Just a quick reminder.... this is all in Jesse's POV, even though it is kinda obvious. Whatever, anywaaayyyy, hope y'all enjoy this one-shot!

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4 Days 4 days...

Or maybe a week..? Maybe a week

Losing track all together as I speak, Thinking, of the one that got away. Sitting up in bed, heavily pressured on by insomnia. I feel like it's talking to me, yelling at me, telling me that I can't rest now. Sometimes I think it's right, I can't rest now. Now after the dreadful mistake I have made. Not after the faithful decision that lead to disheartened demise.

It's my fault! I did this and it's all my fault! I have to go through all this pain and suffering because I know, it's my fault! ITS MY FAULT THAT HE IS DEAD! ITS MY FAULT HE IS NO LONGER BY MY SIDE! This is what I deserve, endless insomnia, constant headaches.... And the culpability. It is all still here, and will last for as long as I will grieve.

I hear as the rain drops slowly settled down outside, leaving the sound of small pitter-patters against the window. The rest of the world is blocked out from me, I hear nothing but those small pitter-patters against the cold glass window. I feel tired, I want to rest, but insomnia still yells at me. Sometimes.... I wonder how Rueben feels. Does Rueben still love me up in the heavens, does he forgive me? Even though I was the one that caused his death. I began to pray...

Rueben..

Tears started tripping down my face.

If you, are hearing this...

I started to choke on my words as I sobbed.

Im sorry....

I just wanted to let you know that...

I miss you, buddy...

I hope you are doing alright, up in the heavens..

I love you....

The pitter-patters on the windows continued, and so did my tears. I looked outside, seeing the onslaught of raindrops. For some reason, I feel like I should join them, have the environment cry with me. And that's exactly what I did, I stepped down the treehouse and walked outside. Looking up and around at my surroundings, currently drenched. The rain soaking my clothes and wetting my hair. It didn't matter, I didn't care at all.

I felt the cold liquid oozed everywhere, from my head down to my feet. The droplets dripped down from my bangs, covering my field of vision. It somehow soothed me, telling me to forgive myself. Which I can't, It's hard to forgive...Hard to forget. I closed my eyes, attempted to relax. But then, I heard the most subtle noise.

"Oink "

My eyes shot open, I felt a bit of adrenaline enter my veins. My legs shifted, preparing me to walk. But I doubt it, I'm probably just hearing things again. My legs shifted back to original stance. My imagination is probably taking ahold of me. But no.... I heard it AGAIN!

"Oink, Oink"

What the hell was going on here?! No, it can't be him, it's impossible. I felt the muscles, bones, and tissues in legs begin to move, I was walking. I needed to find the source, even if it wasn't just in my head...

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I walked away from the tree house and followed the direction of the noise. Hoping, that I could find it, I ran. I didn't hear that noise again, where the hell is it?! It was just here, now it's gone! The rain was getting all over me, still soaking me. I felt myself shaking, I'm.....Cold? Maybe going out in the middle of a huge rainstorm wasn't the smartest thing to do. But then, something happened to me. Something, I had no control over...My heart sent signals up to my brain as I shouted something.

"RUEBEN!"

I hoped to get a reply from this under-thought statement.

Nothing happened

I shouted again, a bit louder this time

Nothing happened

I gave up and sat on the grass I was currently standing on. I muttered to myself. "Rueben... Even if that is by some chance, you... p-please come out. I want to see you again" Still a period of silence form the woods around me. I knew it, I was just hearing things again. My imagination and culpability are just making me hear things. I sat up, my clothes caked with dirt and mud. I started to walk away.....When I hear something. Is that......Rustling? I turned around.
I couldn't believe what happened next.

I heard the noise.
"Oink"

It sounded like it was coming closer! And closer! Until I saw something. I saw the outline of something in the tall grass, a small pig. The figure walked of a the grass until we met eye-to-eye.
Oh my notch....
It IS him....

"R-Rueben" I croaked.

He then to ran to me and jumped into my arms with a joyful squeal. I hugged him tightly, I was thunderstruck. I didn't bother to wonder how this is happening to me right now, I was just jubilant that it IS happening. It was him, it was all him, I could hug forever "I've missed you.." My eyes were still covered, with an extra layer of tears....

I felt something in my hands, dust. My eyes opened at an alarming state, gazing down at the little pig in my arms. He looked back back at me, a sad look in his eyes. What is he sad about? What is happening?

"Rueben, you okay?" I asked, He seemed to shake his head, the feeling of dust still gathering up in my hands.

He was......disintegrating.

He slowly withered away, pieces of his body turned into dust and blew away, I slowly started to panic. I don't know what to do, I CAN'T LOSE HIM AGAIN! Before I could react, all that was left of Rueben were nothing but ashes scattered around the palms of my hands.

no

No

NO

NO

THIS CAN'T BE HAPPENING! NOT AGAIN! The headaches came back, guilt punched me in the chest, insomnia continued to yell at me.

It's my fault

It's ALL my fault...

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My eyes...opened?

A bright light seemed to shine into my pupils, welcoming me to reality. I glanced in front of me to see...Petra? Her hands were gripped onto my shoulders, she looked extremely shocked. That's when I noticed the background, everyone else was here.

Lukas

Axel

Olivia

Petra...

They stared back at me, thunderstruck. "Jesse. You're, awake?" Petra quavered, still aghast. I looked back into her eyes "W-what..happened?" I held my head, the headaches were still here.

Olivia had hands over her mouth as she stepped forward.

"You were in a coma for 2 months straight."

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