Perfectionism is a self-destructive and addictive belief system that fuels a primary thought. If I look perfectly and do everything perfectly, I can avoid judgement and shame. A thought process that's been installed into me the moment I stepped onto this planet.

   The expectations are very hard for me to fulfill. The stress eats up inside me every day. I just want to live my own life. Unfortunately, the path I was born into is my only option. It's my fate, a path that was chosen for me from the start.

   I wonder if there is anyone who can save me from this fate given to me. If I can ever attain peace. I want someone to shine upon the dark cloud that covers my heart. I hope I can find that light soon, where I'm able to take a new path. Before it's too late, and the demon inside me takes over.