"Jungkook." he listens carefully, obediently. "Do you... still love Panpriya?" it's been a while since someone call her with that name, and the name itself already brought the feeling he missed the most. He missed everything, his old self, his father, who introduce him to the barbie girl for the first time with a warm smile on his face.

"Perhaps... if you still in love with my daughter...." she hesitated at first, because the younger boy didn't utter a single word to respond, if it's not because of the sound of his breath on the phone she might already think that he hangs up. "Can you come and take her with you?" why so sudden? Why? Is something wrong happen?

"no." Yes. He wanted to agree of her offer but then again, it's like as if his mind don't want to do what his heart want to do. You can't be egoist, Jeon Jungkook. She doesn't want you.

"What?" she asked again afraid that she might hear it wrongly.

"She doesn't want me and leave." Even though I still and will always wanting and loving her, but she doesn't want me anymore. "So, I will appreciate what she chooses."  Even though it killed me, I will support her. "Isn't this what you want mom? Me and her, separated?"

There is no answer could be heard from other line, and he only wish that his choice is right. His choice to try to give up. It's not because he doesn't love her anymore, that's because he loves her too much that he will sacrifice anything for her. Anything. He knows that his heart will never be healed with any other woman's presence in the future, he knows that it will always hurt him, but he vows to himself that he will never forget her, every moment that they spent together, good or bad, he will save them forever as the reminder that once, the cold and playful Jungkook, had lost in his war.

"Indeed, you two have the same stubborn heart." She chuckled dryly. "Jungkook, I know that I hurt her, this is my fault." He suppresses the pain in his chest. "But you are also do the same, and now if you still love him, I wanted you to think about this again."

"Jeon Jungkook, Mino break her legs. I can't understand why she insisted to marry him, still." His chest pounding hardly, he hurt her.  "I will be happy if you change your mind and come here, take her with you, I give you all of my blessing. Two weeks. You have two weeks before it's too late......- son." And then she hung up.

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It's been a week I try to discipline my heart to hear what my mind said. To not stick my nose on other business. It's been a week since my weak heart become weaker and weaker, as if I still have the chance to have her in my arm again. But I am afraid, that it will wreck me even worse. To become the illusion where I will live forever. No, I won't be crazy, I won't be a psycho. I will live, I will cherish everyone last day I had remembered all the memories of her. I won't give up remembering her, I won't forget her.

"So indeed, what good news you have from Mino and Lisa?" I startled when I saw Soomi standing in the entrance of my room. It's his usual visit to my house, at least 2 days in a week she will come and try to incite my mind with hers. It's dark but somehow only by imagine doing such thing toward Mino, my feeling got better. "Does she still alive till now?" I still look her straight into her eyes. Everything she said had happened, she said soon or later, Mino will lay his hand toward Lisa.

"She is fine."

"You are a good liar, Kookie." She said smiling, mocking me. Pointing at my direction. "She is fine, that's how you look incredible now, huh?" she got the point. "If you still insist, I'll go. Bye."

"Soomi!" she looks away already facing the door, but I can sense that she smirks in victory now, I hate this. She looks at me.

"Already?" she said while take a seat beside me on my bed. "Go on." She said after minutes of silence. I take a long and heavy breath; I wish this is not a wrong move.

"Mom called me last week." She stays still on her position, eyes wondering on the drawer where Lisa's child version pictures framed placed. "She said he breaks her legs."

"It's new." I look at her full of curiosity, wondering what she means. "He sure holding his temper well for only breaking her legs."

"Well." She said washing her smile when she looks at my dark emotion. "Have I mention to you that he burns his girlfriend alive and kill the childhood friend who's been cheating with his girlfriend?"

And it's all like the time already stop right in front of my eyes, did I, set her in the next level of misery. But what if he changes. What if he changes to be better just like Soomi. Maybe, Lisa changes him just like how Mingyu change Soomi.

"Stay still while she foolishly trying to exchange her safety with yours. Do your best to make her plan goes smoothly."

"What are you talking, Soomi?" I asked gritting my teeth together.

"Stay still and play your role that she set for you, and let's see. Let's see after how far I told you everything, let's see how much you will suffer the same remorse, twice." She smirked touching my burning chin. "Let's see how you will handle this one, let's see how hard you will convince yourself that it's all not your fault. Jeon Jungkook darling, you know how much I love you right?" I clutch my fist tightly feel the disgust coming back.

"Stop pitying yourself and make everyone think you are suffering because of love." She leans in, lips inch from mine. "Because the feeling you called love that you have in there." She pointed at my chest. "can't be compared with what I feel here." Then he pointed at her chest.

"And if you lost her remember this, clearly, Kookie. She didn't walk away" She then press her lips on mine, pecking it and pulled away, with a smirk that mock me. "You let her go."

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"So, remember this, whatever it is, I love you."

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"I am here. You never walk alone, barbie. I am here."

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"I will fight tooth and nail for you."

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"I love you."

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