"What's wrong?" I asked when he looks lost in the morning when I arrived in his room.

"Who are you?" as usual, and I smile like usual, giving him my hand for a handshake.

"Yin Ja In. We spend the time together, every day." I told him make him furrowed his eyebrows, confuse. I won't introduce myself as your friend anymore Jungkook, enough with all friend bullshit.

"Oh." He said after one minutes of silences, I will let you guess what kind of relationship we had. I smile and look at his face again.

"What's the matter?" I ask him when he is zoning out again, something is bothering him.

"I don't know." He spoke softly. "I just... I just feel like I lost something." Of course, you do. "Something important." But I smile at him while touching his arm, assuring him that everything is okay.

"Maybe because you forget everything just like every day, Jungkook." I said and he look at me almost believe in my words. "It's okay, I will be in here."

I am sorry Jungkook.

--
"You didn't think that you can manipulate him without I know, right?" I startled and gasping when someone pulled my hand, I was in comforting room. I look at someone who's speak harshly toward me, it was that strange short hair girl, Soomi.

"What do you say? I don't understand." I said yanking her hand from mine and look her in her eyes. I can sense fear every time I am near her, I just don't know why but I sense that she is fearless, the opposite side of me. She chuckled lightly and then suddenly trapping me on the wall with both of her hand, punching the wall with her right fist.

"You stole something from him, 2 days ago. And don't let me explain to you what's that because we know that you know it well more than anyone." How did she know? "It's weird how I feel happy when doctor said that miracle indeed helping you to make you survive with that little thing on your body." She hissed and I look away from her, struggling to make me free. "But look at how desperate you are now, how I wish you are dead instead."

"Why are you so mean to me? What did I do wrong to you?" I whined almost crack on my tears.

"You do nothing to me, but you are really a pain on the ass for Jungkook. You manipulate inner self got you under my skin, how I can see clearly how similarity you and me in this state."

"What the-"

"And guess what, princess." And then she forces me to look at her, holding my chin hard, it will give me mark right. "I can do worse than you, I can make you beg for your life to end early if you keep doing dirty things toward Jungkook."

"He doesn't love you."

 
"And not to you too, bitch." I whined in pain when I feel the sting from her nail which is digging deeply on my cheeks. "Now go and being good princess, minding your own business and you will be fine." She said finally after releasing my face, make my head hit the hard wall as I feel dizzy. "Or I will make you disappear from the world without anyone realize."

--
"She manipulates him, she took advantage of Jungkook's mental condition." Soomi said when hospital's director asks for the attendance of Yoongi, Jennie and Soomi due to Ja in's parents report. They are reporting the abusive action that Soomi did toward Ja in which makes the girl collapse in the comforting room after Soomi smash her head on the wall.

"But violence won't be a great solution, miss Min." the director said not forget to give them his professional smile. "We are glad that Mr. and Mrs. Yin only talking to us rather than toward the police. It won't only affect your safety, but also our hospital miss."

"So, you will let Jungkook in his misery? I only want to make Ja in understand what she did is wrong, and I already talk to her kindly but she never buys it."

"But-"

"How can you know if she fakes it or not, the fainting scene."

"Min Jisoo!" there Yoongi lost his patience and call her name out loud make the director almost jolting in surprise.

"Like usual, none of you will buy my words, that's why I told you that this will lead on bullshit. We won't make anything such as a deal." She snapped back toward her brother with an angry face. "Do whatever you wanted as hiding the fact, and I will protect him with all of my cost."

"Mind your business with Mingyu."

"Sadly, I broke up with him." She said shortly ready to leave but Jennie grabs her hand.

"Stay, we will hear whatever your solution is." Jennie said, it's weird how Jennie wanted to discuss something with her. Maybe this is because of Jungkook's condition, they almost lost Jungkook by not listening on what Soomi said, and she won't risk anything anymore. Hesitantly Soomi calming down and sat back on her seat.

"It's rather move Jungkook or Ja in out from this hospital. End of discussion. We don't need another me living around Jungkook, do we?"

--
"Soomi, why don't you eat?" he asked softly while caressing my hair, he just being him, so sweet. "Don't you like it?" I didn't respond, I only look at him, hesitate to speak up or not.

"Let's break up." I said finally make him went stiff and his hand froze on air, hanging on the air after brushing my hair. He is in a wordless state, he blinks once, twice and then grabbing his mind together.

"Let's talk about it after you eat, will you?" he spoke giving me meat and put it on my spoon, and he smiles. How can you smile in this state? I know you got hurt. I thought that your feeling all is fake, to only shielding Lisa, your best friend from my crazy though.

But night after night we spent time together, you never ask how I feel toward you, instead you keep on telling me that I am worth to fight, that I am loved. Maybe you are not Jungkook, you might not be my first love but your words, your stare always gave strength. The reason why I can survive even after my parents got divorce.

I even slowly let Jungkook go, reaching someone he wants, he needs, he loves. The silence night when I was about to sleep, you will whisper the 1000 reasons why you love me, thinking that I was in my deep sleep. How grateful I felt, even though it's not Jungkook.

But oh Mingyu, you deserve someone more than a psycho like me. You deserve a lovely girl, with a beautiful mind, the soft one, not me. And the fact that now only me can fight for Jungkook's happiness make me can do nothing but to leave you. I like you; I nearly love you; you have special space in my heart too, a little smaller than Jungkook's. But I can't fight my obsession to see Jungkook happy. He is suffering now; I can't leave him.

And I can't tell you about my feeling toward you, you need to move on. I won't make you happy.

"I don't like to make anything hard and complicated." I said rejecting his offer and slowly taking off the ring on my finger, the one that he gave me as my hand cuff.

"Why?"

"You know why Mingyu." I told him, half chuckled for his stupid question. Everyone knows the answer already. "For whom my heart belongs to." I put the ring on his palm, feeling his warm hand for the last time, if you know how it hurts me too Mingyu, but I can't let you see me in that state. "I'ma let you go and fly."