This feeling just like a floating balloon, floating inside my chest, force me to run and run before it explodes. I look at the damn slow clock on the wall in the meeting room every 5 minutes, I want to go home, I want to feel her arm around my body, I want to see how my angel do. I sigh in a disrespect manner as Jimin keep glaring at me from his desk, pointing at the screen he talks about the business, but I have nothing to say. I left my soul in the house.

If that's not because of another staff he must have been kicking my butt since the first time I sigh, Taehyung Hyung keeps bobbing his head, laughing without making sounds. I can't help. Can I just go home now? I scratch my hair as I check on my phone, and she did not even text me back since morning. I hate this. I hate the fact she is still as cold as ice, despite of what we had done last night. She drives me crazy for real.

"Mr. Jeon Jungkook." Then I heard that calm and firm sound from my number one fanboy, Jimin Hyung, he keeps his smile which is I know the real one under that mask. He must curse on me too much. "Would you like give your advice, or anything from my presentation?" I put my hand phone on my table, nodding my head making serious face then I tell him this one, which will make him wish to end the presentation earlier.

"Surprisingly everything is too good after the break for the honeymoon, Mr. Park Jimin."

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"I know today will come again." Rose smiles at me as she poured the tea for the two guys in the living room, who's now start their fight over something we don't know. She texts me early in the morning, saying that they just comeback form their honeymoon last night and dying to meet me. We simply chatting about their honeymoon in Australia and Roma most of the time, and she tell me to not go because Jungkook will come over with Jimin. So, I agree.

"Finally, you decide it."

We were making our home-made pizza when the guys come, Jimin just sharing light kiss while Jungkook jumping on me like a puppy, I mean a big and muscular puppy swaying my body, it scares me but to see his wide smile make my heart fluttering. I didn't text him; I didn't expect him to come toward me after what we did last night.

Because every happiness come with him, I always found that he will bring two bottles of poison for me to drink. It always happens to the point I feel so scared to feel happy. I want to have him with me, all with me, because like what he said, he is mine. I was thinking he might be busy to find where Soomi live, so I decide to hang out with Rose. But turn out he is in here now, I feel bad for Soomi, but can I think about my happiness first this time? Is it selfish to love myself?

"I miss you." he whispered while back hugging me on the sofa, we were watching drama, while eating pizza and drinking tea. Rose and Jimin left us alone, they disappear as soon as Jungkook taking off his formal outfit, leaving only his sweatshirt on.

"We met this morning." I tell him shivering because now he put his hand under my blouse, touching the back of my shoulder. He seems like my reaction and then sniffing my neck, it tickled so much that I rolled my head to the back, he giggled because I was moaning.

"Can we do it in here?" as soon as I heard what he said I snap back my head and look at surrounding while beating his arm muscle.

"How can you brat." I scold him while he chuckled, catch my body and then hug me fully. Am I this tiny to the point he fully embarrassed me in his hug. "Don't do it in here, Rose might blacklist us."

"I am grateful that Rose has such an aware friend like you." our cuddled immediately interrupted by Jimin who's now showing off from his room with a new shirt along with Rose beside him. Eyeing Jungkook with his glare. "Seems I am not that good at choosing one."

"Are you jealous while you already had wife over there?" he then responded quickly as I am freeing myself from his hug. "Seriously Jimin-ah, I know I am sexy and handsome and –"

"You are just fucker." I rolled my eyes as the two now back on arguing like tom and jerry, I look at Rose who's giggling from her seat tapping her husband's back asking him to slowing down for Jungkook.

"You and your little pepper not even could bring one lady to your bed." He mocks Jimin oppa make the older one widening his eyes, trying to jump but Rose is fast enough to hold on his shirt.

"It's okay, it's okay. I am proud that you are not bringing ladies." saying Rose.

And for some reasons I feel something clenching my heart. Did Jungkook bring ladies over his bed often when I was not in here?

"Oh man, you are in trouble." Now Jimin oppa just realized of how hardened my face was, I really don't feel good to imagine how he touches them. Did he moan their name too? Did he wrinkle his forehead when he did it with them too? Did he?

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"I'll repeat my apologize." I tell her as she lay down beside me, back facing me. "Everyday."

"Don't talk to me." She said still angry. The time Jimin come out with thing, I knew that I would get in such a trouble. I only been playing with girls before, trying to escape from the feeling for her even if that's only for few minutes, I try everything. I did sleep with few girls, not every girl, just few girls. And it was all about one night stand. That's all.

As soon as I senses her anger, I simply take her hand and went home with her, locking the two of us in my room then she lay down just like that. I can tell how happy grandpa watching us hand in hand come to the house, not even looking at them I am just wanting to make it up with my barbie.

"Please, don't be mad. I know, I did bad things. I was a bad guy; I was a fucker. I confess." Desperately I hold on to her waist, moving her to face me. Her face all red, eyes closing, but why did she is so scary. "Open your eyes. Won't you see me?" I plea while pouting, I won't do this for anyone, but her.

I might be a cute bunny for everyone in my youth, but now I am going to 25. I act mature, and everyone now respecting me as the youngest and richest CEO, I won't ruin my image. Only for her I will still be the baby bunny. I'll stay the same for the rest of my life if she allowed me to stick on her, if she let me to marry her.

"I promise you I'll seal my pant and will only take it off for you." I try to be funny, and it did make her failed resisting her smile, she burst in laugh as I show her my bunny smile. Then she sits up on the bed while ruffling my hair which is feel good. "Nobody will touch me but you, Jeon Panpriya." I declare as I raise my right hand up like a superman make her giggle. I love the sounds of it, I will sale everything to hear it again and again.

"What a delicious boy you are." She then pecking my lips but as soon as I chew hers, she pushes me softly leaving me wanting more and startled. "Tasting of sun ray and forgotten promises." I want to tell her that I will keep this promise forever. I will do it since I've broke every promises I told her back then.

I know I've hurt her so many times that every drop of my blood won't enough paying for that mistake. But I will never let you get hurt more, I will make you happy, barbie. Not wanting her to feel sad, I unbutton the upper button of my blouse and making expression as innocent as I can.

"Wanna taste this delicious boy?"

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From: Jimin oppa

Jealousy is a disease.

Get well soon, barbie.

Just don't take it to your heart.

You know who he loves.