Okay I had to get this off my chest. So, I found out the other day that I have this thing called alexithymia. Which is basically when you don't really have emotions.

So what people thought was me just not knowing how to explain and identify emotions (I still don't tbh, autism am I right?) Anywho, it's not just that, it's that I have very little of those emotions in the first place to explain.

So the emotions I think I'm feeling, aren't actually there. They're just my brain trying to calculate what emotions normal people would show at that time and how I should react and explain according to what my brain has gathered.

So for example, I wasn't sad when my dog died. That sounds awful, I know but I wasn't. That was my brain copying others emotions because it doesn't know how to feel anything by itself.

I just felt the need to explain. Bye bye

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