Maybe he was in the shower. We waited for almost 10 minutes but the door never opened. Panic struck me every minute. I couldn't wait longer. I finally asked Jin if he had extra keys but he said no, so we decided to force the door open. Jin pushed a few times and finally, the swung door opened.

I rushed in and called Jungkook's name but he wasn't on his bed so I assumed he was on the toilet, but there were no sounds of water. The bathroom's door was locked so Jin pushed it opened and I couldn't believe what I had just seen.

My Jungkook was lying unconscious on the floor with blood coming out of his wrist. I fell to the ground. I couldn't believe. How can he commit suicide? I never thought he would do this. I just stood there frozen to the ground. Jin was calling 911 and all the guys circled Jungkook around. Suga was shaking Jungkook's body and kept calling his name. V was sobbing and Jimin was trying to calm V down. I saw a note beside his wrist. I took it and read it, it said:

To My dear hyungs and Ashley,

I'm sorry that your golden maknae won't be here anymore. I'm depressed as the love of my life just broke up with me and I received the news that I got cancer too on the same day. Please all of you, don't blame yourselves as there are other reasons too if I were to be honest. Those are just the two things that finally made me hit the breaking point. I just can't handle it anymore, I'm really sorry. I don't want you guys to cry for me. Your tears worth everything in the world. I love every single one of you, including you A.

A, if you're reading this, I want to tell you that I don't hate you. I would never, I love you too much to hate you. I'm just a bit angry, not at you, of course not, but at myself for not being the boyfriend you wanted. To top that up, my emotions just been at bay with all the things happening recently, especially when the doctor told me I have cancer, it just my breaking point I supposed. I know you don't want to have a boyfriend who has cancer, so even If  I don't want to let you go, I had too. I don't want to be selfish to force you if you're not happy in this relationship.

It's okay A, really don't worry about me. Go  find someone who is better than me, I'm sure you will find the right boyfriend. I'm not sure if you still love me or not, but no matter what the answer is, don't let this stop you from finding a better boyfriend. Now that I've think about it, I am fine with you leaving me. There's no bad blood A.

If I were to be brutally honest, I knew our relationship was a mess and most probably wouldn't work out since the very beginning. I am right though, the strain in our relationship has just gotten worse and worse, especially now that I have to go on tours and you have your shoots, your acting career is at the top of the world and you're working on your first album. I know we're both very  busy and at the top of our careers so I guess you're right, maybe this is the time we should end this relationship, to prevent our hearts to break even more. I'm sure you'll enjoy your relationship more if your boyfriend is less busy unlike me.
Anyways enough of this talk, I hope you can come to my funeral, please come, do it for my sake just one last time, even if you, well worst comes to worst, hate me.

Please take care of my family guys, especially Jung Hyun. One last thing, please don't cancel the concert tomorrow, nor the tour. I don't want to upset the fans due to my selfishness, I swear I won't forgive all of you if you did. I love all of you, remember that! This is not a goodbye, till we meet again.

With love,
Your dearest Jungkook xx

By the time I finished the letter, my whole face was wet. My eyes were puffy and red. The paramedics had arrived and were taking Jungkook to the ambulance. Jin pulled me up and I hugged him. My foot felt like they were glued to the ground. They were shaking too, hell, my whole body was shaking.

"Shh. It's okay." Jin said trying to be strong for me, and the others even though I knew that he was holding his tears.

"I-it's not okay Jin. He can't leave us. No. No. I-" I said between my sobs and cried louder. I probably sounded like a lunatic but I didn't care.

"Let's get you to the car." He said and I dragged my foot they seemed to be shaking terribly. Jin saw that I had trouble and carried me on his back.

"Th..thanks" I muttered between my sobs

It'd been 3 hours since the accident and Jungkook was still in the operating room. Every minute that passed seemed like hours. Finally, the doctor came out.

"Mr Jeon Jungkook is stable now. I should say he's  one lucky person. We had to give him a blood transfusion as he had lost too much blood, but it's all good now that we had stitch his wrist. However, his heart flatlined twice during the operation but we managed to bring him back. He's currently in the Intensive Care and still unconscious but you can see him, two by two. He'll be in room number 104, the nurse, Abby here will show you his room."

"O-okay. C-can I p-please see him first?" I asked Jin, I don't know. I have been really close to Jin lately, don't get me wrong. He was more like a brother to me, a brother that I've never had.

"Yeah. I'll come with you. Is that fine with you guys?" He asked the rest of the boys

"Yeah." The said in unison

We went in and I saw Jungkook lying lifelessly on the bed with lots of machines stuck to him. He got an IV on his right arm. His left wrist was band-aided because of the cut he made, he got an artificial pacemaker, a cannula, a breathing tube that goes down his throat, a feeding tube and his left thumb was clipped to a machine that showed his heart rate on the monitor beside him.

I sat on a chair next to him, took his hand gently and called his name. I rubbed circles on his hands and talked to him. I'm not sure he could hear me or not but I didn't really care. I saw tears slipped out from his eyes. He cried. What happened?

"Jin, he's crying. What should I do?" I asked

"He is? Maybe he's in pain?"

"I don't think so. It's more like he's really sad about something." I said as I wiped his tears with my thumb.

"What should we do?"

"I don't know. We should just hope that he will wake up soon."

Just as I started rubbing circles on his hands, his fingers moved slightly. I called his name and told him to open his eyes.

Jungkook's POV(Past)

I blacked out after I cut my left wrist. I didn't know what happened after that but a few minutes before I blacked out, I heard Jin's voice talking to a girl and a huge bang, which I'm pretty sure was Jin who broke through the door. Then afterward I was in a weird white room, my wrist was amazingly healed or so I thought. There was no mark at all, it didn't hurt too. I was feeling as if my body was made of feathers, I didn't feel my weight at all. Wow. I ran out of that room since it was so plain, and found myself in a garden that looked like paradise. It was the best view I've ever seen in my life. Wait. Was this real? But anyways it looked like one of the gardens from a fairytale movie. My stomach wasn't upset at all, it was like I have no adenocarcinoma. I felt really healthy. I looked around and saw my cousin sitting on a bench near the water fountain.

She looked at me and I waved happily to her. I sat next to her and hugged her tightly. I missed her so much. Wait. So I'm dead, aren't I? Since my cousin, Claire died a few years ago. Maybe I am. Hopefully. If you wonder how can my cousin's name was Claire well that was her American name.

"What are you doing here Jungkook?" She asked

"I don't know. I found myself here Cla" I said

"Hmm you certainly did not just found yourself here. Weren't you the one who commit suicide?"

"Well, uh, yeah. Wait! How did you know?"

"I have always watched you Jungkook. I thought you knew?"

"Uhh..no. Maybe? I don't know."

"Well, then you now know. First I wanted to tell you that I am very angry and disappointed at your behavior Jeon Jungkook. Why would you do such things? You wasted your life." She increased her voice and called me by my full name which was really rare. Even though she tried to shout at me or rather increased his voice her voice still sounded so soft and calm, like an angel's voice.

A/N:

How's the chapter. It's the longest since the first chapter I wrote. It's over 1680 words, okay some of you may find this short but this book have the longest chapter I've ever written. In my old book, the longest was only 500+ words. Please vote, share and comment! I'm sorry if there are lots of grammar mistakes. Love you all.