02 February.
Jennie noona, Yoongi hyung and Suji come to visit me. They are my friend, my best friend.
I am happy that they come, bringing Suji with them, their daughter.
Because Suji knows her, Suji knows my Barbie.
I am not crazy, after all.
I am not fantasizing my love. She is real.

14 March.
I wrote that that Suji girl know my Barbie, right?
But why did Suji never come again.
She promises me she will bring my Barbie's picture if she come to the hospital again.
Did she lie?

07 April.
You know Yin Ja In?
That girl who said that she is my friend.
She looks pretty today, she wore yellow hair pin, that's why she is beautiful.
But why did she look so sad every time she looks at me when the nurse asks her to come back to her room?

14 April.
She said she loves me; it's freak me out.
Yin Ja In.
I wonder if she ever confesses to me before.
Because the diary has some ripped part.
I should hide it under my pillow.

--
"Where is your diary?" she asked when she is about to leave my room, nurse Im was standing beside the door waiting for her to come with her to her room.

"What's diary?" I asked her back to make her frown.

"Nurse Im, do you know where his diary is?" she then asked the nurse but nurse Im shaking her head.

"It's not there since this morning when I checked him up, maybe you can search for it tomorrow, young lady. Now you have to go back to your room." The nurse smile but I can say that she is pissed off.

And she hesitates to stand up while eyeing my room once again. After that she smile and wave at me, I wave back at her.

I am sorry, Ja In. I lied.

After 10 minutes she disappeared I pull out the diary under my pillow and hug it tightly. This is so precious; I won't let anyone to take it from me. I found it this morning when she still not come, I wake up too early and I read it. It feels different when finally, I can remember something. But the last entry makes me afraid, what kind of girl she could be to make me frighten.

But when she come and she introduce herself as my friend, I know that she is a kind girl. And I know that I should pretend to not know what she had said to me yesterday. She is a good companion to kill the time.

But it must be hard for her. That she should face someone who hurt her every day and pretending that nothing ever happens. I feel sorry, but what can I do? I am only a man who can't remember anything.

--
"Who are you?" I ask when I found a woman with black long hair sat beside me. I look at my left and found another woman with a strawberry blonde hair who just put the guitar near the table.

I am just finishing reading, reading the book under my pillow when they come. I was expecting Ja In. Could she be Ja in?

"Jungkook, we are your friend." She said patiently and opening something, hell it smells good. "Jin oppa ask me to give it to you." She said while giving me the food. I look at her with a confusion. "He is our friend too." And finally, I smiled to her.

"I am sorry." I murmur softly while starting to take a taste from the bowl. Its tasty.

"Don't be." She responded. I chew on the meat hungrily but then again, I still don't know her name. Their name.

"Name?" I ask her to make her look at the strawberry blonde girl on the sofa, she nodded while smile at me.

"She is Rose." She pointed at the girl. Rose bowed to me.

"Hi Jungkook." She said softly, her voice is something else. I nodded back and focusing on the girl near me.

"And I am Jennie." I nodded and smiled once again toward her. She is so kind, she looks so distance, cold and rude when I look at her in the first place but indeed, she is a warm person. I must be lucky to have such a good friend in the past. If only I can remember. I sigh.

I chew on my meat again while the girls talk about girl stuff and giggled together, something clicked in my head.

Jennie.

I know that name.

The name written on the diary I just read. She is Min Yoongi Hyung's wife. And it means, she is Suji's mother.

Suji, she knows about my barbie.

"Suji." Unconsciously I repeat that name make their conversation stop. And I look up to see how they look at me in horror.

"What?" Jennie noona asked, disbelieve.

"Why don't you bring Suji?" I finally can calm myself even though I am dying to meet Suji. I wanted to know about my barbie. I wanted to know what she looks like. I wanted to know I can't remember anything and anyone, that barbie words stuck in my mind, its imprinted just like someone already engrave that name with a knife inside my head.

"Do you...... remember?" I look at Rose now, she speaks while covering her mouth, her eyes widened. I can see a hope in her eyes, but unfortunately, I don't.

--
"He remembers my daughter's name, doc." I said firmly once I arrived at Doctor Kim Min-Seok's room after the encounter with Jungkook.

He didn't say a thing after Rose ask him that question. As if he hides something.

The doctor looks at me and back into the file on his table, Jungkook's file.

"Jen, please calm down." Yoongi grasping my hand tightly from my left to make me calm down. He can see how Doctor Kim try to find it out too. But I just need an explanation. I don't want to make someone's life more painful than this if Jungkook already remember everything. He can do something dangerous again.

"Mr. And Mrs. Min, just like what we said before when the first time he woke up, there is nothing wrong in his head. Everything look normal and we are still running the research for Mr. Jeon that is why he should be in here even after 7 months of his awoken." The doctor said carefully, once in a while playing with his glasses.

I look at Yoongi oppa and frowning, I am afraid. I am afraid even after all this time we will lose Jungkook again. He could do something stupid just like before. And Soomi always refused to leave Jungkook alone, she is always around. She is even having her own flat beside the hospital to make her easy to watch out Jungkook.

I can still remember clearly how honest her words, wishing Jungkook to die. I can't.

"But one of the nurses said that he had a diary with him. There is a possibility for him to read it. And guessing something."

I knew that. His friend, Ja in gave it to him. But I never seen that diary anymore more than weeks now.

"We are afraid that he will do something stupid again, doc." said Yoongi oppa make me bite my lips. I can't lose someone else again.

"We have security to look after everyone in here, Mr. Min. So, I can assure you to not think about it much." The doctor said with a soft smile.

"Just make sure he always has everyone beside him, so he won't think negatively toward anything." He is right. "And once again..."

It halted my body when I am about to stand up leaving the room, I look at the doctor curious. "Who's barbie?" And none of me or Yoongi oppa can say anything, sensing something off the doctor then smile and nodded in understanding manner.

"If that's not a bad influence toward Mr. Jeon, I assure you to bring it here."

Should we?

--
05 May.
Taehyung hyung come, with Jimin hyung.
They are so fun.
We watch a movie, Finding Dory.
And I found it funny, she just like me.
Can't remember anything.