"i'm sorry, did you just say chenle kissed you?" mark asked for confirmation about what he just heard come from jisung's mouth.

the blue haired student woke up early this morning and left the dorm room while it was still dark outside. no, he wasn't avoiding chenle; he wasn't sicheng who would avoid someone for pretty much no reason. he couldn't sleep. 5:00 in the morning and jisung found himself shifting around in his bed without a blink of sleep last night. the same boy who would sleep early on friday and wake up past noon on sunday is the same boy who was up all night last night, stuck with only his thoughts in a dark room and his roommate sleeping soundly in the other bed. or so he thought, at least.

whilst being awake at 5, the blue haired male decided to go to mark's room for absolutely no reason, and the canadian boy was upset and frustrated that he was awaken at such an unholy hour on a saturday.

he had greeted jisung with a 'what the fuck? it's way too early for drama' at the door when the first year knocked. yet, despite his response to jisung being at the door, he let the younger male in. seeing the tired face and bags underneath the blue haired male's eyes got him worried that something bad happened.

"yes, he did. and this isn't a joke. i'm being one hundred percent honest," jisung said, seriousness heard in his voice and seen in his face behind all the tiredness.

mark sighed and nodded his head, showing jisung that he believed him. the light brown haired male didn't know chenle's motive behind kissing jisung, and the younger male didn't know either. both of them found it strange that chenle, who claims to be straight, kissed a guy from his free will.  all they knew was that the orange haired male did it to check something, but what could it be?

"i don't have a solution for you, jisung," mark broke the news. he was being honest; he really was clueless, mainly because he himself have never been in love and wouldn't know the motives behind one kissing another. "i have no idea why chenle would do something like that out of the blue, and the kiss being initiated by him... that's... even weirder?"

donghyuck stirred in his sleep and jisung and mark stopped talking and moving. they forgot about donghyuck sharing a room with mark and the two high school students weren't necessarily being quiet while talking.

"maybe we should talk outside," mark whispered to his younger friend, who, in turn, nodded in agreement. the two quietly made their way to the door of the canadian boy's shared dorm room and went out into the hall, closing the door quietly behind them. "anyway, like i said, i don't really have any way to help you."

"mm. i get it. thanks anyway," jisung said, apologizing to mark for waking him up so early before turning around to walk away when mark grabbed the blue haired male's wrist, preventing him from taking a step further.

"be honest with me, jisung. do you really still want to confess to chenle?"

upon hearing the question his friends have asked him before, jisung, for the first time in his life, hesitated before answering a question. this time, the blue haired male actually took account into the recent events that occurred and his confidence level currently. his brain was beginning to think of reasons to not confess to chenle, but even with all the thinking, his answer was indifferent from his answer before.

"yes."

"don't tell me you spent all night sorting out your feelings, which is why you look very tired today," jeno sat on a nearby park bench, continuing the conversation with chenle.

last night, chenle couldn't sleep at all, just like his roommate. he was trying to sort out his feelings after kissing the other, and it made him realize that everyone around him was right. somi was right, donghyuck was right, jeno was right. chenle did like jisung in that way, and the chinese boy finally admitted it to himself.

the kiss he shared with jisung was different. even though it wasn't much of a kiss and jisung didn't even return it, the feeling of it was different from the kiss with chaewon. the kiss with chaewon, to the chinese male, seemed forced and not heartfelt, but the kiss with jisung meant the world to him. the orange haired male would constantly think about it, and it always give him a feeling of euphoria and made him get all jittery, not to mention that chenle missed the feeling of his friend's lips on his.

it was strange. the whole feeling and concept was strange. the chinese male always believed that he knew everything there is to know about love, but turns out, he was wrong. jisung is the first person he ever truly loved, and it made him feel happy, excited, even. looking at love in a new perspective made chenle think for a moment how he ever thought he was the love master, but now, he has grown and admitted to himself that he was wrong.

"that is... exactly right," chenle said, taking a seat next to jeno on the bench. the foreigner asked his korean friend if he wanted to hang out, and the light blond haired male agreed. the two had lunch together and chenle was now talking to jeno about the proof he collected last night.

"you kissed him while you were doing your math homework and he didn't respond?"

"yeah... i mean, i still finished my math homework," chenle replied. yes, despite the event between the two occurring, the orange haired boy was still able to finish his math homework last night with jisung's help. no word about the kiss was exchanged between the two boys; actually, it was as if the kiss never happened. they had conversations like normal and nothing seemed out of the ordinary. anyone would look at them and think that nothing was wrong when really, the kiss continued to play over and over in both of their heads all night for different reasons.

"that's not what i mean," jeno said.

"i know what you mean," chenle sighed as a response. "he didn't respond, but he didn't push me away or kiss me back. i don't know if he liked it or not."

"hm. at least you're bold enough to do that," the light blond haired male muttered to himself, hoping chenle didn't hear him because he didn't want to deal with more drama than what was going on. however, luck wasn't on his side, because the next thing he said had to do about what jeno just muttered to himself.

"you can be bold enough to do anything," chenle said, not really knowing the context in which jeno was talking about. the orange haired male was looking up at the sky that was the same color as jisung's hair and there were no clouds visible either.

once the chinese male looked back at his korean friend, he saw the depressing look on jeno's face, and the orange haired male put his hand on his shoulder lightly in order not to startle him. the other looked up from the ground to his friend, who had a reassuring smile on his face.

"if you have any problems or need someone to talk to, you have me. i may be loud, but i'm a good listener."

jeno nodded his head, but didn't say a word. the light blond haired male didn't want the conversation to go from chenle to him because after all, chenle was the one who needed help. the korean male just sat there while his orange haired friend had his arm around him and rubbed his shoulder in an effort to calm him down.

a few minutes sitting in that position and jeno finally decided to talk. sure, he didn't want the conversation to suddenly go from chenle to him, but the conversation was already turned to him when he said that to jeno, so the light blond haired male decided to take this chance to finally tell someone about the feelings he's been keeping to himself for years.

"well, actually..."