Chris' POV

The first few weeks back home had been going surprisingly well. Jonny and I now had a "real" relationship, with going for dinner and holding hands and all that, though we couldn't do most when there was any danger of us being seen.

It felt really great to be back to the band to be honest. With all the things happening I hadn't really realized how much I had missed making music with my best friends. It was so different from sitting alone at my piano or acoustic to have everyone add their part to a song.
After that break I was more grateful than ever for everyone's job in our band and how everything came together when working on our songs.

Though it felt kind of strange at the beginning and Guy obviously kept making playful jokes about Jonny and me it all felt normal pretty soon. And Guy, Will and Phil had been even more understanding than expected, in fact they had been really happy for us and did their best to make it easier for us.

Today we were set to go over our first attempt of a album tracklist again and decide what songs should be added or left out. Soon we would also start making plans for the promotion of the album. That meant choosing singles, coming up with concepts for music videos and - what I was a little bit excited in a negative way about - thinking about a album promo tour.

I kept telling myself that I shouldn't be scared about it and that it would all be fine somehow but the truth was the thought of playing the songs from Ghost Stories in front of a crowd, or, to make it worse, a stadium crowd, made my stomach clench.
Those songs were way too intimate, way too filled with pain to repeat it all over again every night and into the bargain act all cheerful while I did so.

It wasn't like with the "sad" and intimate songs from Parachutes or something, it felt a lot different even though it was hard to explain.
Writing songs had been my therapy when I had been at my lowest. But I by far was not close enough to being totally over it that it couldn't break me back into pieces again when I was to relive it by playing those songs.

A knock on my door told me that Jonny had already arrived at my house. We had made it our habit to have a little walk through the park before we went to The Bakery together in the morning. This way we could have a talk without being distracted and usually we were hardly ever recognized by anyone around here.
Of course there was still the fear that some smart Paparazzi could be watching us so we of course avoided kissing or holding hands in public. Avoid being the operative word. I wouldn't say that there hadn't been moments when we were pretty sure no one could be watching us and just couldn't resist.

I decided to put my worries aside to enjoy my time with Jonny instead and just see how the the day will go.
Jonny brought a coffee for both of us as usual, he was always so sweet to me.
I hugged him as a welcome and we shared a quick kiss. To be honest I still had no idea what made me deserve someone like him, I must be the luckiest person on the earth to be with Jonny.
His eyes seemed to be shining with joy when I looked deep into them like I loved to do so much.

Sometimes I thought back to the times when I had to force myself to avert my gaze to keep myself from going crazy. Now I let myself fully soak up the tingly feeling that started to spread in my body at his presence. I wondered if he actually noticed what an affect he had on me.

After talking a little walk we arrived at The Bakery. We were pretty early today so the others weren't there yet.

"What are we gonna do until the others arrive?"

Jonny and I both shared a mischievous grin, the same thought crossing our minds. Looking around to make sure there was no one watching us I placed my hand gently on Jonny's back, leading him to the little back room where we kept a few things stored.

Something about secretly making out in the studio made the whole thing a lot more exciting and it felt even better than usual.
I pressed my lips passionately against Jonny's and let his taste spread in my mouth and damn, it was an amazing taste. If there had ever been something shy about our kisses it was definitely far gone now.
Jonny gently bit my lip and made my whole body tingle with it. It just caused me to move even closer. My hand started to make its way up Jonny's belly while he placed his on my butt with a tight grip.

I felt the soft hair on his chest, letting my hand go of the control by my mind and instead fully being led by the amazing sensations.
It wasn't hard to tell Jonny was just as aroused as I was.

I was just about to pull Jonny's shirt over his head when we suddenly heard a crack outside the door. Both of us started and automatically backed away from each other.

We couldn't take this risk of anyone finding us here like this so we quickly fixed our hair and quietly walked out of the room with our hands gently tangled in each others. I hoped the crack had just been some noise from the outside and no one else had arrived yet but my hope soon turned out to not be fulfilled.

Guy turned his head as he saw us walking out of the small room. I felt how my face was getting hot and red with embarrassment and I was pretty sure Jonny blushed just as terribly. This must have been the most awkward moment since we had been in this band and believe me, there had been many awkward moments already. As a relflex we both let our hands go of one another and stopped walking.

"Hey! I thought you weren't here yet. You really can't keep the hands of one another, can you?"

Guy obviously tried to hide his own embarrassment with a laugh and his usual jokes and Jonny and me blushed even more.

"Come on, we have lots of stuff to do. Some of us are actually here to work so would you mind helping us?"

"Yeah, sure. You just all weren't here yet."

The last thing we had done yesterday was trying to decide which songs and song snippets should be put where. It had been late so we had decided to continue today. I hadn't been able to stop thinking about it though so I had stayed late until late at night until I had put something halfway acceptable together. It seemed to have a lot weak spots though.

I showed the others what I had written down and we spent some time discussing and trying out. We changed a little bit about it and then agreed on a first state. Most songs luckily were almost done recording and mixing but others still needed a lot of work.

"I don't know guys. Don't you feel like something's missing on it?"

I couldn't shake off my doubt about all of it, I just felt like it wasn't good enough and everyone would hate it.

"No, why? I feel like it all comes together quite well so far. You should stop doubting everything you do, Chris."

I didn't feel as convinced as Will though.
But I had no other choice but trust them for now.
And apart from that all that I could really think about at the moment was the time Jonny and I had shared earlier and how bad I wanted to continue what we had started.

A/N: The next chapter is going to be up very soon, it only needs some editing! Hope you enjoyed the more detailed Chris & Jonny scene:P