The next morning

Pov: Kai

I woke up, got ready and went to sunrise practice.

I sparred with Cole and we trained, like usual.

But I couldn't stop thinking...
These thoughts have been getting a bit too much lately...

But I won't tell anyone. They wouldn't even care.

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I barely touched my lunch.

I wasn't really hungry.

The others seemed to notice.

"Aren't you hungry, Kai?" Zane asked.

I thought about my response.

"No" I said, then I got up.
"I'll be in my room" I added.

I walked out of the kitchen and into my room. I locked the door behind me.

I sat on my bed.
I kept drowning in my thoughts.

After a while, I got up, walked to my dresser and opened it.

I took out the small box, opened it and took out the blade.

I roll up my sleeves.
I put the blade on my left forearm.

One cut...
Two cuts...
Three cuts...
Fou- someone knocked on the door.

Shit.

"Yeah?" I said.

"It's me, Cole" he said.

"What do you want?" I asked.

"I wanted to check up on you"
"You've been acting off a lot recently" Cole said.

"I'm fine" I said.

...

"Okay. But you can talk to me, remember that" Cole said and left.

At least, I heard his footsteps getting further and further away from my door.

I looked at my arm.

Still bleeding.

I cleaned myself up and then laid down in my bed.