This is when my ex and I were still together. I just felt like getting it off my chest. He was a douche. May he forever be forgotten now.

I've done what I do best

Fucked it all up

He hates me now

And I'm alone.

It started with a fight

An argument

A little bicker

It got so bad, that he called me a dick.

I can't take this shit much longer

I need to go

It was all my fault

And now I need to get what I deserve

What's coming to me.

I know that he'd be happier with me gone

We never should've happened in the first place

Then again, why would he date a mistake like I?

I don't deserve him

He doesn't deserve me

He deserves better

I deserve worse

He treats me too well

I don't treat him well enough.

I need to leave

To escape

To die.

So, that's exactly what I'm gonna make myself do

Bring everyone the joy they deserve

And leave this hell hole.

Leave everyone

To attend their lives without me

Without the sorrow

The pain

That follows them around.

Like a rain cloud

That's all I am

A rain cloud that always rains on everyone's joyful fucking parade

No one would notice or care if I left

So, why am I still here?