"What's going on?" she asks as we sat on our table. I call her immediately as mom inform me that Soomi escape from the house, and from her facial expression I know where she was.

"Do you meet Soomi?" I ask her straightly as she look so uncomfortable in one area with me. I know, I am the part of the painful life she should through now. I am a thief of her happiness.

"Yeah." She said shortly and drink her tea. "She is good. You don't have to worry about her. He take care of her very well."

"Sorry, Barbie." I genuinely tell her but her frown grow as I call by that name. "I mean, Lisa." I correct myself before she left me. She nodded in understandably and smile thinly at me. "I wish I can do something to make you feel better."

"Just, please make my unnie happy." She said softer, I know this girl will never understand how big her sacrifices make our life been better. She gave us the chance to taste the love we've been try to buried deep down our heart. She simply watering the seeds under the concrete that Jennie's making sure won't ever grow with her own tears. And now, it grow so tall and strong, we even had the apple of our eyes.

"You deserve to be happy too." I tell her and then force my gut to reach her hand. And it did felt so damn cold, she is in pain, didn't she.

"Someday." She then give me that warm smile as she put her other hand on my hand. "Oppa."

"Just make sure you will call me immediately when something bad gonna be happen." I grasp her hand tightly, I don't even want to imagine it happen. But who can predicted at what Soomi can do.

"She is getting better now, oppa. She won't hurt me that way anymore."

"Barbie." We startled and immediately parted our hand as we look out the window of the cafe. Jennie was standing there dumbfounded watching the two of us, while holding Suji in her embrace. "Mom, I want to go there. Mom." The little one jump from her embrace wanting Jennie to walk reaching them. So she does.

Put the excited Suji she cleared her throat and silently sitting on the seat beside me, eyeing me and Lisa who's now feel awkward at each other. "I believe you tell me that you had an important meeting with your client, oppa." She said pissed but masking it with a thin smile.

"Just finish with that, and then I meet Lisa." I tell her wishing she believe on my reason.

"What a coincidence." She said shortly as Lisa who's now smiling uncomfortably in front of me.

"Soomi just back and living with Jeon's family." Finally I tell her the truth why did I insist to meet Lisa without her. Because there will be more past memories she should heard and doctor said it's not good for her condition to make it in rush to remembering anything. Well, I also afraid that she will reject me again after she found out that we are lying to her all the time.

To hate Soomi for her is not even need memories of the past, she immediately asking her to go out from her sight the first time they met. I thought she catch the memories back, but then she said she doesn't know why but she felt angry and uncomfortable around Soomi. Her heart remember the pain of our past.

"And you let her?" she then ask Lisa curiously earning a nodded from Lisa. "How stupid."

"Jennie." I warn her to not cursing in front of Suji. Because every time she rise her tone, she will curse.

"Don't you worry?" watching at Suji who's now playing with Lisa' hair she ask her friend worriedly.

"About?" Lisa then ask as she remain calm. But under that mask I know she is not.

"Jungkook."

"He is mature, and know what he is in. I won't disturb that." She said smiling at Suji who's now kissing her cheeks. "I think they are match made from heaven to each other. So why don't we cheer them up?" she then fake her bright smile.

"Hell no."

--

I rushed to the meeting room and then placing my self on the center couch and then facing the screen, I was late. As the representative watch me show up in the room he smiles at me and I gesture him to go on. I scan the room as I met playful stare from Taehyung hyung make me smirk, he then pointed at the other direction of his seat. So, I do so.

There is my queen look at the screen as if she didn't not mind of my existence while the other keep stealing glance at my appearance in here. But what does she do in here? For the rest of the meeting I try to focus on what representative try to call us, but damn, she distract me with that black leather shirt she wear. Can't she just being normal with long dress or whatever it was.

"Mr. Jeon." I snap back from my day dreaming when I saw the representation looking at me with the rest full of wishes, wanting me to respond. What was that again they talk about?

"Uhm." I was stoned for awhile try to find some alibi just to make sure no one will mock me because I've zoned out, I sigh when Taehyung hyung taking over my responsibility and I can only nodded in agreement, fuck off with business thing just now. After the next 10 minutes Taehyung hyung speak finally meeting ended.

"You should buy me the newest Gucci item, bruh." Taehyung hyung catch up with my step as I am out from the meeting room, I nodded while long sighing looking back at the door, waiting for my worst destruction to show up.

"Never knew she will show off like that." I tell Tae, some of employee nodded as they passed by us, and I nodded back un interest.

"She is so hot."

"Mind your own wife."

"Oh, so she is your wife now?"

"So on to be."

"Not with Min Jisoo around." I look at him instantly, I know he is right, but I am angry to think that I won't ended up my single status with anyone but Lisa. Tae didn't flinch as I dart my stare on him, he only shrugged his shoulder while mouthing. The fact is so painful.

"Oh hi, Lisa." He then cheerfully waving his hand at the door direction make me look at her too. She smiles as she waves back at him, walking like a model in the catwalk, she is breath taking.

"Tae oppa." She then hugs him while tidying her hair which is ruffled by dirty hand Tae hyung. "How's Jisoo unnie? It's been a while since I met her." She then spoke.

"She is good, still try to cook something." They are chuckled in delight just for information, Jisoo's expert was only to eat, not with cooking. Jin hyung take all of that ability from their mom's womb and left nothing for his sister.

"Oh, I am relieved you are still alive." She beam make a toss with Taehyung, he made too many skin ship today. I cleared my throat and make them realize that I was with them all along they flirt to each other.

"Oh, I forget that CEO still in here." Got annoyed with how Taehyung addresses me I warn him with my eyes.

"I am just being polite to my coworker for helping me when I was dozed out. Let's have meal together." I tell him and then I see her eyes placing on Taehyung face.

"Ok, oppa. I will go now." She then speak but before I realize my hand already on her wrist.

"And you too."

--

"Unnie." I look around to find pale Yeri walking weakly to my room. Following my instinct I come toward her and put my hand on her head. Fever.

"God, you need to go to doctor." I tell her and make her laying on my bed.

"I know, but I need meeting to go." She then tell me. "Will you replaced me? Grandpa will not be happy if someone's missing from the meeting."

"Where to go?"

"Jungkook's oppa company."

--

"I heard you know about this Min Jisoo." I straighten my back once grandpa speak up. We were have dinner at one of this japanese restaurant he had. He rarely show up in front of us since 6 days ago, since Soomi come. I nodded lightly. "Don't you worry?"

"Worry?" I ask him and put the sushi on my mouth. It's not bad.

"I did some research, Jeon." I sigh when I understand what he told me just now. He probably already know what kind of past we had. Me, Jungkook and Soomi. "And it's not like a small thing since you keep that candle beside your room."

"It's the past grandpa. We cant live with it."

"But some things won't change easily." He states, now I know where my stubborn inheritance come. No wonder kind of person like me is his favorite. Because he is one of a kind too. "And I won't risking the life of the pure Jeon and Jungkook for this little stranger."

"If you hurt her, you'll hurt Jungkook too." I tell him seriously. He then looking at me, wanting more reason. "Yeah, he can't get over her. No matter what happen, no matter who stand in front of him. He will be the one who will run to her."

"She is like the rain grandpa." I tell him while eyeing my sushi. "Once you make her fall, the lovely Jeon Jungkook will get wet of it."

"So, you will let him go like that?" give me knowing look I see how he knows the true feeling from my eyes. "I ever taste the youth too, grandchild." Inhaling deep breath, he then looks straight at my eyes. "There is still a spark of love in your eyes."

I knew, grandpa. I knew. I love him and he loves me. But this world is not working that simple. I know I am fooling around to keep watering the dead flower on the garden. I know he is thirsty, but he wanted tea, and I was coffee. When he said sweet words, I feel like I could life happily just like Jennie unnie. But then I realize, I only fooling myself, it's like wishing for rain, as I stand in the desert.

"You know grandpa, dad just told me that when I was young." I force the smile to make him feel better since he looks so sad to see me this way. "There are 3 solutions to every problem." I make gesture with my fingers, counting it in front of his face. "Accept it, change it, leave it. If you can't accept it, change it. If you can't change it, leave it."

"Grandchild, you are too young to give up."

"Grandpa I know, how you adore him. So, keep it, please don't ever thinking about the blood thing. I really don't want all of this thing. I feel content of what I have right now, and I feel happy. I don't need anything anymore, I've known you know and trying to understand what had happened, I forgive you. and dad. And everyone." I tell him while holding his both warm hand, kissing it while I look at his teary eyes.

"He didn't hurt me grandpa, don't ever hate him." I tell him. "The thing has hurt me, was only my own expectation. No, I am not running away, no grandpa. I just try to be courage enough to make decisions, I will let go of what is hurting my heart and soul. So please let me go."

"It's his loss." He told me. It's my loss too. I feel like lost my whole world. I lost every kiss we ever shared, every hand I'd ever held. I lost it all. But worst of all I have to walk around every day still loving him, still needing him. And hopefully someday, he'll realize that the worst thing in life was losing me, losing someone who loved him and gave the world to him. "You'll be someone's best thing." I nodded my head when he hugged me tightly. His body as warm as dad, as warm as him.

There is no one to blame for, no one can change other heart, the reality that I love him, and he loves me while he can't take off of his eyes on Soomi is not right. I am too full of life to be half loved. May be this feeling is just temporary, maybe it will faded away if I met someone new, trying to feel something with them. I won't blame anyone.

Perhaps, I don't deserve nice things cause I am still paying for sins I don't remember.

"Don't hate him, grandpa."