Sophia's POV

"I know you like Jungkook"

I looked at him quite shocked. I didn't knew how he got to know about it.

"I saw you guys holding hands today" he smiled, at that moment even his smile was calming my soul, "Both of you looked happy. It's okay you know. At first it felt unfair. It was like..." He squinted as if trying to fine the perfect word to describe himself, "like..someone stabbed my heart but I'm really okay with it" he paused and sighed with a smile, "..as long as it's our Maknae" he stopped and looked at me with a comforting smile "if you really love him than just tell me, I can't force you to love me just because I love you, I.. I just wanted to open my heart to you".

Tears welled up in my eyes and I tried hard to hold them back.

"And I think" he pause and licked his lower lip trying to hold back his tears,  "...he loves you too"

His eyes were red. Pain flickered in his eyes but he was smiling. He was hurting inside. It was clear how hard it was for him to let those words escape his mouth and to continuously keep that smile on his face just to show that he didn't cared, even if he was dying inside. I finally gave in letting the tears flow freely.

If only you knew what was in my heart. If only I could say I love you.

"I'm.." I sniffed. I tried to swallow the lump in my throat and speak but it pained like hell. He gently squeezed my hands.

"Take your time" he said and I nodded immediately because that was the only thing that sounded good at the moment.

Still holding my hands he stood up.

"Let's go" he said.

He started walking but I didn't moved. I didn't wanted to. I didn't wanted to go down and face Jungkook. I didn't wanted to face anyone. I wanted to be alone. I wanted to cry. My heart was heavy. It was hard to breathe.

"Hey Nemo don't stress yourself." He said and pulled me into his arms. "Don't make me regret confessing to you" he chuckled as he caressed my back.

His words made me sob harder. I clenched onto his shirt tightly as I tried to muffle my sobs. I continued to cry in his arms for I knew he would never judge me. His embrace made me feel secured. It felt as if all the broken pieces of my heart were put back together. It pained less and was peaceful. It felt like I was not alone anymore. I was feeling the feelings I've been dying to feel again, the feeling I thought I could never feel again. That's when I knew I was living again.

"Stop crying okay?" He mumbled softly against my hair.

"Let's go down" He pulled back and looked down at me from his lofty height. He wiped off my tears with his thumb and gave me a smile.

"Let's go okay?" He said and I nodded.

We walked down the stairs and than towards the balcony. I tried to put a smile on my face still trying to take in everything that had happened a while ago. I didn't knew what I should do. But I knew one thing for sure, I can't lose them.

"Hey where were you two?" Namjoon said.

I was glad that the light was not so bright and I was able to hide the pain in my face with just a simple smile.

"We were hungry... So went to the kitchen" Jimin replied at once.

"Jungkook went to search for Sophia. He won the game. He gave up halfway on the fourth can." he said pointing towards Taehyung who was talking with Yoongi.

"Yeah?" Jimin said and Namjoon nodded.

I looked at Jimin and he looked tensed. Sure enough we both were thinking the same thing. He loved Jungkook just like the others.

He looked at me and squeezed my hand slightly. He was thinking the same. Deep down in my heart I knew something wasn't right and I knew it was all because of me. There was guilt building inside me.

I wriggled my hand out of Jimin's grip and walked back in. Tears rolled down my cheeks and this time I didn't wanted to hold them back. I was scared. All I could feel was pain and guilt. Jimin wasn't following me. Maybe he too understood that I needed some time alone.

"Sophia"

I stopped and looked to my right. And there he was with a smile on his face standing at a distance. He walked a little closer and my heart almost sank. His eyes were red and wet.

What have I done.

"Can we talk please?" He said softly.

It was surprising that he was still sober. I looked back and found Jimin standing at the balcony door watching us. He gave us a smile and diverted his attention to Hoseok and started talking with him. I looked back at Jungkook and nodded.

I wiped off my tears and followed him out off the house to the shore.

Both of us kept quiet as we walked down the shore. I was waiting for him to speak but it was taking longer than I was expecting. The sound of the waves washing off the shore was all that could be heard. At a distant the sound of crickets could be too. A slow breeze continuously made the tree leaves dance to its flow.

"Isn't it weird?" He chuckled, breaking the silence, as we walked beside each other "I'm sure you already have an idea what I feel for you"

Indeed, I was well aware of it and now it was confirmed. I looked at him as he continued.

"I saw you talking to Hyung."

I knew it.

The tears were ready to be surfaced anytime.

"And I heard everything... I don't have anything to say. I'm happy for you and him" he said and I looked at him surprised.

"What do you mean?" I croaked.

My voice sounded hoarse from crying. He stopped and turned to face me. He cupped my face and leaned forward. His hands felt cold against my cheeks but it felt good. I closed my eyes as he placed a kiss on my forehead and for a moment it felt like he was saying goodbye. Tears rolled down my cheeks.

He pulled back and I opened my eyes. My heart was aching. I never wanted things to be like this. He looked at me and wiped off the tears on my cheeks with his thumb.

"I'm not leaving you" he said with a smile as if he read my mind. My heart eased a bit.

"Sophia" he said still smiling. "I love you... I will always be there when you need me I promise. So..." he paused, "....Say yes to Hyung"

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