why do i get drowsy

when i need to show ecstasy

why do i feel awkward

my bubble is still intact

nothing destroyed my heart

could i blame it on stress?

could i blame it on lack of efficiency?

life goes up and up

how do i share the blame

if the one to blame

might not be the reason to blame

sadness wells in me

for no reason at all

sometimes hiding

is better than none

if i had a button

that made me invisible

in some moments

how that button would be useful!

you see me

smiling

looking towards the clouds

staying positive

all while assumingly having zero problems

look at me again

my brain locked my feelings

it is the prison for problems

yes, i am mainly happy

yes, i spread positivity

and yes, i see clouds

even when there are none

so why do i feel sad?

why do i feel hollow?

why do i feel small?

why do i even bother?

i ask these questions

during the times

the depression

and stress makes an appearance

why do i feel this way sometimes?