The weather feels so good. The sunshine brightly, the wind blow gently touching their skin warmly, the blue sky promising them the better day, and the bird chirping happily on the trees around the park mansion where they held their usual barbeque. Park Roseanne smile happily watching her husband preparing the table, once in a while he will smile lovingly to her. And it calms her, their life is perfect, lovely couple with her 4 months pregnancy. She could join their barbeque after she get over her morning sickness, she can't even smell anything, or she will throw up right here right there.

Now on, she can't wait for the little baby to deliver into this beautiful world, she can't wait for the small kick that the babies will give her just like what Jisoo's baby did. Jisoo, in her 8 months pregnancy had the hard time to move, but she don't need to be worried, her husband, Kim Taehyung always be right there beside her to save her. He adores her, showing her with all his love, being a child lover, he become sweeter toward her wanting the baby and the mommy always be healthy.

Jennie, being Jennie. Happy to see her family get better day by day. At first, she can't help but being suspicious toward her husband, Min Yoongi. As if he can always lie to her, but day by day she can see it with her eyes, feel it with her heart that he does the best for her and her family. She talks with Soomi, they both have a better relationship now. Soomi will be married in 5 months, and she changes. Jennie felt so happy, indeed, but the view in front of her sometimes break her heart. Watching the little Suji sat on the bench with the gloomy Jungkook.

"Jungkook oppa!" the man snapped his head, forced to come back to reality, the bitter one. Suji tugging his sleeves, want to make sure that her uncle gave his full attention to her and flash him her gummy smile and the man caressing her hair, bring the thin smile that she missed from him. The man only humming responding to her call make the little girl move her body closer to him.

"When will barbie come back?" the little girl innocently uttering the words which is giving the man thousands knife stabbed on his heart, mercilessly. He tried to be strong, he tried to look calm in front of everyone once the mention of her can be heard, he thought he will get used to it, but no. He will never be ready to open the scar in his heart. The smiles slowly making its way leaving the man's face while he confusedly thinking about what to say to the little girl, that the barbie will never come back, she will never come.

"She..." he stuttered holding his voice which can be cracking anytime only to be interrupted by Suji, boringly as if she is sick with the same answer.

"She went to the better place." She said looking straight to his eyes. "You will give me the same answer just like mom and dad and uncles and aunties gave me?" she asked with the sadness, which is visible in her eyes, the same glint that he has on his.

Better place?

Right, better place. He thought slowly nodding his head. May be Jennie is right, his barbie already tired to face the needy and useless Jungkook and went to a better place. A better place which is mean, anywhere without him in it.

"You will be going to lied just like them." Her words seem harsh by mentioning that Suji is only a toddler. He opened his mouth to answer but then someone calling her name make both of them snapped their head to the side where the voice come.

"Suji-ah." It's Yoongi, he waves toward her asking her to go to him happily. The little girl nodded and stood up, reaching his body to give her favorite uncle warm hug and quick peck on his cheeks before saying those words.

"I beg you oppa, bring barbie back." With that she leaves while running happily hug the silver haired yoongi in front of her. He could only stay like that for good 5 minutes, looking into the infinity, thinking about what Suji asked.

It's been 2 months already, it's been 9 fucking long and hard weeks, the hardest weeks he ever experiences in his life. Staying the night, sleepless with the mind full of thought of her and her. He tries it, he tries to forget everything, he is tired already, tired toward his heart, it's too hard for him to handle.

He tried to socialize with his friends, but he can't erase her. He tried to be normal. Which is mean wake up in the morning, showing his skinny and messy figure in front of his family which is responded with a sad and long sigh from everyone there. He is sick of the lectures Namjoon and Jin gave to him, or the look of grandpa and his father gave to him.

He lost more than 10 kilos in 2 months, his skull nearly rips his skin, the bag under his eyes is visible make everyone concern about him. He can think about anything but her, and it killed him. He doesn't care anymore toward anything or anyone, his father once tells him that he will be arranged with one of his father's friend daughters, and he only could nod. He attends the dinner and saw that warm smile woman, with a warm heart. IU, that is her name.

Her attitude and her soft inner beauty make him flutter for a while. It brings sparks to him; make he hopes that perhaps she will be able to bring the old once bright Jungkook back. He is happy, that's what he thought until their lips meet, and his heart sink deep down to the ground.

She won't be replaced, tell his heart.

He was there, with IU who's hug him tightly. He begs for her forgiveness, that he can't give her the same amount of feeling that she deserved. He tied his soul long ago with her, that heartless barbie, with Lisa.

"Psst.." he jolted when he feels the presence beside him, his hyung, Taehyung with Jimin behind him. They smiled to him, but he reminds showing them his poker face.

"What?" he asked while the two of his Hyung's looking around, checking as if they are afraid to be red handed doing something bad. Not long after that he took out one red paper from his shirt and handed it to Jungkook. He is confused but Taehyung quickly shoving the red paper into Jungkook's shirt, to make it save. "What are you..."

"Shut up for now! I don't want to die before I see my own child." Taehyung is cursing under his breath and smile when he sees Jisoo eyeing them carefully, he waves and gave her flying kiss make the woman blush.

"Now go home and read it by yourself and remember one thing." He pointed his index finger in front of Jungkook. "I didn't give you anything today, that paper given by no one." He said before leaving the confuse Jungkook and bickering with Jimin on their way to their wife.

"I swear if someone find out that we gave it to him, I'll kill you Kim Taehyung" Jungkook heard Jimin's voice as he stands up and watching them. Felt the hard paper inside his shirt, what it could be?

"They won't find out."

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12 .05 a.m, he looks at the clock on the drawer beside his bed, counting the time second by second as he knew that he would stay the night without a single sleep again. His chest aches, lack of sleep, tired, but he can never bring himself to sleep. He consumes sleeping pill before but when he collapses from the overdose one-night Yeri made sure there will be no single medicine inside his room anymore.

Ring....

One ring from his handphone make he shifted his eyes to the light of his phone. Who will call him in the middle of the night? It must be a prank.

Ring....

The second ring, maybe it was Tae-Hyung or Jimin who's probably curious about the respond from the paper they gave to him. But he doesn't want to talk about that paper now.

Ring....

The last ring, when he approaches the phone on the drawer and sees the unsaved number, from abroad on his screen phone. Who it could be?

Is it her?

The sudden thought makes his adrenaline awake, he could hear his pounding heart getting harder and harder as he stares at the number blankly. But before he could swap the screen to answer, the screen goes off.

Click...

No, it couldn't be her. She will never come back. He thought. But what if it was her? He had war inside his mind, when his phone once again ring, with the same number showed. Taking a deep breath he swaps the screen, closing his eyes, clenching his chest with his free hand, he answers.

"Hello, Jungkook." It was a familiar voice, the voice that he will never expect to be heard from another line. "Jungkook, do you hear me?" she said again after long silence. He felt disappointed and thrilled at the same time when his voice come out as a whisper.

"Mom.."