Do you know that Jungkook came to our house every day to see Soomi?

Sure, I know. Sure. From the way he is rejecting eye contact as we met after he came, always after the dinner finished, make Yeri sulking toward him asking him to be more caring toward family matter. But I let it go, besides, what can I do. It is Soomi we talk about, her root and thorn for everyone knows already planted inside Jungkook's heart.

I could only smile at him every midnight he came to my room trying to not make any noise, sleeping right beside me, hug me who's chosen to stay still, to faking my sleep. I know that was hard for him to choose after me and Soomi, he is only trying to be kind, I only don't know who he was pitied the most. Soomi or me. I let him go like that for the past first week, not after what Yeri did just today.

I still remember how she hold that stick selfie, recording us, asking about what I am doing with the luggage across the table of my room. I was trying to find the recipe of my mom's vitamin which is left in my bag, but she simply making it sound like I will go somewhere. I only shake my head when she blinking her eyes make a sign to just take over her prologue drama.

I am not really sure what she try to do, not after I heard loud bang from the garden in front of the house. I look up from the food I make in the kitchen, grandpa who's sat across the table in the dining room also startled and try to found out what had happened. Just one minute later he come with such a messy hair, worried plastered all over his face when he rushed up stair not even giving grandpa answer for his question.

I look up and then suddenly Yeri patting my shoulder from behind which make me look at her.

"Look what thing you could always do to save Jungkook oppa from that psycho." I was about to open my mouth when I heard loud bang again from up stair, he probably break the door.

"Barbie." Then he shout as he followed run down stair making his way to grandpa. "Grandpa, where is Lisa? Why are you letting her go?"

"What do you mean young man?" grandpa ask him confused as Jungkook with his uncontrollably breath raised. Not satisfied with the answer he then motioning himself to run outside but I just realized what will happen if I let him do so. He probably will got in accident driving in that state of emotion. So I call his name and that's instantly make him stop. Slowly looking backward to the kitchen where I was, his eyes slowly softened.

"Jungkook." I witnessed so many scene of his youth and emotional state, but today I learn something new, I witnessed something new. As his slow phase taking over his body brought him to me, finally on his last step to finally reach my spot his feet giving up. Slowly collapse on his knees he held his chest with the two of his hand. Watching him sighing deeply I learn that how much his hand shaking uncontrollably while his eyes still fixing on me.

"There you are." His voice come as a soft whispered that if I am not close enough to him I won't notice that he is speaking. "There you are Barbie." And there come his bitter smile as the tears come like a fallen rain from his eyes.

I can't process it, how could he look so fragile yet beautiful in the same way. Slowly I take one step and sat in front of him, bringing his shaky body into my hug. Tapping the back of his head I am humming try to make him sober. I look at grandpa, asking his permission to act this way in front of him earning his nod and smile at the same time, and then he motions Yeri to following him out of the room leaving only two of us. Me babysitting Jeon Jungkook.

"I am sorry. I lied. I met her. But if you don't like it, I will stop seeing her." He said in the middle of his tears. "Please don't go. Please don't leave me." If I said that it's okay that he met her, I must have gone crazy, sure I am jealous. Sure I am greedy enough to want him all for me only. But, this is who Jungkook is. This is who the man I love is. Strong and also weak in the same time.

He think himself as a superman who can save everyone from pain, yet he doesn't know for every piece heart of Soomi he glued on, that was also the amount of my heart pieces he breaks.

"I will not asking you to do what you should do." I take his face by his sharp jaw, making him to look at me. To see how he tears up like this indeed also breaking my heart, I can't even think of what's the best, to leave or stay, because both of them will break my heart. "But one thing Jungkook." I sternly warn him while wiping the tears on his face.

"You are not superman."

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"Barbie, do you want milk?" I shake my head while smiling at Suji who's now showing me her milk bottle to me. Her mother is watching us from the kitchen counter, and I know sometime the mother also checking the room beside us where Soomi and Jungkook are.

He come home in time in 2 days straight, we were so happy to have him with us for dinner but I can see how he zoned out. He must be so worried about Soomi, and I can't help but offering him to go to Jennie unnie's house together today to visit Soomi. I wasn't in the mood to face her, and I also can said that Soomi also have the mutual feelings with me, so I don't even waste my time to greet her and simply letting Jungkook walk to her room beside the dining room where I play with Suji.

"No Suji, I don't like milk. Can you give me plain water instead?" I ask her make her gloomy face light up again then she jump lightly running toward her mother.

"Mommy, Barbie wanted plain water. Please, give me now." Chuckled at how cute her daughter she then give her one bottle of mineral water and I happily take it from Suji.

"Thank you, Suji." I pat her head and then taking her to my lap as I drink the water. "Jennie unnie, where is Yoongi oppa?" I try to distract her because she is been too focus watching the scene on the other side of my spot. Looking at me hesitantly she approaches me, sitting beside me but still turning her body halfway so she can take a peek.

"He has schedule for the recording of your family's label band." She said softly. I touch her hand and giving her a look.

"Just let them take their time."

"I can't understand you." now she is frowning totally facing me, granted my wish to leave Jungkook and Soomi with whatever they talk and do inside her room. I give her my what look make she sight. "I only had an amnesia, but I am not blind. You and Jungkook, have something ever since the first time you show off in front of us."

"We are---"

"Don't fucking talk to me about step brother and step sister relationship, because that was bullshit." She then spat the fire in front of her own daughter while me, covering both of Suji's ears with my hands glaring at Jennie unnie in disbelieve. Sometimes I forget that she only loss her memories, not with her sharp mouth.

"Mommy, cursed is bad." I chuckled when Jennie unnie look both shock and pissed at her own daughter.

"Exactly baby girl. Now, can you go to Jungkook uncle and talk to him?"

"sirro." Quickly the little girl looked away but Jennie unnie take her from my lap to the ground, make the girl stand up.

"Barbie will lost Jungkook uncle if you don't help her. Let just not talk to that bad auntie and only talking to Jungkook uncle. Will you?" immediately the girl looking at me who's only could covering my mouth as I heard how Jennie unnie teach the little girl. Then Suji look at the mother while smiling, nodding her head and then running happily to the room beside us.

"Unnie, how can you manipulate your daughter." I scold Jennie unnie who's now smirking while watching the room beside us proudly.

"I don't care what you think, I only wanted to taught my only daughter how to survive in this cruel world." I beat her lightly and then make my face serious again.

"But unnie, let just make it easy. You should be well toward Soomi."

"You can be stupid, but you can't ask me to be like you." I shake my head at how stubborn she is. Still the same Jennie, indeed.

"How did you hate her so much unnie?" she was stunned at the moment, thinking of the reason of her hates, but then she can found it I guess. It got brightened and I hate as she can always take down my words. It's not easy to talk with her.

"I don't know."

"That's the point." I tell her but she cut me off with her next words.

"But I swear all of you do know." I make a thin line with my lips. Yoongi oppa just call me few days ago, he is crying as he tell me that Jennie start to remember something. That she is still trying to collect every puzzle she had been lost. "Tell me what had she done to me to the point I still hate her even after I lost my memories."

"I thought you were agree when I told you to leave everything behind that day."

"And what if I am not agree."

"Then I should leave."

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"Hello."

"Barbie!"

"Yoongi oppa."

"I am scared."

"What's going on? What happen? Is everything okay?"

"Jennie, she start to remember you."

"....."

"Barbie...... hiks... I am afraid...hiks...what should I do? What will happen to Suji?"

"....."

"Barbie I think I will die if she ever leave me."

"That's your consequence."

"Barbie."

"Sorry, I am not a barbie."

"You are too cute for a monster."

"So does your dear sister."

"Who are you?"

"Now, you give your shit."