"You hurt them, unnie. You hurt the one you love and loving you back unconditionally." I try my best to keep my head cool and not pressuring her. Because I know that she must feel disappointed to everyone, to her perfect family, to us, to me. But it doesn't mean that she could be heartless, we do this for the sake of their goodness.

"You always talk about other pain, but what about mine and yours?" she said with the sadness almost visible in her voice. I hurt her. I am sorry unnie.

"I know that must be hard for you."

"No, you don't." She cut off my words while looking straight into my eyes, tears almost falling down, her lips trembling. "You leave me." I looked away, watching the pictures of the young us hung on the wall of the VIP room of Jin's cafe. He dedicated the room for us, where the story hung on the wall from pictures to other pictures. "You only save yourself from this misery, how could you know the feeling of being fooled and trapped around people who knows everything about your past."

"But don't you feel happy?" I ask her still watching the pictures of the four of us, smiling innocently, the first picture we took when I made friend with them. We look so perfect, everyone would think that we will end up with good family, happy. But here we are, doomed.

"I was feeling happy, I wonder how I could have the perfect life with a perfect husband, perfect friends, and perfect daughter." She said chokes at the end of her words. "But I was wrong, Soomi was right, perfect and happiness only exist in a fairy tale."

"My heartbeat beats faster seeing them, the butterflies never left my chest and my stomach. I think that I fall in love every day to that man. But now after I realize what had happen to me, this heart, I can't even tell my heart is still beating or not." I feel the same pain when her tears fall, she rarely cries, she was a strong woman, she always been the knight for the three of us, emotionless as if nothing can affect her heart. But look at her now.

"Nothing is perfect, unnie. But of course, you can always choose." I tell her reaching her warm hand for me to kiss. "I can't force you to choose over them or else, but one thing that I can tell you. You are doing great. No, I will never leave you, I never left you."

"I went to go through the hell, I was fragile and weak. I can't let you through the same hell, it's already enough." She touches my hands back, watching me pathetically as if she wanted me to give her assurance, but I can do nothing. I can't help. I have no power. Me myself already broken. How could I help her.

"I wonder if I remember everything that time when I woke up, when will everything change?" she asks but I can't give her an answer.

"I don't know unnie, but can't you see how you bring happiness toward people around you with your loss of memories?" or maybe I can tell her the way we change to be better because of her. "Jisoo unnie was so afraid to start a relationship, but to see you so brave saying yes in the altar she finally could feel that feeling. And the sorrowful Jimin oppa, watching you finally settle down with the one you love, the load on his shoulder being lifted and he try to make a beautiful family with Rose."

"You might don't know how cold Yoongi oppa was but look what you make him turn to be. The warmest man and father I've ever seen."

"But he lied, Lisa. He lied to me." God why is she so stubborn.

"I know it's not good at the end, but it's not even his choice that you lost your memories. He was there beside you, beside your bed, praying to the god he never believes in, for you to wake up. To be happy."

"But-"

"Besides, doctor said that if we force you to remember everything it might put you in another danger of brain damages."

"And then what about Sewon? What about Jinny? Will we let everything just pass by like that?" she asked now with the anger that is suddenly appear make me afraid. "He lied, he still lied for his little sister, and you let him."

"So, what should I do unnie? You love him, and you still love him even though his sister kills Sewon, that's why you let him go that time. And what you expect me to do after Jinny been killed? To sue him and his sister?" I asked him seriously, looking through her eyes. "You love him unnie, that's why I let them be, I should protect him for you. For you who was not even remembering me."

"I was so angry to see you, smiling next to him when in fact Jinny was gone, alone. But as the time flies, I understand it. That punishing Yoongi oppa is not the way to make Jinny happy. It won't make Jinny back; it won't bring her back." I sigh deeply as I unlocked our finger and straightened my back, not even sure if this will help Yoongi oppa and Suji or not, but at least I try.

"I want to choose to lose my memories too, living happily with, may be Jungkook. Having one or two babies around us, just like you. But I was a coward, I left. And now I stand here, not knowing how to be happy while you already had that chance. If I were you unnie, I won't throw them away. Just don't choose what I had choose."

--

"So, is it the time?" he asked me unsure looking at me who is now hesitant approaching him. I bit my lips, praying for him to understand.

"Let's talk first." He furrowed his eyebrows and reaching my hand when I close enough and make me sit on his laps. Hugging and sniffing me like a big bear he is, somehow make me feel dirty. His eyes looks so innocence, just like a little kid. How can I hurt him.

"I miss you, Liz. Can't we just stay like this for a while before you talk?" not responding his question, I completely let him hide his face on my neck. Gripping my hips tightly, as if it will rip in no time. If I was the old me where i only live with him, I will definitely forget everything around and just enjoying the feeling, feel satisfied. But everything had changes, I change. The moment Mino touch me, I can only feel how good it will be if only it's Jungkook.

Being the great sinner I am, I think I feel so numb now. I wanted to be happy too. And after the wedding, and after the fortune teller tell me about the twin, I think there is nothing I wanted more than being happy with Jungkook. Every dream about my life now is gone, it's totally about Jungkook and Jungkook only. Jungkook what had you done to me?

"Start it!" suddenly Mino talked make me startled, gulping in nervousness I grab all the courage I have.

"Won't you set me free?"

--

"Sleep baby sleep."

"No."

"Why? Don't you feel tired?"

"I do."

"So why?"

"I do. But how can I sleep when I am afraid?"

"About?"

"You will leave me. And even though you tell me that you won't, I just know that you will leave me again."

"Don't you trust me?"

"I don't know."

"Just sleep, close your eyes. And I will try to be there when you wake up."

"You won't fool me again, right?"

"I promise to be there, Jeon Jungkook."

Sorry.