Kai's pov:

It was in the middle of the night. I should be sleeping, but something kept me awake.

I had these thoughts for a long time now, but I always ignored them.

I don't know why, but the thoughts started to get more intense, I couldn't ignore them anymore.

"Why do the words in my head get so violent?"

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I couldn't just keep laying there anymore. So I got up.

I decided to sneak out and go for a walk.

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I was sneaking through the hallways, hoping that everyone was asleep and that I won't wake anyone.

I made it to the door and got out, into the cold night air and the fresh breeze.

I took a deep breath, enjoying the fresh night air.

It was so quiet. It was just me.
Me and my thoughts.

I walked towards the front door and opened it, I stood in front of the long stairway.

I walked closer to the edge, staring down, we were up so high, I couldn't even see the ground.

It was tempting to jump.

What am I thinking?

I backed away and walked back inside.

I sneaked through the hallways, until I reached my room and decided to try to get some rest.

I laid down in my bed.

I couldn't stop thinking...

What if I jumped?

What if I would just jump?

Would anybody care?

What if I would just... disappear?