Bogum is driving through the cool streets of Seoul. he is making small conversation with me and I try my best to reply to him. but after some point, silence surrounds us. he doesn't look as if he minds it though. he plays some soft music to cover the awkward silence.

I look outside the window, cool wind blowing through my hair. then, I look back at the steering wheel of the car and bogum. the speedometer shows 40km per hour as the speed. seeing this takes me back to 10 years ago...

he was taking me on a surprise date. he was driving while I was looking out the window at the beautiful scenery. he suddenly asked me if I wanted to have more fun. I looked at him and smirked, understanding perfectly what he meant.

he pressed the accelerator and kept one of his hands on my thigh. I was looking at him continuously, not being able to take my eyes off him. his beautiful smile. meanwhile, the car kept on speeding. the speed was initially 60 from which it reached 80, then 100, then 120, 160, then 200, it kept speeding till 260... 

we both looked at each other and screamed in joy... then, looking into each other's eyes, we started laughing. he gave me a small smirk and suddenly did something that made the car turn around half and then back on the other side. the car finally came to a stop. he looked at me to find me looking at him with my mouth hanging open.

"How did you do that!!!" I excitedly asked, getting on his lap.

wrapping his arms around me, he replied, "It's easy. pull the handbrake, turn the steering 20° right and then 60° left immediately."

I giggled and kissed him.

I am brought back to reality by Bogum's voice, " what are you thinking beautiful? Who got you smiling like that?" he says teasing me.

I shake my head, " nothing. just remembered something."

we reach a restaurant a few minutes later. he gets out of the car first and opens the door for me. I get out of the car and walk inside with him. we sit down at the table and a waitress comes to take our order.

bogum turns to me, "What would you like to have, taehyung?"

" anything you would like" he shakes his head.

" no, I insist. pick whatever you like. " I look at the menu and pick out garlic butter shrimp and sushi. bogum orders the same for him. we both start eating it after it comes while talking about random things. 

after the date, he drives me back home and drops me in front of my house. we are talking at the gate as I am telling him that the date was great. he suddenly comes close to me and kisses my cheek. I did not feel uncomfortable but it felt weird. nobody except my best friend jimin had kissed me on the cheek or anywhere in 10 years. but I smile at him. suddenly, I see someone sitting on the bench in yoongi's garden. it must be his friend. but suddenly, the friend looks up and our eyes meet. 

I freeze in shock. I keep looking into his eyes. he seems shocked to see me too. it is HIM. Jeon Jungkook. the storm in my life. I am snapped back into reality when bogum starts talking.

" so... Taehyung, I really enjoyed today's date and would love to go out with you again... if you enjoyed it of course. give me a call when you are free okay?"

I nod at him and he waves me bye before getting in his car and driving away. I keep looking into those eyes for a few seconds before the door of yoongi's house opens and yoongi walks out.

" jungkook-ah. come inside, let's eat..." he says while coming towards jungkook.

he then sees me and smiles before coming towards me, " Taehyung! I see you came back. how was your date? "

I could see jungkook flinching at the sentence. I sigh and remove my gaze from him, turning to yoongi, "It was good, hyung. Anyway, I am going to sleep. I am tired."

he stops me, "Wait... jungkook, this is Kim Taehyung our neighbour and taehyung, this is Jeon Jungkook, my best friend" 

we both nod at each other not wanting to look into each other's eyes and I go inside my house after saying good night to yoongi. I lock the door and go to my room, plopping myself on my bed... I shake my head and get up, change my clothes, and freshen up before sitting on my balcony.

why is fate so cruel to me??? why did it decide to bring him back into my life when I decided to move on finally after 10 years? I bring a bottle of wine from the kitchen and open it. pouring some, I take a sip. no... wine is not enough...

my hand goes to my pocket and I pull out a packet of cigarettes. lighting one, I put it in my mouth before taking a huge breath. I smile in satisfaction at the taste of cigarettes. cigarettes always calmed me down. ever since I tasted them in Jungkook's mouth 10 years ago. they help me calm down by making me think that jungkook is around. 

I sit in silence with wine and cigarettes when a random tune escapes my mouth unintentionally. I start humming a song while looking at the moon. when I looked at Yoongi's house a few minutes later. I see Jungkook looking at me from his balcony which is exactly parallel to mine. I go inside quickly not being able to bear looking at him... I sit on my bed and close my eyes. I pull the blanket hoping to slip into dreamland but am instead transported to memory land.

- Yours Amora