I'm really sitting here crying thinking that I can't be myself because the persona that I've built has taken over my life it's not even me anymore it's this she'll that I've built yo protect myself from being hurt.
I miss my dog my grandfather my grandmother the old me an I just wish I could get them back like that shit hurts because I look at old photos an I'm like I looked so happy what went wrong the I look at the scars on my arms and realize that I'm hurting myself not who I pretend to be the the real me

I like being used but only by one person I cry whenever I realize that every day I keep losing someone but if I can keep someone by letting them use me I will

6/3/2020
Goodnight everyone 😭🖤