1st week.

"What happen to your legs, Panpriya?" ask mom as soon as I landed in Swiss with Mino beside me. He is fidgeting nervously but I manage to smile toward mom and Marco while try to hug them.

I can see how confuse their look; I didn't tell them anything that had happened in Seoul. But I remain to safe it to myself. I don't want mom to be freak out, I can handle everything by myself.

"Car accident." That's the only reason I can gave to my parents, and I sigh in relieved when they buy it. Sorry.

2nd week.

"Don't you think Mino look different, Panpriya?" I shook my head responding of what mom said. "He looks so frightened all the time, I wonder why?" I only smile while watching my little brother on my arm sleeping peacefully.

"Mom, please understand. He must be so stressed about the wedding." And she buy it. Sorry.

3rd week.

"How's your grandfather does?" Marco asked as we gathered on the dining table, sipping my tea calmly try to handle the sudden pain in my heart.

"Fine." I said shortly with no emotion. Mom looked up at me when she senses something off from me. No. Don't. Please.

"I just realize you never play with your phone, Panpriya." Mom asked while playing with my little brother.

"I don't need it anymore." I am afraid, mom. "I guess." I afraid I will not be able to resist myself to not look at his pictures and started to miss him again.

"Is everything okay, Liz?" Marco looks at me carefully.

"Yes." No. Save me Marco.

4th week.

God.

I miss him.

"Are you okay sweetie?" ask Mino's mom when i am spacing out again make the man beside her look at me, concern. I shook my head and gave her that fake sweet smile and take sip of the mochaccino on my table.

"Do you need anything else, Liz?" Mino ask her, he motions to the counter where we can order food, but I shook my head again.

"I am not hungry." I spoke.

"But you've lost weight, sweetheart, I don't think that the dress will fit you perfectly." Protest Mino's mother again make me shift my sitting position on my wheelchair uncomfortably.

"Mom!" Mino warn his mother once he senses the change on my face. That's true though, I lost my weight even though I try to eat well, sleep well to only end up shedding the tears unstoppably. I even wonder how it still flow even tough I stop to eat or drink.

5th week.

I

still miss him.

6th week.

I whined in pain when the doctor changes the bandage, mom insisted to call him to the house instead of us went to the hospital just like usual check up every week.

"I am afraid that it won't heal as fast as you wanted miss Manoban." He said as he checks on my legs carefully. I bit my lips in disappointment and in pain manner.

"Guess, I will be on wheelchair on my wedding day." I smile awkwardly and Doctor Sam look at me in worried.

"Do you perhaps feeling the sharp pain still?" he asks while wrapping my legs again after cleaning it. I nodded. "I will give you pain killer again then, just remember to take it only in the emergency state, okay." I smile at him who's now using his hand as if he lectures 5 yo girl.

"Doc!" I call him when he holds the door handle and look at me with questioned look. "Can the pain killer calm my heart too?"

7th week.

"Doc Sam!" greet Marco when he arrived at home to find Doctor Samuel sat on the chair while his wife make drink for the doctor. They nodded to each other, exchange the smile to each other. "How's Lisa?"

"Get better, but not much." The doctor said shortly and pay the attention to the little baby beside him.

"It took longer time to heal than what we expected." Marco said and held the little boy, kiss him with affection make the doctor smile. "I won't let her drive again."

"Drive?" ask Doctor Sam confused.

"So, she won't have the car accident and make her legs broken again." Marco said explaing his words.

"Pardon?" Doctor Sam asks again now straightened his back.

"The wound, it's from car accident doctor. Guess you knew because you are a doctor." Now Mrs. Manoban came and said in a confused tone in her voice, putting a glass of tea in front of the confuse Doctor.

"I'm sorry if I ruin your supposition but, from what I observe of your daughter legs it's clearly not caused by car accident."

"What?"

"It supposed to be caused by violent action, it has fingerprint when the first time I check on it although it's disappeared now." And everyone being silent.

8th week.

"When will you tell us, Panpriya?" I stunned on my wheelchair while I try to be happily showing mom the tiara that Mino's mother gave to me this afternoon. "Until when you will struggle with that alone, daughter?"

"What are you talking mom?" I ask her innocently, slightly trembling, heart pounding harder in every beat of second. I look at Marco, he only looks at me concern, how, just how they found out?

"When will you stop faking your smile? When will you counted us as a real family of you?" she hissed, gritted her teeth, she is angry.

"I am okay mom." I said heartlessly and put the tiara back on it's box. "I am tired. I need sleep."

"No." I look at her straight on her eyes. "You not only need sleep, but you also need to end this." She said seriously.

"Break up with Mino." I open my mouth, but she continues to talk. "I don't want all of this if he will abuse you."

"Mom!"

"Panpriya, you'll still marry him after what he did to you." she look at my legs and I can only bite my lips. It's not about me mom, it's about him. I have something to be concerned more than myself.

"He did nothing."

"Your legs."

"It's car accident-"

"Let's had check up with x-ray in the hospital then." And her words stop my brain to work to convince her that everything will still be going like what we planned. 2 more weeks. Watching me got silence she then talk again. "I don't want you to marry him anymore, forget about it. Now call him or his parents and tell them that you won't marry him."

"Panpriya!"

"What?" I scream while holding my anger to not explode but I failed. I failed. "What do you want mom? Years ago, you tell me to leave the one I love the most, I agree. And then you tell me to marry Mino, I agree. In the next 2 weeks I will be wife of Mino and you say you don't want it anymore." I said in one breath, feel the aching on my chest got worst and worst. The tears stream down like waterfall, I cried along with my little brother who got startled by my loud voice. I am sorry, brother.

"But he-"

"Can't you let me live my life, let me choose what I wanted to do, this is my life mom." I look down at my laps, pitifully. "I am not a doll."

9th week.

She doesn't talk anymore after that night. Even though her mother keep on convincing her to leave but she will go somewhere. And now, she started to lock her room, not wanting to talk anymore. The relation between Mino's family with her family won't be the same anymore. Her mother will be glad if she can avoid the meeting with Mino or his mother.

"If I let you go with Jungkook, will you agree? " Lisa stay still on her spot but her heart got warm only by the mention of that name. She missed him, unknowingly she smiled thinly recalling the memory of him. His rabbit teeth, his warm brown coffee orb, his smile, his laugh, his voice, his everything.

"Jungkook." She whispered and she didn't know that she can breathe easier after she exhale his name until now.

"At least he won't abuse you." But he will be the one who will be haunted by Mino, her mind whispered at Lisa.

"Leave me mom!" she said turning around her wheelchair and straight to her room again. "Nothing will change." She said as she closes the door.

Click. She locked herself again.

"You will change your mind." Her mother whispered and took out the Lisa's handphone from her pocket, turn it on after 9 weeks turned off by Lisa. She scrolled down the contacts name, and stop on the certain name, certain number. "I wish you will change her mind."

10th week.

"No." I cried after the call I made. I was really wishing Jungkook to give me hope that he can save Lisa.

But he rejects. Doesn't he love my daughter?

"She doesn't want me and leave. So, I will appreciate what she chooses." He said again from the other line. "Isn't this what you want mom? Me and her, separated?" He is right, they are right.

I am the one who cause this. If I simply calming her heart when Jinny gone, she might probably stay with Jungkook, start the family like her friends do. Be the brightest star in the sky. But I did it, I treat her like a doll.

This is my fault so I must be the one who had the punishment. Not my one and only daughter. What have I done?

11th week.

Busy, everyone is busy. I look outside the window to witnessed everyone get ready to give the last touch of the decoration for the night, lavender color of the chair cover along with white ribbon and white tablecloth. Fake Sakura tree with pink which will be turn purple flower on it, and tons of lamp surrounding the roof.

"Perfect." I snapped from my observation of the outdoor wedding place in front of me. "You look so beautiful baby." Said the makeup artist watching her art on my face, satisfied. I smile a little. I look at mom from the mirror, she looks unhappy and halfheartedly holding the tiara on her hand. "Last touch and everything will be perfect, come on give me that expensive and beautiful tiara Mrs. Manoban."

I look at my reflection on the mirror when miss Susan put the tiara on my hair, arrange it perfectly, I smile, bitterly. No, I should be happy. This is Mino's wedding; this is my wedding. But it felt wrong.

"Baby." We look at Marco who's stand in the middle of the door. "It's time to go to the church." He said pointing at his Rolex. This is the time Lisa, be brave, it's only a wedding, what are you afraid? We nodded and mom take my wheelchair helping me to go. She talks nothing, and I feel uncomfortable.

Marco was about to start the engine of the car when someone is knocking the car door. Someone, that I missed the most.

What are you Jungkook? Why did you still stand there eyeing me like a puppy who don't want to be discarded, why can't you just give up and erase me?

I fought 11 weeks for nothing. I feel the pain of the weeks for nothing, I supposed to be okay, I supposed to forget you if you never show off.

Now I should hurt you again. Now I should break your heart again. Now, I should make you capable to be alive, without me.

"Barbie." He doesn't know how to give up, right?

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NB : It will be a the end of step siblings' series very soon. Sorry if I took longer time to update. I need to find the best mood for the closing part to be written.