I look at the car and take a deep breath, Kylie holding my hand and opening the door for me. It takes me a moment before I get in. I can't help but start shaking a little as I sat in the seat. Kylie didn't seem to notice. She shuts the door for me as well and then gets in the front to drive. As she drives, it feels like forever that we're in the car for. It feels like it's getting longer and longer. I realize I started shaking more and I looked down at my hands. Kylie looked over at me and then back at the road, taking a double take and taking a second to look at my hands. She slowly reaches for my shaking hands and she holds one. "I'm here Jayden." She says softly. I can't help but start crying. Everything happened so fast that I haven't even had time to think about it that much. My emotions keep mixing together to where I can't feel what I'm supposed to feel. I feel like I'm going to throw up, and instant regret of talking about it to the police sets in. "I'm pulling over, is there anything in the glove box you can use?" She asks pulling over when she can find a safe spot to do so. I immediately got out of the car and puked my guts out at the side of the road. It just kept coming, I can't hold it in anymore. Kylie rushed out and held back my hair for me and rubbed my back. "Let it out baby, it's okay. I'm here." She said. It's hard to breathe in between puking, but eventually I stop. My dad pulled over behind us but didn't get out of the car, he's been following us home. I look at his car and sigh, my body shaking. "I think I have water somewhere in the car from earlier, let me give you some water you need to drink fluids." She said, quickly going to the car to grab the water. She gave it to me and I chugged what was left in the bottle. We just sat next to the car on the side of the road waiting for me to be ready to get back into the car. "Some color is back in your face now, you went so pale. Are you feeling better?" She asked. I nodded and held my head. Tears still keep spilling out of my eyes, making me feel like a truck of emotions just hit me. "I just want to be home." I said between sobs. She kissed my forehead and picked me up, putting me in the car. 

After crying almost the whole way home I finally stopped. Kylie got out and opened my door, picking me up and carrying me to the door. My dad opened the door for us and she thanked him, carrying me upstairs. "Let's get you a shower okay?" She said softly in my ear. I feel so tired, but I nod. She carries me into the bathroom and sets me on the counter. I wrap my arms around her neck and my legs around her waist as I sit on the bathroom counter. She holds me and kisses my head. I feel rainlike droplets fall onto my back. "Seeing you in pain hurts me." She says, her voice breaking. I lay my head on her shoulder, kissing it softly. "I'm sorry." I mumble. "Don't be sorry, you did nothing wrong. This is not your fault." She said, looking at me in my eyes, her hand under my chin. Her eyes are a little red, they look like she's in pain. I hate causing other people pain. "I'm going to let you take a shower now okay?" She said, kissing my cheek slowly. She has been very gentle and careful around me since yesterday as if I'm some broken person. I mean I don't think I fully feel what I'm supposed to yet but I don't think I'm broken. I'm still me, I'm still Jayden. I know that this is something huge that happened to me but, I know it doesn't define me. I nod and I let my legs loosen around her so she can leave. "I'm gonna leave the door cracked so if you need me I can hear you, is that ok?" She asks leaving the door a crack open. "Yeah thank you." I said getting off of the counter. 

I get into the shower and it takes me only a few seconds after wetting my hair before scrubbing the hell out of my hair. I feel so dirty, so disgusting. I feel the need to clean EVERYTHING. I rinse out the shampoo in my hair but I still feel like It's not enough. I wash it several more times and I start bawling my eyes out loudly as I rinse it out, and sitting down in the shower and holding my knees. Kylie comes in and looks down at me and starts to strip her clothes off into a bra and underwear and she opens the shower door, and shutting it behind her and sitting behind me and holding me. "Shh baby it's okay." She says in my ear softly. I turn around and kiss Kylie, calming down from her touch. She kisses me back and puts her hands on my face. She pulls away and looks at me with her beautiful blue eyes. "I'm here." She reassures me. I nod and lay my forehead on hers. I then look down at her body, still in a bra and underwear. I laugh a little. "What are you laughing at?" She asked confused. "Baby why are you wearing clothes in the shower?" I asked giggling. "I didn't want to make you uncomfortable, but I didn't wanna get most my other clothes wet." She said smiling a little. I smiled and kissed her softly, my hands travelling her back, unhooking her bra and sliding the straps off her shoulders. She takes off her underwear and I throw both out of the shower. "Can you just hold me a little while?" I asked. "Of course beautiful." She says, brushing my wet hair out of my face and then holding me. As they say, if they can handle you at your worst, they deserve you at your best. I think that she's the one that I'm going to be with for a long long time. I lay my head on her shoulder, smiling..