So,

Panic attacks fucking suck.

The first one that I can remember (at least a full blown one)

Was in school. Obviously.

In computer class. After a week of working on a project. We could work alone or with a partner. I was working alone.

All week I tried to write down a note to give my teacher, saying I couldn't present it.

But nope. That didn't work.
So the day came.

After hours of being in school, I had to deal with this before I could go home.

People started going up to present... meanwhile I started panicking.
My friend was beside me but didn't notice. No one noticed. Not that I know of anyways.

The teacher didn't know... so... after a week of working on this project I got a zero...
And I was usually a good student. Especially in computers. (Cause it was kinda easy. Especially with the old teacher)

But here's what I felt like-

Basically thought I was dying. Feels like a heart attack. Fun right!?

-My heart was racing like crazy.
-Cold sweat.
-Couldn't catch my breath.
-So confused about what was happening.
-Felt like I was gonna pass out.

So after all that. I for a zero... 😑

It was a terrifying experience and I thought I was dying...

😣😔

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The second time was also school related...
Sensing a theme?

(Ended with me going home and running outside to cry in a horse trailer... 😐🥲)

So yeah,
Anxiety is real.
It's not something that just goes away because you wish it to.

(Only for the haters, if you have anxiety, you know)

It's horrible.
Stop judging people that you don't know.
And stop acting like you know better.
Your not a doctor.
And even doctors/therapist don't always take mental health seriously.
And meds can only help so much.

Some people have dealt with these issues all their lives without help.
So stop being an asshole.

Mental health plays a big part of health.
Remember that.