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You're hard to hug

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Matt Holt.

Matthew Holt.

Matthew Rosanna Holt.

Matthew Rosanna Holt was a victim of a broken heart.

He wasn't an affectionate person.

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Tough to talk to

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Matt rarely talked to people.

He only did so if it was for school, or if he truly liked you.

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And I never fall asleep, when you're in my bed

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They were fuck buddies.

That's all it could be described as.

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All you give me is a heartbeat

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He was a lovesick fool.

It was truly heartbreaking.

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I've turned into a statue

And it makes me feel depressed

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Matt was always made of stone when it came to the other man.

He broke himself down each time he told himself a lie about their relationship.

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'Cause the only time you open up is when we get undressed

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The man beside him in bed never stayed after the deed was done.

The man always got up afterwards, rushing out of the room.

It was almost as if he had a ring in his pocket.

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You don't love me

Big fucking deal

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Matt knew that he was being used.

He wasn't an idiot.

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I'll never tell

You how I feel

You don't love me

Not a big deal

I'll never tell you how I feel

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Matt never asked the other to stay.

He never let himself slip up and say something.

He had to deal with his feelings by himself.

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It almost feels like a joke to play out the part

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Matt knew he wasn't special.

He knew that the other just needed someone to bring home.

He knew all of these things.

But he allowed himself to fake the happiness.

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When you are not the starring role in someone else's heart

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Matt was never the starring role in Shiros heart.

Shiro never looked at him during the day.

Shiro didn't love him.

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You know I'd rather walk alone

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Matt began to walk alone.

He ignored the pings from his phone.

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Than play a supporting role

If I can't get the starring role

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Matt deserved more than a supporting role.

Matt was always nice to the other male.

Matt rarely complained.

He let the other talk about life, as he stayed silent.

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Sometimes I ignore you so I feel in control

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Matt continued to ignore the pings.

He just wanted to be alone.

He wanted to let himself believe he had control of his feelings.

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'Cause really, I adore you, and I can't leave you alone

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Once again they were in his bed.

Matt was staring at the ceiling, silently crying.

They were in the other man's room.

Matt knew he would have to leave soon.

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Fed up with the fantasies, they cover what is wrong

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Matt took out a piece of paper.

He told the other to stop calling him if all he wanted was sex.

He won't come to the others beck and call.

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Come on, baby, let's just, get drunk, forget we don't get on

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Drunk hookups.

God Matt should stop drinking.

He's sleeping with a taken man.

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You're like my dad, you'd get on well

I send my best, regards from hell

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Matt was in hell.

He knew what they were doing was wrong.

He was trapped in his personal hell.

Every single time he saw Adam he was overwhelmed with guilt.

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I never sang for love, I never had a heart to mend

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He never told the other he loves him.

His heart could never take the blow.

He could never be as happy as he previously was.

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Because before the start began, I always saw the end

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He always saw the end of what they were doing.

How it would end badly.

They were nothing.

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Yeah, I wait for you to open up, to give yourself to me

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Matt never got what he wanted in his life.

This wasn't an exception.

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But nothing's ever gonna give, I'll never set you free

Yeah I'll never set you free

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Matt wasn't important to anyone.

He never was.

He never will be.

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The starring role

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So Matt walked over to Adam and told him everything.

Not in hopes of ruining the couples relationship.

But to tell Adam what he's been doing.

Matt felt useless.

He will never be the starring role in anyone's heart.