I fixed my plate, watching with silent hatred as a few of the women held onto him, giggling as he talked dirty. He wasn't theirs, or at least, not in my mind. Sure, I had no personal claim to him, but there had been moments where it seemed he only wanted me...no matter how fast those moments slipped by. Negan glanced over at me, smirking at my obvious glare as his hand moved down to squeeze Amber's ass, and I clenched my jaw looking away as I slammed the ladle back into the pot of soup, not caring as some splashed onto my hand and wrist. He chuckled at my reaction as he moved to kiss her neck, and with a snort I headed out of the room. It was about an hour later before Negan finally came to the room, stretching as he laid down. "Man that was fun," he stated cheerfully, and I rolled my eyes as I pushed the tray of food away looking at him. "Really? Don't you ever get tired of screwing around?" I asked, and he tilted his head to look at me. "Nope," he replied softly, and I frowned looking away. "You've been here almost four months...you should know that by now." he continued, and I shook my head with a shaky breath. I moved to get off the bed, but he stopped me by grabbing my arm, keeping me in my spot. "You know you want me...pouting about who I'm fucking won't change that. Because it's you I'm fucking at the end of the day," I looked down biting the inside of my cheek as I listened to him speak, feeling the butterflies in my stomach. "You know that's not what I want." I replied softly, and he grunted as he sat up, holding his weight on his elbows as he looked at me. "It would help a whole damn lot if I knew what you wanted." he threw back, clenching his jaw. I looked at him, wishing I had an answer, but truth was I didn't even know myself. I sighed softly, reaching up to rub his cheek lightly as he leaned in. He pressed his forehead against mine, using his teeth to tug my bottom lip into his mouth as I whined. He let my lip go, only to kiss me passionately as he reached up to hold my neck, sliding his tongue into my mouth. I closed my eyes as he pulled me down with him, and I let him have his way with me that night.