i kinda want to write a story where jesse actually dies for real

i've noticed that although there's a lot of good angst writers in this fandom, not many actually have the spine to actually kill jesse off

there's a lot of resurrection and respawning and no shortage of goddamned fakeouts, but very little of jesse actually dying and not coming back to life

and yeah that includes me,, i'm still low-key wishing i'd had the spine to kill her off at the end of Shattered Souls :/

but now i suddenly like really want to write a fic where they die in the end

i've been considering this idea that's sort of like Groundhog Day but not, where one day keeps repeating and jesse keeps dying every time, and as she realizes what's going on, she also gradually becomes aware of the fact that she's relived her life multiple times and there's a whole lotta fun paradoxes and stuff

but like

i don't think i want to end that with her actually literally dead forever. it just,, doesn't fit somehow

but

i want to write SOMETHING that ends with her dead

even if it's just a short story

this fandom needs more dead-jesse content

(...wow okay that sounded really weird oof)

hhhhhhhh

i also considered killing off all the Primes in the end of Parallels,, but that doesn't really fit either. A lot of Parallels is really dark and grim, and i kinda feel like a story as terrible as that one deserves at least a sort of happy ending

but,,

i'd be lying if i said i'm not still considering it

ugh

i don't even know if i had a point here lol

i want more dead jesses

pls

Also!

This is unrelated, but I'm on fanfiction.net and AO3 now, under the same username

I'm still figuring them out, but I've started posting Parallels to both; No Rest for the Wicked is on both; and Complications is on AO3

This in no way means I'm abandoning Wattpad- I still have a lot of friends here and so far I like this site better than either of those -but I exist there too c:

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