"My granddaughter made it with her own hand." Said grandpa proudly pointing at the food Yeri made as his eyes smiling to Hong Jong-Hyun who's sat across to him, nervous, but he gives his smile to grandpa.

"It tastes really good, Grandpa Jeon." He answered before met my eyes, I was chocked on my meal when our stare meets and immediately reaching for the glass of water beside me.

"Have a nice meal, huh." Then Jungkook who's sat beside me find it funny to tease me in this state of situation. Can I just escape from this awkward dinner, because one, Yeri was the one who should be the center of the attention, and two, I will have a bad mark to Yeri as his crush keeping his stare on me since he came.

"Spicy." I tell him while taking another gulp while looking straight to Jungkook, fixing my attention to him who's now flashing his bunny smile to me, happily. I know he is been craving the attention from me since the night I argued with Jennie. I constantly leaving Jennie's house as the fire in me burning the patient I had been trying to hold on, leaving Jungkook behind.

He was questioning what had happen between the two of us but I never told him the story. I always found the way to escape and it take all of my patient to make him shut up.Not to mention how his face look so done when Hong Jonghyun came to the house with two buckets of flower, for Jeon's grand daughter he addressed, grandpa inviting him to eat the dinner with us.

"Stop eating then." He console me rubbing the tears away from my eyes. It did hurt my throat as the spicy food choke me.

"You two look so close to each other." I could see how Jungkook's eyes rolled so fast to the man who talk to him and then faking his smile to the man. Nodding his head repeatedly then looking at me once again. "Too close for siblings." I fix my stare at Hong Jong-Hyun as I feel the uncomfortable atmosphere surrounding us, this won't going to be okay if Jungkook eat the bait.

"Thanks, you to notice that, because we are really more than siblings in here." I notice how annoying Jungkook's tone when he answered Jong-Hyun with such a devil smirk on his face. I clear my throat as I watch over grandpa who keep silence watching the two-man arguing in front of him, when we have dinner. And I saw how Yeri try to not let her emotion taking over herself. I look at her in concern, trying to tell her to be strong and assure her that everything will be okay, even though I am not sure enough about that.

But someone should make it clear, I don't want Jungkook to fight another man for only a woman in front of this family dinner, but I just can't help wanting Hong Jonghyun to stop chase me. It clearly said that this is Yeri who made the food since I came late to the house, right after he came. But he keep starring on me as grandpa talk about the one who made the meal.

"What?" he ask curious placing his forks on his plate as his uni brows wrinkled looking at Jungkook. And the man in front of him who's still using his smirk all over his face just snorting on him.

"Are you deaf?"

"Jeon Jungkook." Then grandpa starting his spoke when he thought Jungkook already crossing the line too far. But the hot blood mans in here just doing staring contest to each other.

"Keep that eyes on woman beside you, because the woman right here, already taken." My heart flustered when I look at how bold he states whats his. And strangely I feel happy toward his bluntness tonight, I need more blunt Jungkook. More. I was too flustered when he stand up reaching my arm as he look at Yeri.

"Yeri, please understand Lisa can't take the taste given by the meal and the atmosphere. We'll leave for good."

--

"He is so greedy." I muttered as we walk on the side of Han river at this late of the night. The fresh wind slapping my face make my anger cool down a little. "Yeri was right there beside him while he droll over you, god, how I wish grandpa wasn't there so I should not have to resist my will to chopped his eyes with the fork."

"Remind me of someone I know." She said shortly make me bit my lips as I understand what she mean. It's me. The greedy Jungkook.

"I'll choose over you, again and again." I am about to take her hand for the light kiss but she simply pick up her hand as if she doesn't want the touch from me.

"Stubbornly, confidently."

"Of course I am confident, I love you, and you love me."

"But it doesn't mean I won't stay still if you keep playing this game Jungkook." I look at her stop my track in front of her, watching as the wind mess up with her orange hair make she looks like the goddess falling from the heaven. Such a beautiful creature. Mine.

"You won't leave." I mumble more than to myself. You won't leave me barbie, not again. Because once you try it, I'd rather die than experience the same sorrow as before.

"I wish."

"What do you mean?" I can see the hesitation in her eyes as she move a little closer to reach my arm, this feels so wrong.

"I can't stay forever in here." No. Don't. Please stop. "I promise mom to come back home no matter what happen. No problem. No Jeon Jungkook."

"So what are you doing till now to me? What are you trying to do? Breaking me over and over?" I yank her hand as I felt something hurting my heart deep down inside my chest. "This is how you punish me right? This is how you play me. I swear to you I'll change, please give me more time."

"That is Jungkook." She said cutting off my anger halfway. "You'll keep doing the same thing, digging the hole for me to fall, just because you know I can always give you more time. That is. And I know that I shouldn't let you do that."

"So, what's the point of this thing?" I show her the finger of mine which the couple ring we had placed, I glance at hers, and it was there. "What's the point you make me fly to nine cloud if you will gonna fucking leave me."

"She needs you. And you can't leave her." I am mentally palming my face as the same topic brought up again. I did try to stay away from Soomi, I just can't let her through all this terrible thing alone. She is my friend. She is what Sewon leave for me to take care for.

"But I love you."

"You can't keep lion and sheep in one room."

"No, please. We can go through over this. Please hold on." I plea on her as I hug her, sniffing her scent, still the same addicting scent she had since the first time we met. Lavender. "A little longer, barbie. Please."

I can't believe that I will be this pathetic toward woman, for everyone to know I am the Jeon Jungkook, the international playboy who can have 3 to 5 girls in one room. Changing partner as easy as I change my clothes. But why, why the one I need keep push me over and over, try to dump me over and over.

"Found me after you found yourself." She then speak from my embrace, feeling the cold metal sliding on my finger, the first tear make its way to my cheeks. "Sorry." She then make me let go of her after he put on her ring on my finger back. "Step brother."

--

"You need to stop maknae." I hissed on the comment as I take back my jack's bottle from his hand. "Let's go home, it's getting late."

"Home?"I questioned while chuckling. "What kind of home you said huh?" desperately I place the bottle of Jack on the bartender table as I face him, looking at me worried. "The two warm arm embrace you, or the little cute one jump to you with a smile on her face?" I smile again, this one weakly, because I have no motivation to live, this life is a joke for me.

I was thinking that everything will be perfect, that I will have my own little family sooner later. But then bam.... she throw granat on the ground, make everything fallen. My barbie, just not wanting me.

"I don't have home." I speak to myself softly. "How can I have home if you and Min Jisoo keep burning what I have. Tell me how, Min Yoongi!"

--

"I didn't do it for you, I do it for the sake of Jennie unnie."

"What do you mean, Lisa?"

"I'll disappear.... Min Yoongi, I'll go if my existence scared you."

--

"Hello, mom."

"Hello, oh I nearly forget that I have daughter."

"Haha funny."

"What's up?"

"I have good and bad news."

"Okay, what's the good one?"

"I'll be back."

"Oh really, I am really happy. But what the bad one?"

"....."

"Panpriya!"

"The bad one is...

I'll be back."