wearing it in public. you could just feel their eyes piercing at your body, but of course not at you, though.

"(y/n)! tobio-kun is here, you know! hurry your ass up!" you jumped. nonetheless you still took your own sweet time because... why not? after walking down the stairs slowly, you gave your mom a peck on her cheek. you wore a bright grin as she handed you two egg buns and asked you to bring it to kageyama. nodding your head, you pulled out a chair and sat down. the aroma of coffee brewing wafted through the house. just when you wanted to pour yourself a drink, your mother rushed out from the kitchen and tugged at your ear. "(y/n)! tobio-kun is waiting outside already! and you are still enjoying your time?" after hearing those words, you hastily stood up and pushed her away, gently massaged your ears and pouted innocently. "i just want to drink your delicious coffee, mom!"

"and your best friend is standing outside our house for the past 10 minutes, so hurry up!"

"i hate you!"

"i love you too! have fun in school, honey!"

taking your water bottle and your school backpack, you slipped on your white shoes and hastily stuffed the egg bun into your mouth. after closing the gate behind you, you finally got to meet a pair of navy blue eyes staring at you intensely. you grinned and gave him the egg bun. afterwards, the two of you began to eat in silence. after a few moments, you glanced at him, waiting for him to speak. however, he didn't speak at all.

"yamayama-kun, i thought you're going to race with hinata today? why are you waiting for me, that's odd." you finished your egg bun and turned to him. his expressions were hard to read. his cheeks were the colour of red beetroot. must be the weather driving him crazy today, you thought. his head hung low and not a word was said. strange. usually, he would just tell you off and give you a death glare. well, you didn't mind at all so you would just shrug off when he didn't answer your questions. wanting to fill the silence, you told him stories of your class. just when you wanted to expose all the secrets to him, kageyama looked at you and suddenly turned away. with his eyes closed and head facing away from you, he raised one finger and pointed at your chest.

"oh."

"aw, thanks kags." you ruffled his hair and held your breath before you buttoned up your shirt. his cheeks burned even more when he accidentally glanced at the thin lacey bra inside your uniform. his head was spinning and he forced himself to keep his composure, unbeknownst to you. you had the notion that it was a normal thing for a best friend to give you reminders about this kind of thing. you let out a sigh before you continued your story. you went on and on before getting to the main point.

"...and sakura told me that ayato and haru were kissing inside the toilet!"

"so?" he deadpanned, "it's none of my business."

"well? do you want to try it with me?" you said in a flirty tone, studying his reactions. you tilted your head to the side, stood closer to him, resulting in your chest softly brushing his shoulders. giving him your signature smirk, you tugged his shirt innocently and looked at him with puppy eyes, "yamayama-"

he shoved you aside and sped off, leaving you behind.

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I'm overthinking,

I know you sense it, I'm being distant.

"I can't help but fall in love with you."

you went to your classroom with a frown on your face. just outside the door, you took a few deep breaths in and wore a fake happy expression, promising yourself to keep it until you reached your seat. upon stepping into the classroom, your classmates greeted you politely. you slumped onto your chair, a bit irritated of what had happened earlier. you still don't understand why kageyama was acting weird in these past few weeks. he ran away whenever you touched him and you never saw him in this state before. thoughts were scattered in your mind. kageyama was important to you and you didn't want to ruin a friendship just because of this. was it because of your flirty behaviour? it's probably unlikely, since kageyama doesn't really care about your attitude. to be honest, all he cared about was your presence.

"(y/n), are you okay?" yachi asked in a worried tone, turning around and facing you, her mechanical pencil resting in her right hand. you shook your head. it had been bugging you for weeks. after all, it was better to talk to someone about it. you leaned closer to her.

"yachi, kageyama is acting very weird lately, i have no idea why-"

the petite girl stood up as her back pushed against her desk, as a result some of her textbooks fell on the floor. she quickly picked them up and looked away nervously. "(y-y/n)! you are thinking too mu-much! i think kageyama-san is just ti-tired!" she stuttered, her whole body was trembling.

what the heck? that's even weird.

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Will I still feel this when I see you?

"Hold me tight, don't let me go-"

you didn't really pay attention in class today. maybe it was about kageyama, or maybe you were just tired because you hardly got any sleep the previous day. proof? you kept on dozing off in class. and your teacher was not happy about it.

the school bell rang. finally. you let out a yawn. it was lunchtime and you don't feel like eating. yachi insisted to eat lunch with you but you rejected her offer by saying that you're tired, but actually you're not. not having any other choice, the girl waved goodbye and went out of the classroom. then it suddenly dawned on you that everyone had gone to recess and you're the only one who was staying in class.

after making a decision, you grabbed your purse and walked towards the clubhouse. you wanted a drink from the vending machine and you felt like drinking chocolate milk today. when you reached the corridor, kageyama was standing in front of the big blue machine with his brows furrowed. after a few moments, he sighed a little and hit the button for the strawberry yoghurt drink.

and you decided to surprise him.

just when he wanted to poke his straw though the small silver circle on top of the carton, you quickly hugged him from behind. you could feel his body tense when he knew it was you, yet he didn't say a word. he squeezed his beverage tightly until the carton was almost fully squashed, unbeknownst to him. his heart was pounding way too fast and he didn't know the "correct way" to react.

kageyama pushed you away and yelled at you, "don't hug me in public, dumbass!"

"kageyama tobio." your tone was dead serious. you walked towards him slowly and now he was backing against the wall. you put your hand on the wall next to his head and leaned closer to him. he was a blushing mess. he gritted his teeth and you knew very well that he was going to yell at you again.

"what are you-"

"look kageyama, you have been acting really weird lately. it's normal for me to flirt with you, right? i mean, we are just best friends, what are you on about?"

"what the fuck? i'm just me, okay? go away now!"

"HAHAHAHA kageyama kun, you're so lame!" the little ball of sunshine, hinata shouyou, suddenly jumped out of nowhere and was now standing in front of you, laughing at the setter.

you quickly stood beside the vending machine, because you didn't want kageyama to direct his anger at you. your best friend was now releasing a very dark aura, threatening hinata to stop laughing at him.

"kageyama kun, why don't you conf-"

he covered the sunshine-ball's mouth with his palm and dragged him out of your sight, leaving you behind again.

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edited by zxyisigh ,,

2/12/19

A/N: what the heck my writing turns rusty so excuse me lmao -

editor's notes: *replies to the author* nO your writing isn't rUsTY mAN ♡ ♡ ♡