Happiness never sticks
It stays for sometime
And the next second
It's just gone

The memories are nice
They help me
Through the sleepless nights
But, they're never enough

I want to be happy now
And not find happiness in the past
Nor hope for a happy future
I just want to be happy right now

Happiness keeps disappearing
And it disappoints me
I'm scared of getting excited
Knowing it'll only be short lived

Instead of being happy during good times
I'm worried about the future
Or somewhere lost in the past
I'm just not present

I'm used to see
The dark side of everything
Thinking I'm protecting myself
Knowing that its hurting me

I try to be happy
But now I'm tired
Being judged for every little thing

Maybe I don't deserve happiness
That's why I never permit myself
To cherish happiness