Flashback 3 years ago

"Hyung~ don't go. Minjoon keeps on crying. He only calms down when he's with you. Do you have to go to this meeting? It's Sunday, family day~" Jimin whines, his hands loops around his husband's hand.

Namjoon chuckles looking at Jimin's beautiful eyes, pleading him to stay.

"Baby, I'll be going for just three hours. I'll be back before dinner. Okay?"

"Promise?"

"Promised!" Namjoon kisses the tips of Jimin's nose, earning a sweet giggle from him and kiss his son's face all over.

Minjoon is just a 10 months old but he's very-very clingy towards Namjoon. Just like his appa, Jimin.

Jimin sighs looking at Namjoon's car drove away from their house. He had no choice but to spend his time alone with Minjoon. Lucky that he has Minjoon now. At least he wouldn't be so bored, staying at home alone. Jimin did all of his chores and playing with Minjoon to kill time.

Jimin glances at the clock, he realizes that he needs to start cooking now. He quickly skips to the kitchen after putting Minjoon in his crib. He starts gathering the ingredients to make Namjoon's favorite dish, kimchi jigae. After a few minutes, he starts to cook his husband's favorites while humming happily. Once he finished cooking and completely satisfied with his dishes, he glances at the clock. It was half-past 7, and Namjoon still haven't arrived home yet.

Jimin frowns, grabs his phone and dialed Namjoon's number.

"Jiminie, sorry baby, I'll be a little bit late. I'm still here, they're being difficult. I need to---"

"But you promised! I even cook for you!"

"Oh baby, I don't think I'll be able to be there in an hour. I'll be having dinner with them. I'm sorry love. I—"

"Fine! Don't come back at all!" Jimin's voice cracked. He hangs up the call, sits on the chair and starts sobbing. It wasn't about the dish. It was him, he missed Namjoon. They had so little time together as a family even when Minjoon was born.

Don't get him wrong. Namjoon is a very good guy, a perfect one. A perfect father, a perfect husband. But he works too much. He didn't even have the time for his family. Jimin sometimes feels so lonely because Namjoon didn't stay at home even on holidays for him and Minjoon. He loves Namjoon, so-so much but he's too upset now.

Jimin wipes away his tears. He stares at the food he made, especially for his beloved husband. He sighs, picking up Minjoon and walks to their bedroom. He place Minjoon down, and sleeps himself in hunger.

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Namjoon apologizes profusely towards his clients, making excused that he needed to be home immediately. As soon as they let him go, he grabs his car keys and starts driving home. He didn't mean to drive that fast, but he's feeling guilty. Jimin is waiting for him. He has to be there for him. He needs to be there. He needs to-----

'Screeeeeeeeeeeeeeechhhhhhhhhhh'

Namjoon was driving too fast, he didn't even see that there's a car, coming right towards him. He immediately puts on the brakes but it was too late. He tried to avoid the car in front of him, unfortunately, his car makes a 360 degrees turn and crash right onto the divider.

Namjoon could feel his body going weaker and weaker. His eyesight became blurry, his breathe hitched. Blood flows non-stop from his head and his nose. A moment after that, he couldn't feel anything, his hearing slowly fade away. The last thing that he remember is the sound of siren.

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Jimin woke up, sweating all over as if he had a very bad dream. He glances at his phone, the reason why he woke up in the first place. He spots a very unfamiliar number on his screen but he picks up the call anyway.

"Hello?"

"Hello, Mr. Kim Namjoon's residence? This is Seoul's Hospital. Mr Kim is in hospital right now. He was involved in a car accident.------"

Jimin's world crumbling down. His phone falls on top of his laps. Tears keeps on rolling down his cheeks. He couldn't process what he heard just now. His limbs feels weak, his whole body is trembling. He gathers all his courage and picks up his son, calls tae and rushes towards the hospital. He couldn't even bother to wipe his tears as he knows it wouldn't stop anytime soon.

Once they reached the hospital, Jimin wasted no time, he bolted to the emergency room where Namjoon is. He prays all his heart that his husband would be okay. Every emotions hits Jimin right on his heart. He scared, scared that something bad happened to him. He didn't want Namjoon to not be okay. He needs him here, Minjoon needs him here.

The light on the ER goes off, indicating that the surgery was ended. Once the doctor comes out, Jimin and tae quickly approach him and asks about Namjoon.

"Which one of you is his family?"

"m-me. I'm his---- I'm his husband." Jimin said in between of his sobs.

"............ I'm sorry. We lost him. The injury was too much. He lost too much blood. We tried our best, but--- I'm sorry." the doctor bows in apologize and excused himself.

The doctor's words ring trough Jimin's head. It keeps repeating in his mind, making his heart clenched, hurting in pain.

'No—it can't be—'

For a second, Jimin feels like his world went silent. He heard nothing, sees nothing. The only thing that appears in his mind is image of smiling Namjoon, and their last conversation keeps on repeating in his eyes.

"Jimin—"Taehyung couldn't say anything, couldn't do anything. He couldn't even wipe away his best friend's tears. He hugs Jimin's tightly. Minjoon is crying on the bench, Jimin knows that. But he's too afraid to make a move. He didn't know what to say to him.

Jimin slowly walks towards Minjoon. He held Minjoon close to his chest. His eyes fixed on the floor, his mind went blank. For a second, Taehyung was scared. Jimin looks lifeless. He didn't even cried, his dried tears still remains on his cheeks, but there's no new tears flowing down from his eyes. Taehyung keeps on calling out Jimin's name, but Jimin was just—just froze.

'It was my fault'

'It was my fault'

'It was my fault'

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Jimin's eyes wide open, his heartbeat races, his heart hurts. He's having that dream again. With a trembling hands, he opens the drawer next to his bed, and takes out a calming pill. Once he took the pills, he tried to breathe in and out, calming his heart. He glances at the clock, '4 O'clock'. He palms his face, sighing heavily.

He dreamt about it again, the day Namjoon---

Jimin glances at his side, looking at sleeping Minjoon. He smiles looking at how calm Minjoon is when he's sleeping. His face looks exactly like Namjoon. Jimin runs his hair trough Minjoon's hair, kissing his forehead before lying next to him again.

He wanted to sleep, but there's too much going on in his mind. His dream, Minjoon, and Jungkook. Jungkook? He frowns thinking about their fight earlier today. Jimin didn't mean to shout back at Jungkook. But he was frustrated. Jimin knows better that he's being taken advantage off in that office. But he has no choice, he needs the money to support his and Minjoon's life. Jungkook knows nothing! He didn't know how much Jimin suffered back then, alone with Minjoon. Jungkook has no right to shout at him like that.

Jimin was so frustrated. But he didn't know what he's frustrated about. It wasn't Jungkook, it wasn't his colleagues. Jimin lets his tears falls. He didn't know what that tears was about, but he needed it.

"Jungkook knows nothing!"

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