All I have to do is let it go
Right?
It's as simple as that.
Well it's not.
You say it like its no big deal.
That it's something that can be fixed
with a little bit of cookie dough,
But it can't.
It's not something that can change overnight,
No matter how much I want it to
Or you want it to.

Even if it could be changed overnight
I wouldn't know how to fix it,
How to make everything okay again.
Back to the way it was
Before everything happened.

I can't just act like it didn't happen.
Like he didn't do what he did!
But that's what you want me to do,
Right?!
Act like nothing happened!
Act like I'm not scared he won't do it again!
Act like I'm okay with him being here!
Act like I've forgiven and forgotten
Until it just becomes the truth...
Your truth.

It might look like the truth to you but that's not reality.
It's a false truth you wish to be real,
To make you feel better.
Why act if it just exhausts?
My energy is slowly dying.
I'm not sure how much longer I can keep up.

I know you want me to keep acting,
so your problems don't seem as big.
So you don't have to live in reality.
Well, guess what?!
Life is Life whether you like it or not,
And pretending won't make reality go away!

You want me to pretend so it's
easier for you to as well,
So that it's easier to not think about the
reality you're hiding from,
So it's easier for you to live in your fantasy.

Reality can be hard to accept
But acting will make it harder.
So why do it when you know it will
Only succeed in making it worse later?
Reality will hit you hard because of
how hard you have been trying to
live in this alternate world.
I feel bad for you. I know how
much this fantasy is going to hurt,
How much damage it
already has done.

That's why I can't do this anymore.
I can't keep pretending just so you
will be able to hurt me more later!
A fantasy world manipulates us to
think that it's helping,
And that it feels better.
But under that disguise is something
worse than reality,
Something far darker.

I know you don't want me to stop pretending.
I know you want me to stay in this fantasy world.
And I know how much the thought of reality hurts,
But this needs to stop!
It's time for this fantasy to end.
I am not sorry for my decision to live
In reality
I just hope you will choose the same.
You might not see how much it is
hurting for you to pretend,
But I see it everyday,
And it hurts even more.