Her point of view

Why am I still living??? (Weeps silent tears) Why?

Why I am the only one that is spared, still living even thought I have no purpose for living anyway? Yes, if I am a mistake, kill me!

Or I'll just kill myself.

My friends say I'm useless- I know they mean it in a jokey kind of way, but it still hurts me. Their words hurt me. All of the time. I know I'm useless, anyway. I keep on forgetting everything, I am stupid, am I not?

That's right, I'm stupid. I can't live. There is no space for me in this world. There never is.
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One day, when we were changing for P.E, I noticed there were cuts on her arm. When I asked her what happened, she would just murmur and say she cut her arm because she fell down. Then she would ignore me.

I felt hurt, but I didn't want to be nosey and poke into her business at the time. Thinking back, I should've.

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At lunch, I noticed my friend never ate anything. Instead, she would pester me and my friends to eat their lunch properly, and always got pissed if we didn't.

The next day, I asked her if she was hungry. She just replied, oh, I ate a big breakfast. But I know she didn't, but I kept it down.

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I'm not hungry! Don't ask me to eat anything, I said I'm not hungry!

* voice in head*

Oh you know you didn't! I know you only drank all your juice so you wouldn't feel hungry! Don't deny it!

But I'm not hungry, for God's sake!

Just leave me alone!
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Sooo... this is my second chapter. Can I just tell you, this is not a true story, but is pieced from my friends' experiences.