I try to roll over, but I'm held in place with a thick pair of arms. I open my eyes to see Calum looking down at me. Immediately my lips curve up in a smile. "What're you doing here?"

His arms wrap around me tighter. "I came over this morning with the boys and Luke said you were upset. So I'm here to make you feel better."

I press my head back into his chest and say, "Thank you, but i'm going back to sleep. i don't feel like human-ing today." I close my eyes before hearing his response.

"But bean, it's Christmas. You don't wanna miss christmas... It's your first on since you've been back." I can feel the vibrations as he gently speaks to me.

"I do wanna miss it. I'm still upset with Luke, but please don't ask what's happened bc I'm too tired to explain." I'm not sure he understood all of what i said because I just mumbled into his chest.

"Luke told me some of what happened. I understand your frustration, but I want you two to be good again. He's your twin."

"mhm. goodnight." I snuggle further into his chest and make a point of fake snoring.

"Nope. You're getting up and you're dealing with this." After hearing the determination in his tone I wrap my arms around his waist and hold tightly to keep him from getting up and getting me up.

To no avail though, he just drags the both of us up. "Noooooo, Cal, you don't understand. I can't face him and I don't want to. Pleaaaaase."

Calum holds my hands in his before saying, "Of course you can do this, you're just scared and that's okay. Whatever happened can be resolved. You both love each other and would do anything for each other. He took you home last night from Eliza's and made sure you didn't wake up. He loves you, and you love him. Please, even if you do this for me."

I do love him, more than anything. I'm going to fix things eventually though, so I might as well do it sooner than later. "Fine, but tell him to come in here, please. Ooh and could you make me coffee while I'm talking to him. That way if things go badly, I can look forward to the coffee, and if things go well, they get better because I have coffee." I smile cheekily at Calum before he nods and kisses my cheek before leaving the room.

After he's gone to get Luke, I smooth my hair down and wipe my under eyes. I don't want to look like a complete mess. Deciding to brush my teeth before he gets to my room, I walk towards the bathroom.

By the time I feel presentable enough to talk to Luke, it's been a few minutes and I'm feeling pretty antsy. Just when I'm about to bust through the door and find him myself, he walks in.

"Luke, uhm please come— come sit."

"Lil, before you say anything, just listen." He waits for a nod from me before continuing, "I was completely out of line. I'm so sorry for calling you sensitive and I won't ever again. I'm also really sorry for you feeling like you needed to explain yourself and that everything you told me wasn't in a loving environment where you trusted me." He pauses because of the tears starting to race down his face, "but a hostile one where you felt the need to prove your point. I'm just so sorry, Lil."

I wipe the tears streaming down my own face before bear hugging him. "Oh Lukey, I shouldn't have gotten so frustrated so fast. I think things were just building up so much and then everything spilled over. I'm so sorry too." We just held each other and cried for awhile, before wiping our tears and heading to the kitchen to meet the boys. "Good morning, boys." I say less peppy than normal because of the exhaustion I feel even though it's only one in the afternoon.

As soon as I get the words out of my mouth, I have the three boys smushing me in a group hug. When they finally release me from the hug, I notice the coffee Calum made for me, and the Vegemite toast that Ashton probably made for me. "Aw thanks for the coffee, Cal. Ash did you make the toast orr—?"

"Yeah, I wanted to make you happy." He smiles before holding me in another hug.

While we're hugging I whisper in his ear, "I need to talk to you sometime soon. Nothing's wrong, it's just something you understand." I pull away and smile at him as I receive a nod.

Being around the boys, who obviously care about me has certainly raised my spirits. I walk towards my coffee and toast on the counter and start drinking my coffee. Before I'm able to get more than a sip or two in, Michael says, "So does this mean Christmas is back on?"

What does he mean "back on"? Luke responds as the other boys don't know how to, "Lil, the boys and I had been planning something for your first Christmas back, but because you were so upset, I told them that you probably won't be in the mood for Christmas. And yes boys, Christmas is officially back on." He smirks as he joins the other boys in their springing into action.

I'm still kind of confused, at least as to what they're doing. At least he explained what they meant by Christmas being back on. As the boys are disappearing and reappearing from sight, I just pull my self up to the counter and sit there eating and drinking my little meal. Once I've finished, I put my plate in the sink and pour myself another cup of coffee.

Right as I finishing pouring in the cream and sugar, Michael comes around the corner, accomplished looking. So this whole time I haven't had a view of the living room as I've been in the kitchen. "Alright Lili, it's time to be wowed, but close your eyes." He helps me down from the counters and leads me toward the kitchen.