"Good morning, Jungkook-ah." One voice makes him shift his head toward its direction, oh so familiar voice that he can't recall.
"Good morning." He said with his raw voice, he is just wake up from his sleep. "Who are you?" as usual.
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"And now you came just because Jennie asks you to?" she asked amused when her view was blocked by a woman with black hair, making the said woman look at her. "I can't believe I could make an alliance with her in my lifetime." The short hair chuckled and then tap the bench beside her, asking the new girl to sit down.
"So, you will face him or only wanted to observe him like before?" she mocked, sarcastically. "Just like smart ass professor watching their experiment bunny."
"Shut up, Soomi.
"Guilty already, Lalisa."
"Look, I am coming in here to talk to him. You ask me to provoke him to come out from this hospital, right?" Lisa facing Soomi frowning, not even wanted to do bullshit with her, her time is limited. "I don't know if I will make it different than anyone who's failed to provoke him, but I am willing to try. So, stop make me pissed." She growls at the last sentences make Soomi chuckled because for her, Lisa was too cute to be angry.
"What are you promising to Mino?" her question make Lisa shut her mouth. How did she know? "Because it was so hard to convince a psychopath like us."
"Tell me!" Soomi demanded an answer, while Lisa look at her uncertainly. Will it make difference if she spills the promises she gave toward Mino?
"Even if I tell you, it won't make anything change." Lisa huffed and looked straight, watching Jungkook who's taking his time picking out flower in the hospital's garden while Ja in beside him making flower crown. They are so sweet together; they are so cute together. And he looks happy. That was the important thing for her, what's the deal to make the two of them separated, even if Ja in is sick, it's only cancer anyway. Miracle can always happen right?
"What if I can change, everything." She snapped her head toward Soomi, along with her crazy heartbeat when she saw that smirk of someone who's almost killed her and Jennie years ago, someone who made her lost her sister, Jinny.
"And you will do it, for me?" Lisa asked in disbelieve. It's the first time knowing that Soomi willing to do something for her, and it's not against her.
Soomi only shrug her shoulder and looking at the distance where her love lay on one body. "It's not my choice." She said weakly, but her smile never faded. "What can I do? I love him when he loves you. And I am so tired to try to make him mine, not when your name carved in his heart."
"I am not that precious." Said Lisa watching Jungkook, just like what Soomi do.
"Even not Sewon can challenge your position."
"She is out of our league, come on." Lisa said wanted to ease the mood.
"You know nothing about your value, Lisa. You are his world. You should stop to run away and face him." Lisa nodded her head and look at her lap, playing her finger.
"I am wrecked."
"So did him. You two damage couple will make a wonderful family."
"Don't smile like you want it to be happen for real, Soomi." Lisa's stern tone somehow mirroring her anger. "Don't act like you don't want to be happy too."
"But there is no happy ending for everyone, right?" of course if she is not stubborn, she won't be called Soomi. "There is night and daylight, there is sweet and bitter, there is dark and light, there is my happiness and the two of yours."
"Soomi."
"And you know what I will choose." She frowns at Soomi's statement wanting to understand Soomi's complicated mind, but she failed. "So go on, don't be shy. Ask him out." The two finally smile to each other, for the first time, warmly, while Soomi's hand caressing Lisa's.
"I only have one day." Finally, Lisa told Soomi her promise that convinced Mino before she stands up and walking lightly to the corridor near Jungkook playing.
"Girl, you love to play with fire, don't you?" Whisper Soomi as she watches her rival go.
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"That's beautiful." He said while showing his bunny teeth toward his friend, Ja In. He put the flower crown on her head, make her look like princess.
"Which one?" she asked playfully to make Jungkook frown and pouting his lips.
"The flower, of course." He pouts, that's not what she wanted to hear, she wanted his compliment but seeing how he pouts his lips make her happy. That's enough for her. "I like yellow." He added.
"What's so special with yellow, Jungkook-ah?" she asked and then motioning to sat beside him who's sat on his wheelchair.
"It just......" she looks at him curious. "Because Barbie like it." And of course, like usual, the same answer. And she wanted that to be over. She wanted him to stop to talk about that Barbie.
"Why are you so dumb?" she asked pissed make Jungkook flinch and look at her direction, his hand stop playing with the yellow flower. "Why can't you stop talking about Barbie, I told you I hate Barbie." She said grumpily.
"Why are you hating Barbie? She is cute and kind and beautiful. You will like her if you meet her."
"And have you meet her?" it stops Jungkook for defending his Barbie image in instant. Of course, he hasn't. "She never come to see you, it means that she is not kind, she abandons you, she doesn't care of you."
"Lie." He shouts make Ja In and someone who's secretly stand near them at the corridor flinching, shock. It's not every day you can meet angry Jungkook. And it's not a thing you wanted to face. "You lied."
"Then do you remember her despite of her name? How she acts toward you, what's she looks like, and why she never come?"
"Go away, I don't want to see you. Please, go away." He shouts again, this time he drives his wheelchair away from Ja in because the girl won't go away.
"Run away from me, and tomorrow let's see if you can remember it." The girl shout back before Jungkook turning left, speeding his wheelchair wanting to escape, to hide under his blanket. He hates that he couldn't remember that Ja In hurt his feeling tomorrow. Everything will be disappeared once he sleeps.
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Go away, please go away.
Why did everyone lie to me?
I believe in Barbie.
That she cares that she is kind.
But why did someone always trying to make me question her existence, her feeling for me.
Of course, I never met her,
Or have I but I erase the memory again?
Fool me, why can't I remember her?
Damn you, Jungkook.
She is real, right?
My Barbie is real, right?
If she is not real, how can I always surprising everyone because I always said that name, again and again.
Why can't I erase that name along with so many others?
Why does the name seem special?
If it's not because she is real one.
Or did my brain lie to me?
Have I fallen into a lie?
Did I caught in a lie that I made by myself without I realized it?
If so, who can save me?
Please someone find the innocent me,
Without help I won't escape from inside this lie.
I wanted my happy smile to return to me,
I wanted to remember again.
Please someone free me from this hell.
Please save me who is being punished.
Save me,
Please someone save me.
I was caught in my sadness, fastening my wheelchair at the corridor not even care if someone will scold me. I was into my mind, that no one may be ever love me like I love my illusion that I made for my Barbie. No one will understand. I almost reaching my room when suddenly one body stand in the middle of my way make me stop immediately, instantly.
What's with the feeling?
I looked up, seeing the eye full of warmth, sadness, and happiness which is resemble of mine. I am in awe, as if that eye took my breath away, breath taking. As if anyone but us is not exist, no sounds can be heard, those eyes, I missed it. I craved for it.
And those time I knew that my unending waiting story has ended.
I finally got to see you; my heart whispered.
I can say nothing but mesmerizing by the beautiful creature that showed off in front of me. And I feel like my world goes upside down when that plump lip goes wide, she smiled, God she smiles, and I feel like my empty life contended.
"Barbie." My mouth said without I even realized it. I found you, Barbie. And I smile, finally.
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Look at how you smile like an idiot, Jungkook. How come you never been that happy when I never stop to stand by your side?
She hurts you and finally come after I sale my soul for that, and look at you, happy, contended.
Why did you make me feel like trash? Why did you make me so crazy?
You know I want you to be happy, like now.
But how I hate myself to not able to erase my crazy thought when I see that the reason you are happy is not me.
I won't stand here, doing nothing watching you with someone but me.
That's why I should go.
That's how you will have your happy ending, love.
I know that you erased me completely already, but I wish.
Deep down in my heart you will remember me, that your heart will beat a little faster when someone call my name.
I wanted your heart to remember me as someone who will never stop to love you in anyway.
I wanted your heart to react to my name.
Min Jisoo, Soomi, your Mochi.
Kookie-ya, I am sorry to bring you to hell with me.
I am sorry.
In the next lifetime, please, love only me.
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