"I think so but I'm scared mom. It will hurt. I don't want to do this but I have to or I..I will...." I couldn't continue my sentence.

"Okay. I get it Jun. I'm sure you'll get through you are strong."

"I know mom. I know that I will have chunks of hairfall and by then no one will like me again. No body will like Jungkook. Not even Ashley."

"No. I know the rest of the guys will like you and will still like you the way you are no matter what will happen later. If the ARMY are truly your ARMY, I'm sure they will like you the way you are. Ashley will too. If she really loves you."

"Okay mom. I..I will talk to you later."

"Bye honey." She said and I hung up

I felt like somebody was beside me. I turned around and there was V sitting next to me. He had tears in his eyes.

"How did you know I'm here?"

"I..I don't but you love gardens so I thought that you might be here and I'm right." He said and tears slipped out of his eyes.

He left a few moments of silence before he started talking again.

"How did this happen Jun? I thought you're fine. I don't want to lose you. You have to fight okay?"

"I'll try until my body really can't except the chemo anymore. I will get the chemo today probably."

"Today?"

"I don't know, I mean we'll leave at wednesday for the tour. We can't cancel that. So maybe it takes like 2 days I don't know. I'll ask my doctor."

"Jin said you can take chemo pills while we're on the tour."

"Can I take it now?"

"Yeah. Jin is getting your medicine."

"Oh okay...."

"Um...so should we tell the ARMYs? Or do you want to keep it a secret."

"Let's just tell the ARMY. They will soon know too rather than keeping it a secret. I saw two or more paparazi outside earlier. The news must been everywhere and they're wondering to their death. I'll tell Ashley before we start the live." I said and called Ashley, my girlfirend. I hope she's not upset. Once the ringing stopped, I heard her voice.

"What happen? I saw the news. Who's sick? I texted you and the other guys but none of you replied."

"Oh...about that. It...it's me. I'm the one who's sick, Ash."

"You?"

"Yeah. I uhh....I have been not feeling well lately and I vomit everything I ate."

"Are you okay?"

"I..I....actually...after the results, It turns out that I have ca...cancer. It's adenocarcinoma stage 2."

"You got what? You got cancer? Jungkook, what are you takling about? Are you serious?"

"Ye..yeah. I ha..ve to do chemo"

"Um....So you have to do chemo?"

"Yeah. Or you know I'll"

"Yeah I get it, but I don't think our relationship can last you know I mean you have to go on your tour and your chemo too, we can't spent much time together. My schedule is really full too lately."

"So...you mean....we...br...break up? You break up with me because of my cancer isn't it? You don't want to have a sick boyfriend. We've been together for 2 years and when I went to the other tour, you didn't complain and we're busy since the past years so I guess that's not an excuse." I said and tears formed in my eyes.

"No. That's not what I mean. I don-"

"Just keep it. We're over. You break up with me because I have cancer. I'm not supposed to love you because I think you don't love me truly. You only love my look or my fame or both. I don't know. I never thought this would happen. I never thought you would break up with me because of my cancer."

"No really, I don't mean it in that way. It's just. It's not a good relationship you know."

"No. Stop defending yourself Ashley. God knows what you want. So stop trying and acting like you care about me. Don't pity me. I know you don't except me because of my cancer and you want a healthy boyfriend, so you can go and find one since we're over. I can't believe you're actually like this Ashley." I said

I hung up and tears were all over my cheek. I can't believe it. Why? I lost my girlfriend that I had date for over 2 years because of a stupid cancer? Why should I have cancer. Ashley wouldn't have break up with me if I didn't have cancer. Why was life so unfair? Everything was unfair. How am I supposed to fight? No one loved me. Maybe the guys just pity me. No body really care about my feelings. No body understands me. If I'm not here in this world anymore, maybe it will be better. I won't suffer. Peace. I don't really think that Ashley will really break up with me but she did. She broke up with me because of my stupid cancer. I guess chemo have no use now. I'm sure the ARMY would forget me later on. All of them would, my family, the guys, the armys, everybody. I just had to wait for the time and spent the rest of my life. Or should I take it easier? Should I just commit sucide? It was simple. I didn't have to suffer. Yeah. Maybe that's a good idea. I would soon die too anyways so why not? Oh I just realised that there was V. He looked at me confused.

"Just leave me alone V. I need sometime alone." I croaked

"What happend? Did Ashley break up with you?" I nodded

"Just tell the ARMY without me. I don't mind. I need fresh air." I said and left not knowing where I was going to go.

I'm frustated and I feel like I have no more reasons to live in this world. The only girl I love broke up with me. She probably hates me. I didn't know and receiving the cancer news was enough to make me depressed now my girlfirend broke up with me? Seriously? That was crazy. I loved her and I thought she loved me too. Maybe she did but she left me after she knew I had cancer.

A/N: Hey guys new chapter here! I hope you guys like it and I'm sorry for the grammar mistakes. Please like vote and comment :) I really want to know what you guys think and I'm so happy I got 8 rankings for this story :D and it's currently 12 midnight here and I have to get up really early tomorrow so I have to sleep. I love you guys!

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