Uravity...Uravity...Uravity...Urara-

"No! I don't know her!!"

Froppy...Froppy...Froppy...Asu-

"No, no, NO!"

I'd spent all this time with the League trying to forget my past, and I almost succeeded. Shigaraki said that I had to leave my past behind and to become a new person. And I did. I tried really hard to forget!

"Why? Stupid Uraraka!"

I froze. I said her name. I remembered.

"Crap...crap...crap...no way. No way! Please let me forget! Please let me forget. Let me forget everything! My past...my mom... Just...let me forget that I'm becoming a villain!"

I froze. I'd never said the words out loud, but now, the truth was right in front of me. Right from my own mouth.

"Why can't I just..." My voice cracked."...be a hero?"

It was a simple request really. I'd never once asked anyone for anything else. It was the one thing I wanted in my life. I only wanted to save people! There were countless days where that thought was the only thing that kept me going. When I become a hero, if I get a quirk, if I get stronger...

I curled myself into a ball in my bed, pulling at my hair as I rocked back and forth. "Gotta forget...gotta forget..."

Uraraka's face was burned into my memories. I could hear her saying "Deku?" over and over again in my mind.

You like her.

Shut up!

Me in Junior High, standing on the roof, wonder how much it would hurt if I fell. Or if I would die on impact if I-

I'm not like that!!

"Sh...ra..I," I mumbled. "Shi...raki..."

My eyes popped open. There was only one way to forget.

"Shigaraki!"

I stumbled towards the door. I had to do this. I didn't care what I had to go through.

"Shigaraki!"

I ran down to the bar. Shigaraki was always up late drinking. He told me it helped him get to sleep.

I burst into the room. I could feel tears streaming down my face, but I didn't care. "Shiga-"

Shigaraki was sitting I'm front of a tv screen that said 'Audio Only'. A man's voice was coming through. Everything froze when I entered.

"Shiga..."

I didn't finish. The man grabbed me by the shirt, choking me. "Little brat! This is a private meeting. No pawns allowed!"

"B-but-" It was hard to get the words out.

"Get out of my face!"

"Tomura."

Shigaraki froze when the man from the TV spoke up. "Sensei?"

"Let the boy talk to you. I'll tell you the plans later."

"Yes, Sensei." I was surprised to hear how easily Shigaraki listened to the man. I was guessing that he was the boss of the League.

The TV turned off and Shigaraki turned to give me his attention. "Well?"

"I-I tries so hard to forget. I ran into Uraraka today, and I've started to have doubts about being here and working with you."

"What was that, you brat?"

"W-wait! I'm not going to leave! I-I just want to clear my mind of all this crap. I-I want you to Brainwash me."

~
Kurogiri was against the plan, but everyone else was on board with it. Dabi and Twice seemed a little too excited in my opinion.

"You do know that you'll be in a works of pain, right?" Shigaraki was attaching wires to me as we spoke. "We could find you therapy or-"

"No way. I'm getting over this the only way I know how to. By running away."

"Izuku, these memories are the center of who you are," Kurigiri sounded worried. "If you erase them, I don't know what'll be left."

"Great. I'd love to restart." I gritted my teeth as Shigaraki injected me with pain numbing medicine.

"Izuku-"

"Let the brat do what he wants." Twice cut Kurogiri off. "I honestly think this is a good lesson for him. Let him feel the pain!"

"If you ever regret your decision, I'll pull the plug and you'll just have to deal with your trauma, okay Izuku?" Kurogiri was back to worrying about me. He somehow reminded me of my mom.

Don't think about her!

She'd be really disappointed in you...

"Just do it!" I said through gritted teeth.

Without warning, the machine wirred to life. The initial pain made me scream. I heard Kurogiri call my name in the back of my head, but I shook my head. "Leave it!"

I gave in. I tried to not resist the pain. It'll help, it'll help, it has to help!!

~

Well, I gave you twisted people what you want (jk, I was probably gonna end up here anyway)

Remember, not all torture is physical! Most trauma goes to the head. I tried to show it this chapter, but I wouldn't say that its my strong point in writing

Also, I think that I might have to switch to 3rd person point of view for the rest of this fanfiction. It'll make writing for me harder, but I think its the only way I can make how I want to end this fic make sense.