- its midnight again oops im so sorry. this is unedited but i'll edit after school tomorrow! how do you guys think jack and jack/shawn will react when they hear the news? -

I bit my nails as I looked at the four tests that rested on top of their boxes. Madison sat beside me, holding my hand and speaking words of encouragement.

"It'll be fine."

"You'll figure this all out."

"You'd be a great mother and Shawn would be a great dad."

"Maybe you're just panicking over nothing."

I took a deep breath and the timer on my phone sounded. I picked it up, seeing fifteen minutes passed since I took them. My heart was hammering against my chest, and I was reluctant to get up.

"Go on. Go look." She urged and I bit my bottom lip. "Monica-"

"Okay okay okay. I'm going." I told her and she let go of my hand. I stood up and then went to the desk they rested on.

I reached for the first test, the beat of my heart only going faster as I saw a small '+' on it. I covered my mouth as tears filled my eyes, my free hand reaching for the second, the third, and then finally the fourth.

Positive.

"Monica? Well what do they say?" Madison said and jumped off of the bed, grabbing my hand and looking at the test. "Oh my god..."

"They're-They're all positive Mads." I said and she gave me a hug. "I'm pregnant." I whispered, tears falling from my eyes.

"That's wonderful! You're going to be a mom!" She said and I shook my head. "What's wrong?"

"I'm eighteen!" I reminded her, setting the test down. "Madison I'm eighteen years old and have no money, no job, no car, and as of now, no house or apartment! I'm literally depending on everyone for everything! I can't have a kid!"

"Shh." She said and I held on to her jacket. "It's okay. We're all willing to help. We told you not to feel bad for staying with us! We're more than happy to have you here alright? Calm down. All of your 'problems' are just temporary."

"I'm going to be such a bad mom Madison. I can't even take care of myself!" I cried and there was a knock on the door as I sobbed into her shirt.

"No don't say that. You'll be fine. Look, we'll find you a job and you can save money for a better apartment, one without a shitty land lord." She told me and I shook my head.

"I'm scared to leave the house Mads, how am I supposed to get a job?" I asked and she rubbed my back. "I can't have a baby." I told her as another knock sounded at the door.

"Before you decide that... before you decide anything, you need to tell Shawn." She said and I nodded, gasping as I pulled away from her. "You need to."

"How?"

"Get a plane ticket to wherever he is and talk to him. Don't you dare do it over the phone." She said and I nodded. "After you get his say, then you both decide what will happen."

"I need to tell KiKi." I whispered and then covered my mouth. "She's going to kill me." I told her and she shook her head.

"No babe she won't. I promise. Just calm down." She said and there was another knock on the door. "What?" She snapped and walked up to it, ripping it open.

"Woah there, what's going on? We heard crying and screaming..." JJ told us, holding his armz up as he and G stood by the door. "Maloley and Wilkinson is downstairs, it's just us two."

"It's nothing." Madison told them and JJ looked at me, seeming worried.

"Moni, are you alright?" He asked and I nodded as I crossed my arms. "You sure?" He pressed.

"P-Positive." I told him but he didn't believe me. "I'm... I'm fine." I said and she nodded, trying to make my act seem more believable.

"Alright. We'll be downstairs writing and all. If you need anything, call us or come down." G told us but I knew for a fact that neither of them believed us for a second.

Madison closed the door and I rubbed a hand over my face, pinching the bridge oof my nose. "Look, I'll get you a plane ticket to uh... Brooklyn? I think his next concert is in Brooklyn, and then you can tell him. It'll ve just fine."

"What if he gets mad?"

"Why would he get mad?"

"He believe JJ and I are together..." I trailed off and she rolled her eyes. "He'll be quick to deny me and probably accuse me of aanting his money."

"Look, I know Shawn. Yes he can be stupid and yes, the guy makes a lot of mistakes he doesn't realize can really hurt him and others. However if you bring a child into this, one that could possibly be his, he cannot and will not leave. He is too good of a guy." She explained and I bit my bottom lip.

"That good guy cheated on me with like three other girls." I reminded and she sighed.

"Yeah but this is his baby, a child Monica. This is a big thing." She told me and I nodded dully, feeling emotionally drained as I set my hands on my stomach.

"I... I can't believe I'm pregnant." I mumbled and she chuckled lightly.

"You're gonna be a mother." She told me and wiped my eyes. "Come here." She said and pulled me into a hug. I buried my face into her shirt and she shushed me gently.

"I... I dont know what I'm going to do."

"Well, first of all, before you think of the future, what about now? Do you want to keep the baby?" She asked and I shrugged. I honestly wasn't sure what I wanted right now

"I.. I'm not sure." I said quietly. "I do... but I'm not ready for a kid Mads. I'm not."

"It's a good thing you have months to decide." She said and ran a hand through my hair. "Jack and Jack are gonna get suspicious and force us to tell them what happened."

"Lets just tell them it's personal." I said and she nodded. "I'm exhausted." I yawned and she told me to go to sleep then.

"I'll look into flights." She said and I nodded. "You go to sleep. I'll uh, toss the tests."

"I'll do that actually. Um, I kinda had to pee on them." I said and she nodded as she laughed a bit. "You go downstairs, you've done more than enough for me already." I told her.

"That's what friends are for." She said and tilted my chin up a bit. "I'm going though. Get some rest."

"I will. Goodnight Mads."

"Night Moni." She smiled and then left the room, closing the door right behind her.

-

"KiK?" I asked and she hummed, rubbing her eye a bit. "I gotta tell you something."

"What? Did Jack break your bottle of foundation again?" She asked and I winced, shaking my head. "What happened babes?"

"I um... I haven't been feeling the best right?" I said and she nodded, seeming more interested in the conversation.

"Yeah, I remember. Did you finally go see a doctor as Maddi bugged? What did they say?" She asked me and I tapped my fingers against my thigh.

"I didn't need to see a doctor." I replied, chewing on my bottom lip. "I kinda pieces together all my symptoms myself."

"Well to don't have a PhD so tell me Dr. Ramirez, what do you diagnose yourself with?" She asked me, clearly joking.

"Pregnant."

She laughed and I bit the inside of my cheek. "Monica, come on girl, don't joke like that. What's wrong? Stomach bug? Flu?" She asked me, a smile on her lips.

"I'm not... I'm not joking." I said and her smiled faded. "I took the tests today around three and-"

"They must be faulty-"

"Four tests had a positive sign on it Kiara." I said and she was silent. "I know. I know! I'm mad at myself too-"

"It's Shawn's... right?" She asked and I nodded. "Where are you? LA still?" She asked and I widened my eyes.

"No, you stay on that tour-"

"Bitch you're pregnant and I'm your best friend, I'm coming with you to talk to Shawn's dumbass." She said and I sighed. "You're not getting out of this."

"KiKi please-"

"Monica, you're gonna be a mom! I'm going to get my ass over to you, and then we will get our asses to the baby daddy. No objections. No buts. No what ifs." She declared and I nodded in defeat.

"Okay..." I sighed and she smiled. "I'm scared... so god damn scared. I don't want to fuck up."

"The only way you could possibly fuck up is if you do what your mother did. Even so, you turned out alright, so even then I wouldn't say you fucked up." She told me gently, a soft smile on her lips.

"You're not mad that I was so reckless, right?"

"Kinda disappointed, but don't worry babe, I'm not mad. Just stay calm alright?" She said and I nodded, taking a deep breath. "It'll be fine."

"That's what Madison tells me." I told her and I saw the door open from the corner of my eye. JJ stood there, hands in his pockets.

I took off my headphones and he scratched the back of my head. "I knocked but when you didn't answer I kinda took it upon myself took see if everything's alright."

"Yeah, everything's fine." I told him and he nodded. "Why would it be?"

"You and Mads were acting kinda strange earlier, that's all." He told me and I nodded as KiKi typed on her laptop.

"We're fine. It was just a girl thing." I said and he walked up to me.

"I just wanna say that I'm here for you, and G's here for you. You just met them but Sammy and Nate got you too, a friend of ours is a friend of their's. If you ever need to talk or get something off your chest, or even just sit around and eat like take out with, we're all here." He told me and I smiled.

"Thanks Jack, I know." I nodded and a semi awkward silence filled the space between us. "I promise if anything major happened, I'd tell you."

"Alright, just wanted to make sure you know that we're here for you. You're one of our best friends now Moni and we hate seeing you look so sad." He said and I just shrugged.

"I just missed Kiara, we're skyping right now." I told him and he nodded.

"Okay, just saying. I'll leave you to it then. Goodnight Moni." He told me and I have him a soft smile.

"Goodnight Jack."

He left the room and KiKi screamed after the door shut. "They don't know about the bun that's in your oven?"

"Only us girls know, and I wanna keep it that way for awhile." I said quietly and she facepalmed. "Search up flights?"

"Yeah, you're seeing my cute ass there this Friday at six." She said and I smiled, glad to have my best friend with me. Madison was close, but she could never replace or get even close to KiKi.

"I'm so glad to have you Ki." I said and she smiled.

"Tell me something I don't know." She said and I rolled my eyes as I laughed lightly.