this is kind of a last-minute plan. anyone who reads this at the time when this story was published, then you probably know the reason why I published this 'last minute plan' story.

January 18 is my birthday, so why not prepare a gift for myself and you all who are reading. hohoho~

the dedications tho~ those are people who have been with me all through my tough times. no extra words but I wuv u :3

anw, not good with saccharine words BAAHHAHAA let's make this short

1. random inspiration 
I was scrolling through facebook's newsfeed and then I found a chart from a monbebe sharing the numbers of streams for The Dreaming album. the order of the songs got me thinking "oh, this makes me wanna write a short fanfic." and here u go.

2. poetry?
I don't even know if I was writing poetry. lame~ I know. the last time I read poetry was 3 or 5 years ago, and it was only once. so I barely remember the things I have studied on how to write poetry and I just dumped writing. it kinda offending the poetry area in my opinion... and I'm sorry if most of you felt the same. but... instead of reading, how many of you end up rapping? me one!

3. stories explain

- About Last Night : Changkyun was in a club alone, drinking alcohol. drinking until he got intoxicated. then he met Cha Eunseo. she was dancing alone on the dance floor, so he approached her and danced with her which lead to a one-night stand 👀

Changkyun remembered it was around March when they first met. and he couldn't forget Cha Eunseo even after a hangover.

Your every touch,

God, it feels right being so wrong.  >> he was a playboy or fckboi... take it anyhow you want 😂

Then, tell me, oh love,

Lust is a lie.  >>  he was questioning where the interest to fck around and play with girls' or women's feelings had gone after weeks it happened.

- Better : you can tell they had a problem here.

Looking at your smile, It feels like a tragedy.  >> Eunseo found him being close and flirty with a stranger woman in a club. She smiled at him as if she had expected that it would happen. She cried at the spot and left the scene.

I feel like I'm royalty, How did you make me, babe?  >> he remembered Eunseo did nothing wrong and have been showering him with love (just as he deserved), but he took it for granted. He might be a misguided buddy (lmao), but he still has the rationality. He might have done a lot of pain to other girls and he didn't care, but weirdly to him, he cared so much about Eunseo's feelings.

Don't make me beg, >> though, he still has his ego here.
Don't walk away.
I'm sorry, I'm sorry,
Temptations got me swayed.
Oh, I fu*ked it up.

Don't turn your back on me,
I wanna hold you in my arms,
Oh babe, how did you make me?   >> you will see more of this similar line as Changkyun was really into Eunseo.
What charms?
Am I supposed to be alarmed?

I regret,
And I'll never forget it.
Gotta say 'you're out of my league,' >> he thought being ruthless to Eunseo would help him to change his mind about his feeling for her.
I regret,
And you know why.
And you know I was wrong,
And I know too.

Seeing you walk away,
I can't be strong. >> real man who loves his real lady would breakdown in the end...

- Blame Me : Changkyun decided to put down his ego and was determine to take her back. He met him in a public area.

Can I find you?
I've been in deep blue, >> deep/dark blue commonly represents a depressing color.
Can you blame me?
Can you blame us?

Us being obnoxious. >> they fought 👀. Eunseo mentioned what Changkyun had said to her and how she knew that Changkyun had been fcking with other women's feelings and that, she swore she wouldn't accept him back. Changkyun, on the other hand, was still determined to win her back and he found that unpleasant since Eunseo had pushed him away.

- Blow Your Mind : Changkyun found a way. This time, he went to her house. (She wasn't living alone by the way).

Texts no calls no.  >> He sent her messages and tried calling her, but none were answered. He was trying to tell her that he was coming to her house. He didn't want to come out as rude to her friends. 
I carried on driving down the street,
I'm finding you before you know it.
Your friends call me 'dimwit,'   >> her friends were protecting her 😂
I know you heard.
Does it give you your revenge pleasure?
Oh, I'm going to blow your mind.

Glass blocks your eyes, >>. Eunseo didn't wear spectacles by the way. she has better eyesight than most of us, or me. so this explains Kyun realized she was about to cry.
Water spilled down your cheeks.
That night,
I blew your mind.  >> reconciliation... ehem... 18+ 👀

- One Day : He was drinking alone again, but this time, he controlled. He thought a lot about what if bad things happen in the future. he didn't want to make another mistake that may hurt Eunseo and those that might end their relationship. He cherished their relationship very much.

Oh babe, how did you make me?
We were once one of the crazy,
Being crazy in this lunatic world,
Now, the lunatic me has hurled away.  >> he thought he had changed.

But I am afraid of 'one day'.

- Secrets : after one WILD night, they shared each other's secrets. that's when they learned they have a lot of similarities in terms of family background and mindset.

One night, we talked about secrets.
You tell me how we become different.
You tell me I am different.
You ask me what has changed me,
But you said you like it.

You tell me everything about you,
Then I thought we were similar.
You and I need love,
You and I need each other.

Am I dreaming?
I heard you are crying,
Sobbing in my arms, telling me you are scared.

Then I thought we are similar,
It scared you the past would happen again,
But I assure you I love you, only you.
And that no one else I want to have you replace.

Eunseo and Changkyun's similarities:
- they come from a rich family.
- usually alone at home when they were children.
- used to be part of a bad group during high school. (eunseo learnt and met better people. changkyun learnt but chose to continue bad habits.)

- Tied To Your Body, Whispers In The Dark : Changkyun was out with his friend at a party, in a club where he and Eunseo met. Then a woman whispered to him lust.

I was with my friends,
Men and women.

Feels like in a loop,
Temptations haunt me tonight.
Everything slows down,
Sweet whispers attract me into the dark.
Oh, damn, it feels good.
Oh, baby, I wish the dark didn't tempt me,
I keep thinking about you,
but I get lost in the dark.

The warm breath on my neck,
The kiss on my lips.
It doesn't feel you,
Because it isn't you.
Tied to your body,
Tied to a body that isn't yours.
Now, I don't know who I am.
I got lost in the dark, and I kept thinking about you.

Oh, babe, how do I stop this?
Got too intoxicated by the poison of lust and dark.
I keep thinking about you,
I am afraid of losing you.
But in the end, I surrender to the temptation.

I'm going to skip If Only since it was in a narrative context.

I don't know what else I should explain, but feel free to drop a question in the comments.

and let me know your thoughts about their relationship and this whole story.

thank you for reading 💜💐