Jonny's POV

1 week later

I watched Chris walk out of the music room where he had been talking with whoever on the phone, holding the device loosely in his hand. He didn't seem exactly sad or disappointed, just a bit... worried and stressed out. I tried to make out what about and with whom he could have been talking but his face didn't give much away. But I supposed he would tell me soon.

It was rather late already, by now I had pretty much moved into Chris' flat as it was the larger one and we hardly managed to spend a night apart. I remember after the last evening we hadn't spent together it had felt like we hadn't seen each other in years. Which didn't exactly make us work more effectively in he studio that morning.

There had been many girls I had a crush on and really felt like I was in love with before but this was something totally different. You couldn't call it the same and I don't think I loved anyone as much before. When people talked about soulmates, well I guess that's what they meant. I couldn't believe those blue eyes had been in front of me half of my life and I only completely opened mine up to them now.

Just open up your eyes....

Chris sat down on the sofa, obviously noticing I was kind of lost in thoughts.

"Who was that?"

Chris took a few seconds before he answered and I looked at him in worry.

"It was Gwyneth and the kids."

"What have you been talking about?"

"Well, you know I haven't seen the kids in a while. They miss me and so do I."

I knew this would come at some point, I had noticed as well there hadn't been time for much more than a short visit and phone calls recently. Chris loved his kids a lot and always tried his best to be there for them though it was hard in his situation and job.

"I hoped they could come over here this time so I could stay with you and we could continue working on the album. But Apple has a performance with her school choir in a few days that is really important to her. I know she would be very disappointed if I didn't come. But I can't just leave you and all the work behind."

I swallowed. I didn't know if I was ready to be apart from Chris for so long, especially in this stressful situation. But I had to let him go, there was no other choice. It would be totally unfair and selfish to not let him see his kids. And coming with him was no option, no one had any idea about our relationship and it would be quite questionable for everyone why I came with Chris.

"You should go. I know you try your best to be there for your kids. The three of us can continue working in the studio until you're back."

"Are you sure? I don't want to leave you alone for so long Jay."

"No, really. It's okay."

I pretended to not get sick in my stomach at the thought of being apart from Chris. I didn't know how I would make it. Chris would be distracted by his family at least. But this was my only choice and I would have to get used to it sooner or later anyway.

"Thank you. I promise it won't be that long."

***

Chris' POV

I hugged Jonny one last time.

"I don't want to leave you Jonny Boy."

"Oh come on, you'll see you're kids and sunny California again! You shouldn't be sad!"

It was obvious that Jonny was trying his best to hide how hard it was for him. He was such a beautiful soul. Not only had he agreed to let me go see my kids for a few days right away, he even wanted me not to worry about him being sad while I was gone. How did I even deserve him??

I kissed him onto his cheek one last time, whispering my goodbye into this ear. Then I had to let go of his hold, heading towards my plane all alone.

***

Many hours later I found myself in the by now way too familiar airport hall once again. I soon spotted Gwyneth with Apple and Moses waiting for me to pick me up. Apple seemed to recognize me first. She started running towards me while shouting "Daddy!" and pulled me into a tight hug.

"I missed you little angel.", I whispered into her ear. 

Seconds later the others arrived next to me as well, Moses joining our hug and Gwyneth greeting me with a polite smile. 

We all went to Gwyneth house and played games together while drinking tea, for the old times' sake. A few hours later I let myself drop onto the bed in my separate room. I looked around, it was pretty large and the furniture looked quite expensive. I wondered what Gwyneth usually needed it for. Her new house seemed to be large enough have some random unnecessary rooms though. 

I closed my eyes for a few seconds even though I knew I wouldn't be able to sleep. The flight and everything had been pretty exhausting.

Though I started to miss having Jonny next to me already I was so happy to see my kids again. I missed them sneaking into our studio every now and then,  I missed being able to be close to them most of the time. Of course it never had been easy with Gwyneth's and my jobs but there had always been a way to bring the four of us together. But now it still felt kind of awkward to spent time together the way we had before. Especially since Gwyneth still didn't know the real reason why I had left her. And even more now that I was together with Jonny... like what would she even think if she knew one day? It would be the most awkward situation ever and I would still have to face her because of the children... 

I shuddered at the thought of her ever finding out.

But the truth was, one day she would have to know. Being rational, me and Jonny couldn't keep our relationship a secret forever.

God, my life really was one huge mess.

A/N: I just remembered I promised to add more pics so I finally did. Hope you enjoyed it:P