I need to let some shit go... so, lately, I've lost 4 friends.. there's a few more that are struggling with being here, and it hurts... it hurts me worse than you'd ever imagine.. I care about you all so fucking much.. I care about everyone so so so fucking much... I love all of you. You are all so so beautiful and handsome and just amazing., I just... I think I'm the problem.. it's me... it always has been...