Trust.

Something I can't have. 

Being left behind, abandoned, forgotten. 

Somethings I fear. 

Trust is a fragile thing, trust is something that can't be given so easily. Trust...Is something that can be used against you. 

Trust is something I no longer have, nor will I ever feel. 

Being left behind and abandoned hurts. 

The feeling of all those that you know and loved, cared about, leave and hurt you. Forever engraved in your mind as a breaking memories. The fond memories that hurts. Friends, what the point of having them when they could have just back stabbed you? What the point of making memories when they fade away in time? What the point of this?

Everyday, I feel as though everyone would truly leave me behind, hate me, forget I ever exist, never to speak to me again. 

And you know what?

I'm okay with it.

I'm okay with being left behind and abandoned. I'm okay with being forgotten. I am okay with no one trusting me. 

It's what my smiles for. 

To hide the pain I'm in. 

I know, no one else would cared about me. 

I know, everything I did would fell on death ears. 

I know, I sacrificed a lot for them all. 

I know....I will never be forgiven...

I know, I will never see my friends again...

I know...I am in pain...

I know, my smile is always fake...

I know...

Is it just so hard to find peace in all this?

...

I guess, I waited long enough, Waited for years, to find happiness, guess I'll never get it. I guess...

It was never meant to be. 

...

This is my farewell...

Sincerely, 
Sabre

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Sorry Sabre- But I practically sacrifice you for this One-Shot in a way for me to say that I have trust issues and such- 

Woopsie- 

So, um, yeah- 

This is angst/rant ;-; 

-Aria