It was tensed, having breakfast in silence, while Jungkook and Uncle Jung-Hyun starring at each other, auntie Irene and Yeri could only sit straighten their back full of anticipation. Pretty strong for Jungkook to stay awake when he is still in his hang over state.

"I will go first." Then uncle Jung-Hyun breaking the ice while whipping his mouth with the napkin while looking at me, who munch my bacon unmotivated. I nodded slightly and then watching auntie Irene get up from her seat to send Uncle Jung-Hyun to the door.

"Then, I should check on grandpa, yeah." With a forced smile Yeri excuse herself too before walking hurriedly toward grandpa's bedroom leaving me and Jungkook on the table. Placing the fork on my plate, I was about to leave too since I have meeting with Taehyung and Namjoon oppa in 2 hours, pushing the seat to the back with my back I was startled when Jungkook's voice bring me to seat back.

"Why would you bring me into this hell?" he said lazily, scratching his hair make it a mess.

"This is your house." He chuckled lightly mocking me with his you must be kidding me look. "And grandpa need your help. Jeon Jungkook, can you please act like your age, will you?"

"You are also same with them." I frown at his remark, not understand. "You only bring me back for some help and then kicking me out when it all done, classic."

"For this time, I swear Uncle Jung-Hyun will not kicking you. Can you just face everything positively?" I talk in one breath, my voice sound so desperate toward the too innocent boy in front of me, holding tight onto my patient I pray to God to not touching the sensitive side of his heart. Or it will ruin everything, he will run away from home again. Make everything complicated. "You play too much, with girls. And you just not respecting him as your daddy, bringing the girl to the house talking dirty in front of us, and you just cursing toward your stepmother." He only snorted to my words.

"You jealous?"

"Stop it, Jeon Jungkook." I snapped on him which is happen erasing his smirk in an instant. "I don't even care if you fuck girl in front of me just now, but, again, use your brain and your heart, this is parents and your behavior what makes me angry."

"Stop act care, stop that. Because we all know you never care to anyone." I only could look at his eyes, wanting to bring the Satan out from his body, he is not Jungkook whom I knew. "Your heart just as cold as your skin, like your fucking sweet lips."

"And there is no one wanted me, truly wanted me. They just wanted the perfect Jeon Jungkook to do his best job, taking advantage about him. And fuck off with parents' thing because he just doesn't care." He bluntly saying that words raising his voice bit more. I can only sigh at his stubbornness.

"Just tell me what's the advantage of you playing with the girls? At least staying with only one of them. You just make you lose my respect toward you." I tell him. "And no, he is really care, you never know that because you were too blind by your ego. Wake up Jungkook, you are not 17 anymore. Your time is over to act like this."

"You wanted to know what I could taste with some random chicks underneath me moaning my name?" he is smirking now. I hate this kind of situation. I don't want to imagine how he always fuck other people heartlessly. "I want to taste you in them. I try and try to find from one to another, I can't find it yet, so I will keep my treasure."

"Wh-"

"I want to replace you with, at least the one who can give me the same feeling as you. You want me to unlove you right?" Damn it. Why should he bring it up here right now. "I try, I try Lisa. Because as much as I hate to touch stranger every night, I wanted to taste the freedom you taste now, I wanted to move on just the way you did so easily." It's not easy Jungkook. Believe me. "I wonder how it would taste."

The silences again, with me locking his eyes with mine, there is no words come between us. Only like this, only this way, breaking the hearts I've trying so bad to heal. Something weighting my chest every time he acts like he can't have someone else except me, little monster who only could hurt him. I love him, and he loves me. But it's not enough. There was Soomi who need him more, there was also mom who hate him to the bone, I feel bad to rip both of our heart to save other people. But this is life, right? And plus, there was Mino now. One more to protect.

"I killed him." I look at him confused. "I killed the man, who used to be me."

--

"I hate when you zone out." He complains to me as he slurps his americano in front of my table. After what happened this morning, I practically cannot concentrate on everything, I canceled the meeting with Taehyung and Namjoon oppa and only walk straight to my office room, cooling my mind when Mino text me to meet him in the cafe. "It's like I've lost you."

"Sorry, too many things to think." I do not lie, too many things, including Jungkook.

"Drink your juice, the ice is melting, it won't taste good." He said while pushing my juice toward me, I take it and drink it lazily. "Mom call me just this morning, she said she wanted to show us the gown for the wedding to you." I look at him disbelieve, she can always take the picture and send it to us, but of course I didn't say that it's so rude to say that to your soon to be your mother-in-law right.

"Well..." I look at my phone to check my schedule that Tzuyu wrote for me, yeah, I keep Tzuyu as my assistant even after Jungkook left. She is pretty good, and neat, and maybe, maybe she can help Jungkook to change. I look at the schedule, and it's packed as hell. I bit my lips thinking if I can rearrange it once again.

"I need help from my assistant to re arrange the schedule, and after that I will tell you when I come." After a while struggling with the schedule, I gave up and put the phone on the table. He smiles at while tapping my bangs carefully.

"Thank you, and I am sorry to make you should do extra work for it. You know my mom; I can't say no to her." He said still smiling ear to ear. "She need to make sure the size still fit you."

"I didn't gain weight tough and yes Mr., I cannot just act like I don't care about our wedding." I smile back at him. "Mom and your mother already put their effort for all of the things while me still trying to make the situation of my dad's family got better."

"I know, that's why I thank you Miss. Even after you met him, you still..." his words stop immediately when he come with the issue of my past. He seems aware that is not a good time to talk it, since I constantly erase the smile on my face. He sighed and then put his hand on mine, caressing it softly. "I am sorry." He said softly.

--

"No, you can't just-" I was reading the report from the manager when the front door suddenly opened roughly showing the regret Tzuyu with the stubborn poker face Soomi beside her. "I am sorry Miss Jeon, this lady wanted to meet you and.." she motion his hand toward Soomi. I nodded toward Tzuyu and ask her to go to her table outside my office. And then Soomi came toward my direction, taking the seat in front of me.

"You need to inform me first, Soomi." I tell her. "What bring you here? Are you with Yoongi oppa?" she shook her head make me rose my brow, it's new, she with no one with her.

"Break up with your fiancé." She said shortly even without an intro. I chuckled dryly toward her, I know she seems hating Mino so much, but this one is too much.

"Why?" I ask her. She then looks around as if she makes sure that no one was here. I don't know why she acted like this; she looks so scared. I ask Mino once about the relation of him with Soomi but he only said that it was a secret. "Gave me good reason to do so, so I can think it first."

"He is not better than me." She tells me with her serious look. "He is worse than me." My smile disappears a little when I see how pale she is now. "He killed his own girlfriend." So, she knew him and his life story. "Yoongi oppa don't allow me to say this to you. Do you know why he know Jennie right?" I shook my head weakly, I don't know why my heart beating so fast now, did I scare too? To what? "He is with me, in the asylum."

"Okay, so you all know each other. And yes, I already know that he is once had that period, he told me about his girlfriend. But he changes now, he is not like that anymore. Just like you, he is getting better now." I tell her, or more than to myself. Why did I even flinch when I heard her story. Everyone had their past right, it's not like I was a saint too.

"No no no.. The one like me and him will never change, it will never disappear. It's the part of our self. Nothing can change us fully. Look at me, I am still me." She said now look not so calm anymore. He took out something from her handbag, the knife. "I am still bringing this one, I am still having the thought to kill you, to kill anyone who would take Jungkook from me."

"My god Soomi, relax, okay." I tell her, holding the knife and take it from her hand. She is sobbing hard make me run circling my table to reach her and hug her. "No, you better than that, you are a better Soomi now." I tell her again patting her back.

"Please believe me, you need to stay away from him."

"But I wanted to protect him, just like how Jungkook did. Finally, I can feel what he feels toward you, the constant feeling, the needed to protect someone." I took away her from my hug and looking at her eyes. "And I am strong enough, I won't let him hurt me the way he did to his girlfriend."

"Stupid, why can't you understand. Jinny just dead because she wanted to make Jungkook stop his act, not to make you do the same as him. You bitch better thinking about both of your happiness first." She spat on me beating my chest lightly, anger is still there inside her but she just doesn't want to hurt me. She just wants me to know how desperate she is.

"Do you know what will happen if I stay away from Mino right?" and then she looked at me eyes wide open. I nodded. "Yes, I will still end up fighting you or Mino. So, it will be the same anyway."

"But-"

"No but Soomi, and thank you for your caring. Believe me or not, Song Mino that I know is the one who won't ever think to lay his hand to hurt me, he never did it." I put both of my hand on her shoulder while lecturing her with my words. She needs to know that I am capable to protect myself. "And then. please make Jungkook happy for me." I smile at her genuinely. Hugging her once again I let her go.

After minutes of silences finally she excuses herself to go home, she said she run away from Yoongi oppa when the light is red. I could only think how worried Yoongi oppa just now. Waving my hand to her while smiling brightly, sending her until the elevator. The door slightly almost closed when she uses her hand to make it open again make me confuse.

"Lisa-yah."

"Hmm?"

"Do you love Mino?" I was surprised to hear it, no one ever asking me that before, it took a while for me to find the answer, but nothing ever come out from my mouth. She then smiles at me in triumph. "Maybe you not."

"And Lisa." I rose my brows again as she pressed the button on the elevator once again, before the door closed, before she disappears, she smiles like a devil leaving me breathless and weak.

"Did he also told you that he killed someone in the asylum too?"

--

From: Unknown

Try to approach my fiancée with your bullshit again,

Later you will find out who's next would die.

--

"Jungkook oppa, why that uncles must killing their friend?" I startled and immediately turn off the tv when the news come up showing some mans in mask, with the handcuff on the tv. I look at the girl who's now frowning toward me and then facing the lazy Jungkook on the sofa.

"Their friend must be the annoyance one." He beams while looking back at Suji. She is frowning while looking at me, but I only shrugging my shoulder.

"But you oppa not killing Tae uncle even though he is so annoying." He chuckled along with me to hear how blunt my little princess could be. She is so adorable, the time when Jennie giving birth of her is the time when my world feels complete. Pretty, brilliant and adorable, that's what the description I always talk to everyone every time they ask me what's my daughter look alike. And it won't ever change.

"That's because I am a good man." He said while messing up Suji's hair. He is my daughter's god father; I know that she likes him and forever will like him. The time she cried she will immediately calm when Jungkook is around, and now even when Tae show her more affection than Jungkook, she will always be choosing over Jungkook again and again.

"How to kill people? Isn't it scary? With blood, and things." She asked him to make both of us got silences.

"Who tell you that?" I ask her to break the silence, and she look at me.

"Soomi auntie." She said innocently. "She said the knife could kill people, that's why I should stay away from it. And poison too, she asks me to smell everything I will drink to know if poison was there."

"That woman." I said clenching my jaw, but Jungkook send me a sign to calm down, Suji is in here.

"Wanting to know the way to kill someone easier?" she nodded when Jungkook watching her, what's with the man. He then holds my Suji's hand. "Hold their hand and never touch their skin again, see them nearly and pretend they don't exist, act like everything you ever said to them was a lie."

He smiles, but it never reaches his eyes. I know how miserable his heart is, I know how much he loves her. I know just how much she loves him too. But she could only think negatively toward everything. Blaming their self for what had happened, all the lost that happened, she practically punish herself, feeling too low to even have him as hers after what had happened.

And here I am, Min Yoongi, live happily lying to Kim Jennie, who's now become Min Jennie, stealing the happiness from Lisa and Jungkook. Can't even say sorry to them. So dirty, but what can I do? Now I am living with fear every night. Praying that my life will stay still like this, with the forgotten memories of Jennie, with her smile when she looks at me and our little princess Min Suji.

"Who kill you, Jungkook oppa?"

--

"Yoongi oppa."

"Huh?"

"I dream last night."

"Was it the bad one?"

"Yeah."

"About what?"

"You."

"What's bad about me?"

"You.....lied."