Yuri's POV

Previously....

Am I really ready to commit myself to just one person? Am I really ready to be in an actual relationship? And most importantly, am I really ready to fall in love with someone?

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Reality is beginning to set in for me. I've really made this big executive ass decision to become a one man woman. I had another talk with Taehyung and he began, I guess, explaining what I should expect out of monogamy. Things like being clingy and jealous is normal, I may be meeting important people to him, communication is key to any healthy relationship, and the scariest part: I'll fall in love.

The word love is so foreign to me because I've never been shown that type of affection by a man, or woman for that matter. I've tried a couple times to date, but it never worked out for me. So I said fuck love, I just want to fuck. That was all I needed, but recently, I've had the heart to want to change that.

Deep down, I want to be that someone that somebody brings home to their parents. I want to be shown off and brag that I have the most amazing partner. I want to one day become someone's wife, and have a child or two. I know that's what my mother would want for me. I want to make her proud of me.

I clock in, putting my few things in my locker and going to set up my bar. There are a few of my coworkers scattered over the club, getting some things in order before we open. Yoongi is in the DJ area, messing with a few sounds as he acknowledges me with a head nod. I smile softly, waving before I'm in my place.

In my head, I thank Yoongi, Namjoon, and Taehyung. Little do they know, they helped me a lot with just the one time of intimacy I had with each of them. As odd as it may sound, I needed that in order to get to this point in wanting something monogamous.

The time I'm at the bar seems to go by in a blur. I'm making my drinks like normal, watching the guys perform, but I just feel like I'm here with nothing more to do. My someone isn't here, and I'm bummed about it. I sigh, knowing that he's probably at the hospital working tonight. He's a hell of a worker, and I admire him for that. Medical school isn't cheap, and the fact that he works 2 jobs with odd schedules is dedication enough.

Before I know it, it's closing time. At the club. I sigh, cleaning up the bar and collecting the tips I've made out from the jar at the edge of the bar. The last few customers scatter out the door before Seokjin locks up. He whistles as he comes up behind the bar with me. He reaches into the small fridge and grabs a hard cider as he lightly chuckles.

"What?" I ask, washing my hands. "What's funny?"

"You are." He sips from the now open can.

"Huh?"

"Ri, what's going on with you?"

"What do you mean?" I furrow my brows.

He narrows his eyes, slightly pointing to me. "You just don't seem like yourself. Not a single flirtatious comment to anyone here like you usually do. It's almost as if you have someone now."

I curse to myself under my breath, but loud enough that he hears. "I'm too easy to read."

"So you do." My boss smiles. "It's about time."

"It isn't what you think. We aren't together, but I want us to be. Please don't be mad."

Seokjin nods at all the employees leaving before turning to me with a confused glare. "Now why would I be mad about what you do with your life?"

"It's Hoseok." It's silent for a moment before I continue, rambling. "I know, this isn't supposed to happen with the rules and everything, but I can't help it. I'm feeling things I've never felt before with anyone else, and he makes me want to be just for one person."

Seokjin laughs, placing a hand on my shoulder. "Ri, relax. I don't care that you want to be with him. You do with your life how you want. I'm just your boss. Just don't bring anything from your relationship to work. I'm running a business, not a love shack."

I laugh, nodding happily at the man that signs my checks. "Definitely. Thank you for understanding. Sorry for going against the rules."

"Nah, it's no biggie. Who am I to stand in the way of true love?"

"Woah, who said I was in love?" I hold up my hands in defense."

He mocks me with narrowed eyes. "Who said you weren't?"

"Seokjin, please."

"Hey, it could happen. This is where I met my wife."

"You met Kayla in the club?" I question, curious.

"Yup. Right over there." He points to where he met his wife. "At the time, I had come in to get a feel of what I was going to be dealing with after taking over for my sister, and I couldn't take my eyes off of her as she was with her girlfriends watching one of the dancers that used to work here. I just had to say hello and when she opened her mouth, I knew she was the one for me. Fast forward to 8 years later, and we're happily married with 3 kids. You never know who you'll meet and where you'll meet them. Don't be so closed off. You want to be a one person woman, right?"

Damn, this man is right. If he can meet his soulmate and the love of his life in a damn strip club, why can't I? I need to be open-minded about this stuff, now that I want to be in a potential relationship.

"You're right."

"Of course I am."

"So humble." I roll my eyes, smiling as I turn off the light at the bar as he laughs. "Thanks for talking to me. I feel a bit better."

"My pleasure. Remember, keep your love life separate from your work life. I'm going to scan to make sure everyone is gone. If you need me, holler."

"Of course. But before you go, I have one more question."

"I have one more answer."

I giggle at that before speaking again. "How did you know you were in love with Kayla?"

He takes a second to think about it. "I can't explain it, but there was this moment where I got really emotional. All I could think about was her, and how much it would kill me if we were to break up. I wanted to give myself to her in every way and have her in every way."

I'm in awe as I listen to Seokjin gush about his wife. This is what I want. I want to gush about someone, and have them do the same for me. I just hope I'm not jumping into this too fast and expecting too much. Hell, I haven't even talked to Hoseok in an emotionally intimate way yet. Maybe I'm in over my head.

"Ri." I snap out of my thoughts and look at Seokjin, who just nods softly and smiles. "Stop overthinking and just let your heart handle everything. Okay?"

"Okay." I nod, mentally exhausted. "Thank you again. I'm gonna head home."

"You're welcome. Have a good night." I watch as he walks away to scan every area of the club and I head out of the building.

Everything we talked about sinks in as I get into my car. I'll know I'm in love by just a feeling? What is that feeling? How will my body handle it? Is it something I can control? I've never been in love, so I'm scared on what to expect. Everything just seems so confusing and difficult. Why do people wanna be in love? The shit already sounds tiresome.

Before I know what I'm doing, my phone is up to my ear and ringing. I'm cursing myself in my head as the line rings in my ear. I feel the wind knocked out of my chest when I hear a sleepy Hoseok answer my call.

"Ri?"

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Hi!!!!!!! A loooooong overdue update indeed! I haven't updated this in 5 & a half months & I feel so bad omg ausjsjsisksksi It has taken me 5 & a half months to finish this damn chapter & I'm still not satisfied with it. 5 & a half months I spent trying to think of something to write & I write this... I'm a bit bummed, but it's been so long. I really hope you all still like it 🥺🥺

I'm really going to try to update this more, because I really wanna finish this soon. What would you like to see next? Whose POV do you want to see the next chapter? (Yuri & Hoseok only tho)? I'm gonna try to get my brain juices flowing to give you so much better than this! Thank you so much for your patience. It really means the world to me 💕💕💕

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