Mateusz

I'm just sitting in the library reading my book (it's queen of nothing I love it so much and Jude is the moment)

🦉as you can see author also just finished it and is obsessed

when Rowan runs in drags me by my arm out the library and to the toilets by the lunch hall. Luckily they're empty I don't need anyone assuming anything is going in between me and Row. I expect him to say something stupid but instead he breaks down crying through his tears he manages to stutter out "w-why wouldn't y-y-you tell me" "tell you what row why are you so upset." He sounded more angry and upset and demanded me to show him my wrists. I went pale how the FUCK DID HE KNOW WHO FUCKING TOLD HIM I BET SOME NOSY WANKER TOLD HIM I SWEAR TO GOD he wasn't meant to find out like this I promised I'd tell him when I was a week clean I was gonna tell him in two days but no the universe hates me. Still sobbing he grabs my wrist and I wince in pain before I decided to go clean and tell him I wasn't exactly kind to myself and they're still healing. I tried. I tried to stay clean just for him to find out like this. Suddenly I felt arms wrap around my torso and I notice I'm crying as well now. It doesn't even matter that someone might walk in and see us on the floor hugging him drying my tears. It doesn't matter anymore that someone might tell my parents as long as I have him now. We sit hugging and weeping more before of course someone runs in ruining the moment. Sadly Gerald walks in interrupting us. I quickly shove my sleeve down and we get off the floor very embarrassing. " oh sorry did I interrupt or. Never mind uhm your friend the one that beat up my friend he's crying in the nurse office and Alice is helping him she said to go grab you too seeing as he didn't want his family called and y'all are like family or something". Hurriedly we scramble out of the room to the nurse's office. "Well he's not doing to well and ummm he said no parents so you guys well he's not doing good like I said and he just needs comforting I left kris with him" Alice tells us, she winks at Row when she says the last part and I feel a pant of jealousy. Weird. Wait did she say she left KRIS with him is she stupid what the fuck won't that make shit worse. Before she leaves she grabs my sleeve and whispers "sorry about y'know I have some first hand knowledge of what it's like so if you ever need someone else other than your boyfr I mean bestie we can talk" that was good to know, she's human. We walk into the nurse's office and see Kris comforting Lucas, never thought I'd see that ever. Startling Kris we sit by Lucas and Kris gets up and runs out the room scared and definitely very embarrassed. Row asks Lucas what's wrong and he tries to speak but he can't form words he's just sitting there still, crying softly. Row wraps his arms around Lucas and we both hug him tight. I can't believe while I was being so selfish he's suffering we're his family clearly he is struggling and I can't believe I couldn't tell that I put my own problems ahead of his. I know what his parents are like and I've done nothing I wasn't even there when thsi happened the SCP had to help him and she hates us but she managed to help more than I can I'm a horrible friend. We hug him tighter as he manages to mumble a few words " it's ok I'm fine i just I don't even know I'm just upset so much is going wrong like people have it so much worse and I feel so self centred like I don't have the right to be thsi sad when I've got it so much better than a lot of people." "No you're not crying over nothing you have a lot going in with Kris and your parents and everything else you have every right to be upset." I say and rowan goes "yeah and we're always here for you no matter what." but he breaks down more saying oh fuck off you sappy shits. We laugh and he gets up brushes his tears away and he tries to be normal again yelling at us to get up his heart is clearly not in it but I pull Row up and we walk out.

🦉let's pretend I wrote a new chapter and totally didn't just edit two chapters and add more stuff to them ok