From: Soomi

Jungkook, help me!

I must be crazy, for can't restrain myself to not ran to her as soon as I got the text from her. I have nothing to think anymore, all I know, I should be there for her. I call her immediately leaving the meeting and come to the airport, where she was.

I saw her, her skin still as pale as before, but her hair now got bit longer. It's been 6 months now, it's been 6 months we never meet to each other, and it was the lonxgest time we ever did since she had recovered her self with therapy in US. As soon as she saw me she just run to me and hug me, sobbing hard, while mouthing incoherent things I can't even understand.

I bring her to the house of Jeon, wanting to know what's going on. Because I know, to bring her into Yoongi's hyung house, will make Jennie feel uncomfortable. It might true that Jennie noona can't remember her, but her heart does. They never had a good term. Ever since. Hugging her on my bed I caressing her hair, I feel sorry for her, I knew, she only had Yoongi hyung back then. But since Yoongi hyung married with Jennie, she put the line between her and her own brother. All she had now, is only me.

"Hey, please don't cry." I ask her to stop but she is still crying on my chest, not wanting to show her face to me. "Tell me what happen."

"Dad...Mommy." I guess that's not a good thing. It must be. So I force her to sit down in front of me, face to face I look into her eyes.

"Tell me, Soomi." Yeah, since 4 years ago, I stop to call her with Mochi. I know she doesn't like it, but she never complain anyway.

"Divorce."

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"Lisa." I can't imagine what I saw just now, it's been 4 days she went to california to replacing my place because I passed out. No text, no call, and I can understand what's going on. She sat beside Yeri, who's frowning and dad also my stepmother on the opposite side. She only look at me, emotionless as she heard my voice.

I wonder why did she act that way, but once I feel cold hand slipped on my arms, I think I know. Yeah Lisa, I am still the boy who can't let anyone hurt. I went down stair with Soomi behind me. She look shocked when she saw Lisa, with the exact emotion she show us the first time we met again. Cold. I lead her to sit in front of Yeri, and then I position myself in front of Lisa.

"Good morning." Greet dad not really interest as Soomi bowing her head toward dad and auntie Irene. "Let's eat, enjoy the breakfast."

"We won't waiting for grandpa?" I asked, and then Yeri responded with dry chuckled while stabbing her bacon with the fork.

"Funny." She said shortly. I bit my lip as I try to make eye contact with Lisa, but unfortunately she is now focusing on what Yeri tell her. She smile thinly to anything what Yeri said. I know grandpa will never have eat with us together, because Soomi was in here. He doesn't like her since the first time they met. He said there were the aura that told him is not going to be good to know her. I wonder.

"Lisa, you did great job in california." Dad is the first person who break the ice cold between us. He smiles genuinely toward her, and she return it back with a thumb up. "So, father want to arrange the next schedule for you the next week to Milan."

"That's an honor for me, uncle. But." Instantly I look at her, totally avoided anything what Soomi just said to me now. "Mom, want me to come home."

"I doubt that father will agree with the idea." Dad is raising both of his eyebrow while rolling his eyes to auntie Irene.

"Why is so sudden? You just come home last night. Unnie." Yeri is whining while holding her arms make her ruffle Yeri's hair.

"Mom's pregnancy is getting bigger. And I already promise her to be there when the time comes." Yeri is pouting at her and then darting her fierce eyes on me and Soomi.

"How about me? You tell me that I am your sister, you will dump me?"

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"So, you are back." I know that she can't last longer stay silent in front of me. So I simply waiting for her to come to my room, unlocking it. I look at her who's showing on the door while sitting on then bed.

"You too." I replied shortly as I tap my bed to ask her to sit down beside me. I know this feeling won't last, the hates in me. I can't blame her, I can't simply put all the mistakes on her. Because just like her, I maybe also obsessed too much toward Jungkook. And I know it's not health.

"I thought you also lost your memories." She said then sat down beside me, watching the entire wall as I hang the pictures of mine and mom and of course Marco.

"If I can choose, I will be glad too." I answer her still remain calm, but it makes her wonder, gazing at me full of curiosity. "So I can forget every bad things that happened, every lost, every moments."

"And end up like Jennie, feeling all happy foolishly." Mocking tone is so clear in her voice as the smile disappear from my face.

"Rather than, got stuck in here just with both of you." I can tell she can senses my anger build inside. "Sometimes, I really want to un meet some peoples, like yeah we had a good thing together, but I don't want you."

"You look like not put your interest anymore toward Jungkook." She claimed make me chuckled as I lay my body on my bed. "Pretending will always be your expert."

"And being fake is yours."

"I am trying to heal myself. You know, needle was got injected in here, everyday, with medicine and therapy section." Sometimes I feel sorry for her condition. She just, had the trouble with her mind, with her mental. "But you are here, and I can't let you with him."

"I tell you Soomi, it's not even called love."

"I know." I am gawking at her sudden answer. It's unexpected. I just want her to fight me back with her sharp words. But now she just admit it. "But who cares. He is both the cure and the poison for me." Same here. Same here Soomi.

"I know that you saw me kissing him last night." I am stun at her words. I clenched my fist as I am replaying the memories of them kissing each other inside his room, while me... "I just want to explain."

"You? Explaining?" I want to slap my own face as I heard what she said. Wow, that's new.

"I know you hate me because of Jinny and Jungkook. But I want to be more.....friendly." she looks so hesitate but I know she is generous so I smile at her assure her that I agree and okay with that.

"Yesterday I was so angry toward my family so I simply text him to fetch me." And of course he will run to her no matter what happen. "Because I can't comeback to the place where Jennie was. She hates me even more than before, she was so confused and it hurts her head. So, for Yoongi oppa."

"Thanks."

"What was that about?" she asks me wonder why I thanked her. But I really want to tell her that.

"For trying to be kind. And thinking about the one you love first." Hesitantly I reach her tiny soft hand, it so cold, just like mine. "That was beautiful. The time you spent to be kind."

"You are weird, you know." She then commented then take her hand from me. "I had the problem with my family, and Jungkook..."

"He will run to you." as I saw her eyes which is now looking back at me, I give her an understandment. That's not a secret, that who Jungkook was, that who Jungkook is. And he will keep being like that.

"Mom and dad will get divorce. They are the only good thing I can depend on when I try to not hurt Jungkook." I want to calm her feeling, but I just don't know how. I know the feeling to have a problem with family, with the divorce too. It's kind of trauma for me, honestly.

"Nowadays they keep shouting at each other, dad don't want mom anymore." Ironic tale which is will got repeated again and again. "Mom tell me that it was because of me."

"If I wasn't born as a psychopath dad won't leave mommy."

"Soomi..."

"Don't." I stop myself as I try to talk sweet thing to her. "Please, don't. I tell you this because I don't want you to hate Jungkook because of last night. I was the one who kiss him. And he never kisses me back, not like before. There I realize something. He changes."

From : JK

Don't go.

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"Panpriya, I want to go to heaven." Childishly the blonde girl speaking to the dark hair girl who's lying on the grass beside her while pointing at the blue sky. It was a good day, no cloud, no rain.

"What's the good of heaven, Jinny?" the dark hair asked with a frown, half closing her eyes because of the sun light.

"What do you mean, twin?"

"You'll be bored to stay there? I guarantee you'll begging god to put you to the hell instead by only staying there in 2 hours." Said the dark hair earning light beat from the blonde one.

"I don't think so. The elder always talking about heaven and they smile as if the won lottery. Maybe I should try." She insist while caressing her friend's dark hair.

"Believe me, heaven is a place where nothing ever happen. You'll be boring."

"Who told you that?"

"A friend."

"Wanna know what's good of heaven from me?" the blonde one then looking at the dark hair one as she smiles shyly. "In heaven, no body breaks the heart of another." Then she kisses the dark hair cheeks as the blonder faded away, the dark one just been blinded by the sunlight, until she wakes up, alone.

"Jinny." She whispered wiping the tears on her eyes and the sweat on her forehead. Watching at the clock, it's 4.15 a.m. Time to pray. Time to pray. She remind herself, still trembling she try to stand up and unlocking the door. To face the heart breaker standing sadly beside the table which is the candle she put to pray for her twin.

Not even make any sounds she reach the place beside him, not even glancing at him who's now putting both of his hand in front of his chest. She decide to pray for Jinny.

Jinny, I wish you will never been bored up there.

And Jinny, help me!

"I am sorry." The voices comes from beside me, but I know, I have no obligation to react on it.

I have no one but Jungkook. I can't erase the words that Soomi told me.

"I miss you."

No one want me, but Jungkook.

"I love you."

Liar.