Flinette ditched practice and went to go hang out with Andre because according to her she doesn't need to be around us all the time and we should practice without her today which left Avaline in charge because she is the future captain.

To my surprise Avaline seems to be a great leader, only if she wasn't easily swayed by the prospect of power I would feel bad about using her but I know that she's also just using me to go higher in the Status Quo.

"Why the hell is everyone fucking up the steps?" she all but screams, "the big game is this Friday and if we can't cheer our asses off right now then what the fuck have we been doing all this time?"

"I'll say" I say, "I've been gone for two weeks and some of you are doing worse than I am"

"The weather hasn't really been favorable Ava" Renae says saucily, I wonder who made her the voice of the masses.

"Did I say you could speak?" Avaline demands and I really would like popcorn so I can sit back and enjoy the drama properly.

"Is it okay if I speak?" I ask Avaline, her face brightens up immediately, "I think I have to agree with Renae for once, the cold and our uniforms aren't good for our health.

"I agree with you" she says and smiles.

"But that's the same thing I said" Renae says and I can tell she is getting pissed from the obvious favoritism.

"Was it?" Avaline asks and tilts her head, "maybe it didn't sound the same coming from a disrespectful bitch like you"

"Disrespectful bitch?" Renae's anger is reaching breaking point, "you sure have a lot to say now that you've become captain when you couldn't even look me in the eye back then"

"That was then and this is now, I think power brings out the best in people" Avaline smirks, "you should have kept that in mind before you pissed off the one person with the second most power in the whole school"

Renae looks at me with eyes wide and mouth agape, I see fear crawl back into her eyes as my eyes glint with hatred, "Jossie you said that you were done with the whole revenge business"

"Did you see me scheming anything?" I ask and raise my hands up like I did nothing, "you just happened to make a mistake all on your own without my interference"

I want her to feel dread building up as she realizes I am back again, I want her to realize that she lost the old Jossie and the Jossie that had tried to be better. Those Jossie's finally died along with her sister and where they went they can never be recovered.

I won't just take away a few things from her, I will make her rue the day she crossed paths with me and decided to be my friend, the day she decided I was neglecting her and decided to do something about it, the day she decided that I was easy to manipulate, and finally the day she made my best friend turn his back on me.

I let Avaline think that it's only through show of strength that Flinette and I managed to stay in power meanwhile it is more than that. My dad was part of the founding fathers of this private school and even in his grave, is still funding this school and hence the school board would not like to lose a family that caters to their needs financially. To put it simply, my family owns big shares in this school and since Flinette came of age earlier this year she has taken a place in the board which makes us invincible and untouchable even by the teachers.

"It's quite chilly Ava" I rub my cold hands together, "why not we wrap this up and get some rest"

"Alright" she turns her attention to the rest, "The game is this Friday and there won't be school till then because we are done with exams so please practice properly at home and don't fuck this up, okay?"

We all say yeah and rush into the warmth of the locker rooms. I change and walk into the school car park where I see Micheal standing.

Just looking at him standing by his car has both my fingers and my stomach curling. I want to slap him, kick him, and yet still hug him because I miss the comfort of his arms. Tears run down my face and I wipe at them furiously.

He said he would never hurt me like the others did and yet here we are. He has hurt me, in fact he has had the intention of hurting me from the get go.

"Hey" he says and takes hold of my hands and begins to warm them in his. I stare at his hand and imagine them holding another guys hand.

"Hey" I reply and conjure up a smile when all I want to do is cry. I can't believe that I'm back to this point where I was a month ago, when I was so angry and yet still feeling love for the person who hurt me. "Why did you do it?" I ask.

"Do what?" he asks.

I won't let him know that I know he's gay, I'll start off with his emotional blackmail. "Why did you send me those texts?"

"Which texts?" he asks and I pull my hand out of his grip to show him all the messages.

"These" I say and make sure he sees all the messages he's been sending me, "You said you liked me so what's all this?"

"Jossie, calm down first" he pleads and I find it funny.

"I don't need to calm down because I'm not yet angry as you can see" I pull my other hand out of his grip and slip it into my jean pocket so they continue staying warm. I sigh and a puff of white air comes out.

"Let's go somewhere quiet where I can explain"

"Why? You don't want people to find out that you've been emotionally blackmailing me while whispering sweet nothings into my ear at the same time?" I say frostily, "though I have to admit that it was damn classy of you"

"I messed up in the beginning but things are different now" he explains.

"Damn right they are" I snap, "you hurt me and then stretched open your arms so that I could run into them while you comfort me when you were the cause of all the hurt I was going through"

He rubs my shoulders and I want to step back from his grasp but I don't since he's actually helping me to stay warm, "I didn't know you properly and I fucked up but please let me make it up to you"

"You can't make it up to me at least not now because I can't still seem to wrap my mind around why you would continue to do something like that to me even after I opened up and told you everything about myself and even my inner thoughts"

He looks pained and like he would cry at any moment, maybe he actually likes me or maybe he's just so good at playing with me but I don't care anymore, "It seems I was too hasty in my decision to trust you even though my head was sounding warning bells" I shrug his arms off my shoulder, "The only good that came out of your betrayal is that now I've learnt not to trust anyone ever again. Thanks a lot Micheal for making me lose my last hope of people actually being different than the monsters that haunt me"

I walk past him and sniffle as I feel hot tears pricking at my eyes. My heart hurts so much and I can't imagine what I'm going to do without him around me. I trusted him so much and relied on him to help me with a lot of things and now I have an empty space that can never be filled again because I am never going to let anyone in ever again.

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I spent Tuesday perfecting the routine and my master plan. I'm not going to waver this time, I'll be damned if I let them hurt me without letting them bleed a little.

It's now Wednesday and I'm ready to put it all into action. I had breakfast with my mom and Flinette and it was hard to sit there and watch my mom become more of a shell of her former self, Flinette on the other hand has lot tremendous weight and I can still see dark circles under her eyes even though she has applied a mountain load of foundation. I guess it just goes to show how we can't hide our pain no matter how hard we try so I'm going to embrace mine because it makes me want to see others going through the same thing and feeling the same hollow emptiness as I am right now.

I've told no one of my plans, not even Flinette because I want everyone to be left dumb struck when I reveal it all on Friday in front of the whole school plus the competing school.

I dial Renae's number and she picks immediately, "Hey"

"Hey" she replies and her voice sounds hollow like she's been crying, I don't mind, I only wish I was there to witness it.

"Can we meet up today?" I ask and bite my lips nervously in hopes that she will accept because I really need her to accept so I can set the plan into motion.

"Why should I?" she asks and I rub the bridge of my nose in frustration.

"Because I want to smooth things out between us and I know that after Adaira's death there's things we need to discuss" I reply.

"Then you can say it to me over the phone" she says icily.

"I could but it would be insincere" I say

"Fine" she concedes, "where and when?"

"There's this new joint that opened and I want us to check it out" I'll text you the address and meet you there by 8"

"Okay" she says and cuts the call.

Up next is Micheal and he also picks immediately, "Thank you for calling me"

"Don't thank me yet" I reply frostily, "Let's meet up at Club Felicidad"

"Why there?" he asks and I can tell he's suspicious.

"Isn't that where it all started?" I ask, "come if you want us to smooth things over and if you don't then I'll just take it as you not being interested" I cut the call because I'm not in the mood or frame of mind to hear him make some stupid excuse to get out of it.

I waltz into my room and search my drawer for my temporary hair dye kit, "we meet again old friend" I smirk.

AN

*Sniffs the air* Am I the only one who smells something cooking? *Sniffs the air again*  No? Okay then.

Anyhooo yo yo yo things are getting hotter, emotions running wilder and pain going deeper.

Stay tuned for more drama behind the popular table.

Byeeeee