DRACO WALKED towards Snape's office with shoulders down. the sun has set, and the blonde had no idea what do anymore. he felt numb, as if nothing mattered anymore- because the only thing that mattered was Y/N

but he doesn't matter to her anymore, not after what he did.

the angels and devils were fighting in his mind, saying 'why did you do it? it was wrong,' but at the same time, 'she kissed my bestfriend, she cheated on me,'

but that's the thing. he didn't think it through, sure, she kissed Blaise, but he did something worse.

Merlin's beard, he slept with his ex, and he sure didn't mean it. but what's the point of explaining when he's already lost Y/N?

Draco entered Snape's office, and saw the teacher pacing back and forth, a letter in hand.

the blonde looked at him tiredly, "Professor, you called for me?"

Snape faced his student, his eyes burning with anger, "What were you thinking!" he exclaimed, making Draco jump back a bit.

"W-what did I do, professor?" the blonde asked in confusion. what has he done that made the professor so.. angry?

Severus didn't answer, instead, he took a letter from his table, there were two- exception the one on his other hand, the letter for Hermione, Ron, and Harry. Draco took the letter from the professor's hand, and slowly, he opened it. 

the first thing that he noticed was- it was Y/N's hand writing, and the letter was addressed to him.

as he went on reading, he felt his whole world tumble down like Jack and Jill. he couldn't stand up any longer, his knees were week, so he dropped on one of the chairs in front of Snape's desk. the professor didn't say anything, instead, he sat down on his desk, his eyes dark with anger towards the blonde.

"Ms. Granger came walking in here, crying, telling me that miss Eve left these letters on her desk," said Snape, inhaling sharply, "We almost lost her, Malfoy-"

"She's still alive!?" exclaimed Draco, immediately standing up. his eyes were glassy, but he couldn't care less, he just found out that the love of his life almost died- he literally thought thought she already did.

the letter scared him. he regrets all the things he did to hurt Y/N this much that she attempted to kill herself. he tried to push away the thought of her limp body on the ground, not breathing- but he couldn't. a mix of guilt and pain ran through his veins, this is all his fault.

as he was about to walk out, Snape stopped him by shutting the door with his wand, "Where are you going?! we're not done yet, Malfoy," he said.

Draco couldn't help but let out his tears. 

the blonde once again let himself fall on the chair in front of Snape's desk, as he wiped his tears away. he didn't know how to feel anymore, his feelings were all rumbled up. he leaned his elbows on his knees, and covered his face, "I'm sorry professor- I've let her down, and I.. I don't know how I can forgive myself."

the professor's anger disappeared, but it changed into pity. pity for the young couple- they're going through something, and they were too fast to give up. they didn't even try to fix it, they just- broke each other's hearts.

a sigh left Snape's lips, "It's good that the Eves haven't heard of this," he said, raising the last letter on the table, "If they knew, I don't suppose they'd still let their let you see their daughter- ever."

the thought of not seeing Y/N anymore frightened Draco. he didn't want things to happen like that- he still wants to be with her, build a family with her, grow old with her. he still wants to do a lot of things. with her.

"I'm sorry, professor," Draco said, as if he couldn't say sorry enough- and really, he couldn't "I'm sorry professor, please tell me where she is, I want to apologize to her- explain even though I have no idea how."

Snape studied the blonde for a moment, and saw that he was genuine, "How would I know you wouldn't let her go again, Malfoy?"

Draco stopped for a moment. he didn't know how to answer that- he has already lost her two times, and who says he won't lose her again? but he's determined to do things right this time, "I won't let her go- not again," he said.

the professor studied him once again, and after a few moments, he said, "Madame Promfey informed Ms. Granger and I that she's currently in the hospital wing with a cold," and with that, Draco left without another word, his heavy footsteps filling the silence of the corridors. soon, his footsteps faded, and Snape couldn't help but mumble to himself, "Never let go of your Lily again."

• • •

Draco entered hospital wing with shaking hands, expecting to see Y/N with a sad expression on her face- but when he saw her, she was laughing with Hermione Granger.

Y/N noticed him come in, and her smile disappeared, making Hermione furrow her eyebrows and look behind her.

the bushy haired girl's eyes lit up with fires of anger. she pulled his wand out, and pointed it at Draco, "You! how dare you show your face again!" she exclaimed angrily, and the blonde couldn't blame her, even he is mad at himself.

"Mione, it's alright," Y/N said softly, giving her friend a comforting smile.

Hermione glared at Draco, and put her wand away. feeling the tension in the room, she looked at Y/N, "I'll see you again tomorrow," she said.

Y/N only nodded, and watched the bushy haired girl walk away. after Hermione was gone, her gaze was averted to Draco, who stood there uncomfortably, as if he went there without a plan, without knowing what to say.

smiling at him, Y/N gestured to the chair that Hermione was sitting on earlier, "That seat is free," she smiled.

Draco sat down, and silence followed. he didn't know where to start- but he thinks it's good to start with an apology.

"I'm sorry," he said, "I'm sorry for hurting you," looked at her in the eyes to let her know he was genuine.

even though she already knows the story, Y/N couldn't help but ask, "Why did you do it? sleep with Astoria, I mean."

Draco looked down, "I was hurt," he said, "But that's not an excuse for me to just cheat on you, and I want you to know I regret it."

"You were hurt?" asked Y/N

"I saw you and Blaise kissing in an alley way in Hogsmeade- I just didn't seem to think straight after that. I got drunk, and the next thing I know.." the blonde couldn't continue, he doesn't want to think about it anymore. it's like one of those memories you want to bury deep down, and never remember again.

Y/N swallowed the lump in her throat. she understands now. they both made mistakes, but they let their emotions take them away than thinking about it, than just fixing it, "Astoria saved me, you know?" at that, Draco looked up, his eyebrows furrowed in confusion, "I wouldn't be alive right now if it weren't for her."

"Astoria..?" Draco asked.

"She told me everything," Y/N smiled, "You didn't sleep with her- she couldn't let you do something she knew you would regret."

Draco's mind stopped for a moment. love really does do a lot of things you can't imagine, but it's not Astoria's fault, Y/N knows that.

"I.. didn't?" the blonde couldn't believe it

shaking her head, Y/N said, "You didn't." the girl inhaled sharply, and looked down at her hands, "Also, just so you know- I didn't wish for that kiss with Blaise to happen. I slapped him after a second or two," she said, even laughing a bit.

the blonde looked at her, "You didn't?"

"I didn't- but I'm sorry if I hurt you. trust me, I never intended to do that. I love you too much," Y/N said.

Draco smiled, and leaned forward, cupping the girl's face with his hands, "I love you too," he said, staring into her eyes, but his eyes came down to her lips, and without stopping himself, he asked, "Can I kiss you?"

Y/N let out a giggle, and grabbed Draco by the collar. she crashed her lips onto his, even though she knew it was a bad idea, seeing that she had a bit of a cold.

but she couldn't care less about that anymore.

because they're finally together again- and at this point, nothing will break them anymore.

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