"Oh really?" she asked and peered at Shantele's phone, "I didn't ask Dave to take any though"

"He said that he just felt like doing a hidden camera prank to catch people sleazing around" I say the last part and look at Vicky and Riley with a smug look on my face, and once again Riley looses the color in her face while Vicky clenches her hands under the table.

"That's dope" Renae says, "let me see"

"Hold on" I say, let me just send it to you. After about 2 minutes of waiting Renae complains about not receiving any message, "I'm pretty sure I sent them to you" I pretend to search for the message before pasting a look of horror on my face, "oh no! I accidentally sent them to the school group"

Everyone at the table immediately whips out their phones and there are collective gasps, snickers and 'o's coming from the table. Everyone in the cafeteria now have their phones out and are whispering and pointing fingers at our table.

Vicky pulls out her phone and her eyes go wide and she looks at me staring back at her with a smug look on my face, "I'm so sorry" I gush out and try to appear sorry, "no one might actually realize that it's you"

"You little bitch!" Vicky fires out and I cock an eyebrow at her

"careful" I say and tsk, "someone might actually think you're talking to me" I then lean forward and prop my elbows on the table and place my head on them, "and we all know you don't want to talk to me like that"

Vicky is red with fury and Riley is shaking and we all can hear faint sobs coming from her

"I mean" I start and notice from the first time Micheal giving me a disapproving look which I ignore, "it's one thing to be shagging each other but it's another thing when you're shagging your best friend who's in a relationship with a dude" I shake my head in disapproval at this, "and a nice dude at that"

Vicky also begins to shake and I'm pretty sure it's not because she's crying but because she is trying to keep herself from lashing out at me which she must have already concluded to herself would be a horrible idea.

"Now you see how horrible it feels to be on the receiving end of bad words" I say, "even though on your part it's totally true"

"stop" I hear Jordan say but I ignore him. The times when Jordan had the authority to stop me from doing things has long gone and me ignoring him is a sign to everyone that we're not on good terms anymore.

"Next time you want to gossip false rumors about someone in such an open space, choose someone who is less likely to step on you" I say and as I am about to drop more insults a hand grabs mine in a strong grip, pulls me up from my chair and begins to pull me out of the cafeteria. I don't turn to look at the person but instead I keep looking at Vicky and Riley before shouting a last comment at them, "stay safe icky and slimy"

Outside in the open hallway I pull out of the persons grip and turn around and meet Micheals heated stare and I squirm a little.

"what the fuck is your problem" he asks and I flinch at the tone in his voice and begin to feel tears threatening to come loose.

"None of your business" I say and begin to move past him in order to not let him see me cry and realize that every cruel word I said to Vicky and Riley actually sent painful jabs to my heart.

Before I can move past him he grabs my arm and stops me from moving, "damn right it's not" he says icily, "and to think I thought better of you". After saying this he let's go of my arm and walks away, leaving me there to wallow in guilt.

Everytime I heard someone say in the movies 'to think I thought better of you' I always wondered why they'd look dejected and crestfallen but now that the same words were said to me I understand the pain that comes with the words.

Not long after Shantele comes out of the cafeteria and sees me standing stiffly and engulfs me in a hug while rubbing my hair.

"I did the same thing to them" I say and she shakes her head at me, "no, really, I did the same thing he did to me"

"you're totally different" Shantele says while leading me towards the nurse's office. I don't say anything to her but in my head I keep repeating 'you're a monster' to myself.

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At home finally. I have a headache that makes me feel very dizzy and drowsy. I walk straight to my room and barely notice my mom who's sitting in our living room.

As soon as I am in my room I make a mental note to myself to skip dinner and school tomorrow. My mental energy right now is at negative seventy and all I want to do right now is drop dead on my bed, fall unconscious and forget my worries even though it would be for a short while.

My peace lasts a lot longer than I expected before Flinette barges into my room singing bambi bambi before throwing my new phone on my bed and jumping on my bed.

I groan and try to push her off but she doesn't even budge and then turns to face me before fixing her 'I need to tell you something you might not like' look on me. I groan and wait for her to spill.

"so... I have a date this night with Andre" Flinette starts and not being one to really beat around the bush drops the remaining part of the bomb on me, "and Andre invited Shaze, and I don't want him to feel like a third wheel so I would really appreciate it if you came with us so it could be like a double date"

I stare at her for a while, "no", she gasps at me and begins to give me puppy dog face which I consider for a while before replying a swift "no"

"c'mon, it'll be fun" she begs me, "this is the perfect chance for you to let your fan girl dreams come true"

I sigh and then finally manage an "okay" which immediately lights up Flinette's face and I feel bad because I feel like I'm one of the many reasons she hasn't really smiled in the past few days.

She skips out of my room and I drag myself to my bathroom to take a quick shower and wash off the grime of bitchiness off me.

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The drive to the movie theatre was hilarious to say the least. Flinette and Andre were too busy staring at each other like love sick puppies to even see the reindeer that was standing in the middle of the road and when they did we had to swerve so fast to the other side of the ride.

The whole time we were swerving Shaze kept muttering about the tasty meals one could make out of reindeer meat. I kept snickering about this till we reached the movie theatre. To put the cherry on the cake, the movie began with a scene involving a reindeer which made the four us begin snickering like loons to each other and a comment from Andre who wondered how the reindeer had enough time to get into the movie after we had left it on the road.

The movie on the other hand to say the least was a sappy romance that didn't amuse me or Shaze, but to Andre and Flinette it was just perfect judging from the foolish expressions on their faces.

To un-bore ourselves Shaze and I decided to chuck a handful of popcorn at the direction of the screen everytime a cheesy romance line was used while shouting boos and doing thumbs down. To say we were thrown out of the movies would be an understatement.

The manager of the theatre took a picture of Shaze and I, then gave it to his assistant and told him to print several copies with banned for the year printed on it.

This leads to where Shaze and I are right now. We are sitting on one of the many benches in the park while waiting for Andre and Flinette to be done with the movie so we can go have dinner.

"I have an idea" I speak up and Shaze merely raises an eyebrow at this and I feel like I know what he's going to say next

"Did you possibly think of this idea?" he asks and I'm tempted irrespective of my fast beating heart and fluttering stomach to hit him real hard somewhere I'm sure that it would hurt.

"yes, I did" I grit out and take in a deep breath, "this is supposed to be a date for them, so why don't we go over to my place for dinner instead of impeding on them"

"I'm shocked to say that you have actually thought of something sensible with that toy brain of yours" he says with a shocked expression and I have had enough of his mean taunting and hit him on the head with my purse and I earn a satisfactory sound of pain from him.

"douche" I say and stand up while beckoning on him to follow me which he does after a minute of trying to gain his composure after laughing at my violent action.

We hail a cab and bicker with each other all the way to my house which earns us suspicious glances from the cab driver who probably thought we were siblings who weren't taught proper etiquette.

Before we even get to the door of my house, the door flies wide open and I see my mother standing by it while beaming at Shaze and I.

Immediately we reach the door she grabs Shaze into a huge hug and simply disregards me. What did I expect after all I did to her.

She ushers Shaze in and I follow suite and plop onto one of our may couches while scrolling through my new phone. After about a minute of no interaction I look up from my phone and see my mom offering Shaze food which he accepts with the smile of an angel on his face.

Tears begin to brim in my eyes at their interaction and I stand up and head into my room. Judging by how long my mom has been away, I doubt Shaze would have a chance to worry about my absence with the way she is already hounding him in questions.

I enter my room and flop once again on my bed. With my mom around I can't skip school tomorrow. I scream into my pillow and finally cry myself to sleep.

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I wake up around midnight obviously starved since I didn't have lunch or dinner. I walk into the kitchen and see my mom with a bottle of whiskey in one hand and a box of tissue in another. I look at the whiskey warily and eye my obviously drunk mother more warily.

She looks up from her glass with red rimmed eyes and the only two emotions that I've seen on her face in a long time; distaste and pain.

To think that I'm one of the reasons for that only makes me want to cry. I walk up to her, "mom" I croak out, and the woman who used to look at me with so much love, who would braid my hair now looked at me dispassionately before going back to ignoring me. The tears that I was fighting an internal battle into holding began to fall out.

She looks up at me before speaking, "stop that, it disgusting", she sneers the last part out, "you don't deserve to do that". She then throws the tissue box at me, stands up and takes the whiskey bottle up with her to her room.

I stand where she left me with tears in my eyes. I sink down to the floor and began to cry loudly while clutching my chest and repeating the same words to myself 'you're a monster'

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This is the double update I promised you. 

From here on Status Quo is on hiatus and will be back shortly.

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Sincerely yours,

Tee out!